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Bella's Wedding Day

Summary:
Bella's big day has finally arrived. BUT what happens when an old friend comes to wish her good luck? WARNING...if you don't like Jacob, you won't like my story. :)


Notes:
Disclaimer: Stephenie Meyer rocks! The people are hers...not mine.


1. Chapter 1 - Wedding Guests

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Bella POV

What a breathtaking sight!

As I stared out the window, through the beautiful lace curtains (so that I couldn’t be seen) I watched as the guests arrived and started to take their seats. Carlisle and Esme were mulling around, greeting people and Charlie was sitting on the side talking with Billy. Of course, Charlie would have told Billy about the wedding, whether of not I wanted him to. It was really nice of him to come -- especially considering what I’d done to Jacob.

It was a glorious day for a wedding. Overcast, of course. ‘We don’t want anyone sparkling more than you,’ Edward had joked. Alice had really outdone herself. At the end of the aisle stood an arch covered with roses. There were white chairs on either side of the aisle with a white carpet in the middle. I’d never seen the Cullen house look more beautiful than it did today. Flowers were everywhere.

It looked like all of Forks had come to see the wedding. I frowned a little. I had wanted a small, intimate, family affair. What could I do though, I’d given the reins to Alice. The only thing I insisted on was walking down the aisle to Claire de Lune.

My stomach tightened as I looked again and again for Renee. It didn’t look like she was here yet. Surely, she wouldn’t miss her only daughter’s wedding. She must just be running late I told myself.

Alice and Rosalie had just left me here alone. They had really enjoyed this wedding thing. I really hated when they dressed me up and did my makeup and hair, but today I didn’t mind so much. I had my beautiful dress. It was a vintage looking gown and was something I loved and knew Edward would too. My hair was done in a very sophisticated up-do with a veil pinned neatly under the curls in the back. There was a row of petite white roses lining the crown of my head with a small tiara. I hoped they weren’t real diamonds in it. I didn’t dare ask.

I saw Charlie get up and knew it was almost time. I had butterflies in my stomach. I wasn’t nervous really, just anxious I guess. Edward had just come into view with Emmett and Jasper on either side. They were all smiling as they walked toward the arch. There was a knock at the door. I smiled. “Come in, Dad.” The door opened. “Is it time? I’m rea-... Oh...”

“Hi, Bells.” Jacob whispered. It looked like he’d grown yet again. This white shirt was tight against his chest. It looked like his suit was two sizes too small. He’d cut his hair again. It wasn’t as short as his brothers’ but still shorter than it was before.

“Jacob?” I hadn’t said his name out loud since the last time I’d seen him three months ago. I was surprised at the sadness I heard in my own voice. I was sure he had heard it too. “How are you?”

“Fine” was all he said. But somewhere behind the strong façade, I could tell that fine did not describe him at all. “You look beautiful.”

“Thank you.” I whispered appreciatively. “It’s good to see you. I’ve missed you a lot.”

“I’ve missed you too, more than I ever thought possible.” The anguish on both sides of our exchange was unmistakable.

He took a step inside the room and closed the door, wanting to be alone. I wondered at that moment if Edward or the rest of my new family knew who was standing here in front of me. I was almost positive they did and I wondered what they were thinking. Strangely, though, it didn’t really matter. All I wanted to do right now was take Jacob in my arms and hug him really tight. I fought the urge with everything I had.

In the end, it didn’t matter. As soon as the door snapped closed, Jacob crossed the room in two large strides and took me in his arms crushing me to his chest.

“Jake...can’t...breathe!” It always seemed to amaze me how tight his embraces were. He laughed and released me, just a little. “Sorry” he said chuckling awkwardly. “I always get carried away.”

I wrapped my arms around his waist and squeezed him back. I found myself lost in a whirlwind of emotions I couldn’t explain as his lips met the top of my head. I had almost forgotten what a comfort his warmth was. My head tingled where he had kissed me.

He let go of me and took my hand. We walked over to the couch and sat down. He turned, pulling his leg up under his other knee to face me completely. “Bella, are you happy?”

“Yes.” I replied quietly. My answer didn’t sound convincing and it bothered me a little.

“Really?” I could tell he’d heard it too.

“Yes.” Again, it wasn’t very powerful.

He looked into my eyes, wringing his hands. I waited.

He cleared his throat and took a deep breath.“You know, I still love you, right?”

“I know you do. I love you too.” I could feel the tears starting to form. No! Don’t cry! That won’t make this any easier on him. I thought to myself. The first ones spilled over the rim of my eyelid. Oh, no, Alice is gonna kill me when my mascara runs. Rosalie said to use waterproof.

Jacob reached up and gently removed the first tears with his finger. “This is not what I was trying to do, Bella. I’m so sorry. I shouldn’t have come.” He started to stand and his fingers released my hand. We were both surprised when I didn’t let go.

“Are you happy?” I asked.

“You want honest or what I think you want to hear?” he asked hesitantly.

“Have you ever lied to me before?”

“No.”

I smiled, “Don’t start now.” As soon as I’d said the words I knew I was going to regret it. It had been months since I’d seen Jacob. But I thought of him every day, every hour, every minute. Even when I waswith Edward I couldn’t stop thinking about Jacob. I knew Edward knew. I knew it hurt him. Sometimes he was short with me, angry about something unknown; unknown to everyone but me. I knew. He was bothered very much by my memory of Jacob Black.

“The truth is--” he paused gazing into my eyes. I could tell he was gauging whether or not to actually tell me the truth. I knew, though, as long as he kept his eyes on mine, it was the truth I would get. “I’m actually doing--” he dropped his gaze; his voice shaking. I lifted his chin with my finger to bring his eyes back to mine. He knew exactly what I did, he couldn’t lie looking in my eyes.

“The truth.” I whispered.

“I don’t want to hurt you.” The agony in his voice told me the truth was going to hurt me.

“Only lies will hurt me.” I lied. “I want the truth, Jacob.”

Agony filled his voice. “Okay, Bella. The truth.” Anguish filled his eyes followed by glistening tears. Please, don’t cry, Jacob. I can’t take that! “The truth is Bella, I’m heartbroken. I’m no better than you were when you came to the garage that first time” he started. Wait...maybe I don’t want to hear this. “I’m worthless to the pack. They are so irritated by me that they’ve asked me not to phase without warning them first.” He chuckled to himself. “Pathetic, really.”

I didn’t realize I was crying again until his warm hand reached up and again brushed the tears from my cheek. “I’m sorry, Jake.” There was more to it though. I looked down and started tracing the lace patterns of my dress with my finger.

I had Edward. I loved Edward. But these last months without my sunshine were more unbearable than I’d everimagined. I’ve already made this decision. I’m supposed to get married in 10 minutes. What am I doing? The chatter in my head was deafening! It was Jacob’s words the brought me back to reality.

“Bella?” he whispered quietly. I looked up from my lap. “I’m sorry. I didn’t want to do this. I do want you to be happy.”

“I know,” I whispered. How could I ever be happy when I was stuck with two men who loved me. Two men whom I loved with everything I had. I couldn’t be without either of them. I had convinced myself that I was okay with my decision, but my subconscious had been shouting the truth at me for the months since I’d told him goodbye. AARGH!!! I need to think! I was screaming at myself. “Jacob, can I have some time alone please?”

“Sure, sure.” I could tell he was hurt by my question. “Do you need me to send anyone up?”

“No, tell them I just need some time to think.”

“Time to think?” I heard a smile in the question although his face didn’t move.

“Yes.”

There was a knock at the door. This time I knew it’d be Charlie. “Come in.”

“Hey, Bells! Well, are you rea-...” He stopped dead in his tracks as his eyes found Jacob. He glanced back and forth between the two of us. There was no doubt that Charlie hadn’t known he was here. Did anyone else?

“Uh...hi, Jake.” As he spoke, the words were directed to Jacob but his eyes were on me. “What are you doing here?” he asked taken aback, but pleased.

Jacob shrugged, “just coming to wish the bride good luck with everything.” Charlie noticed my wet eyes and looked back to Jacob. “I was just leaving.” Jacob turned, kissed me gently on the cheek. “Let me know if you need anything, okay?”

“Okay. Thanks, Jacob.” I was surprised by the feelings that overwhelmed me as I watched him exit the room. The hole in my chest burst open with excruciating force. Charlie shut the door and turned to look at me. A sob escaped my lips. Charlie crossed the room and hugged me.

“Shh, it’s okay, Bells.” NO, it is most certainly not okay, I shouted to myself. This was not something I could explain to my father. I only cried harder. “She’s on her way.” He was trying to comfort me but my missing mother was the last thing on my mind.

I nodded acknowledging that I’d heard what he’d said about Renee and attempted to choke back another sob. “Marriage is a big step,” he continued. “Everyone gets nervous on their big day. Cold feet are normal.” Is that what you think this is? Cold feet?

“I’ll be okay, Dad. I just need some time to think about things. Could I get some privacy.” I could tell he was hurt by my response. Probably feeling inadequate as a father or something ridiculous.

“Okay, honey. Do you want me to send Edward up?”

“NO!” I practically shouted at him. He looked at me in surprise. “No.” I said again gently. “I just need a few minutes to be all by myself. Please wait downstairs. I’ll call when I’m ready.”

He gave me a questioning glance and turned “okay, you’re the bride.” He smiled a timid smile as he started to close the door.

“Dad?”

“Yeah?”

“Will you send Jacob back in? I need to get some clarification on something.”

I could tell by the look he gave me that he was utterly confused. “Uh, okay. I’ll send him right up. Bella, don’t hurt him. He’s just barely pulling out of his funk.

“I’ll try, Dad.”

“Okay.”

The door started to close. “Oh, and Dad, tell Edward I need privacy. He’ll know what you mean.” I turned back toward the window. Out in the yard under the arch stood two men I loved more than anything in this world. I could tell by Edward’s stance that he was being cordial but was not entirely thrilled that Jacob was here and had spoken to me. I’m sure Edward knew about it by now.

Charlie came into my view. Edward and Jacob turned to greet him. Jacob nods and Edward looked up at the window, the pain in his eyes evident. Jacob followed Edward’s gaze and looked back at his rival’s face. I could see the pain in his eyes too. Edward nodded to Jacob ever so slightly answering a question I was sure Charlie hadn’t heard. Jacob started toward the house and my heart started beating out of my chest. The butterflies in my stomach had multiplied and I felt sick. I sat down wondering what I was going to do now. I sat there in silence for what seemed like forever.

A knock, ever so soft, brought me out of my thoughts.

“Come in, Jacob.”