ok my first story was. . . not so good. so i'm hoping this second one wil be better. this story basically takes place 25 years after Edward left Bella in New Moon. Alice didnt have a vision and Edward didnt come back i go the idea from a book by Dean Koontz and am using Stephenie Meyer's characters which means I PRACTICALLY OWN NOTHING!!! just the random characters i make up every now and then
13. Chapter 13
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I’ve had a lot happen to me in my lifetime. I have also seen a lot. More than I would have liked to. More than a person ever should. But don’t like my depressing history dampen your spirit. You go on and continue believing that the world is a great, kind place and everyone will eventually have a happy ending. I have a hard time believing that that’s true.
I cling to every memory I have as hard as I possibly can. I’m gluten for punishment. But I have to remember everything. Supposively all things in this world happens for a reason. So explain to me why I was raped? Why had I fallen in love with a monster? Why did the man I loved just disappear off the face of the earth without a trace? Why was I betrayed by a person I had thought cared about me? How come everything I do comes back and bites me in the butt? And why am I like a beacon for pain? Fate is cruel and I am its favorite subject.
With a sigh I taped close the last box of my stuff in my room in Codin, Idaho, right beside the capital Boise. I couldn’t live here anymore. Just being in this room was hard. It was the room I shared with Greg. Just thinking his name had anger surging through me from his betrayal.
The house was oddly empty now with only three people, including me, in it. There used to be five of us, but now only three soon to be two. I felt bad about leaving Amanda and Leo only in this house but they were married so they at least would have each other if they got lonely. And besides, it wasn’t like I was cutting off all communication with them. I would stay I touch. I was just not going to live with them anymore. There was just too much to remind me of Greg and William though I was quickly loosing any affection I had for either one of them.
The Cullens were relocating again and offered me and Bella to join them. Bella accepted without a second thought, wanting to stay with the family she had once been a part of and now was again, one of them. They had welcomed her with open arms and of course she was willing to forgive. I was just glad Bella was going to be living with someone instead of wondering on her own like she had been doing before. You could never be sure of what was going to happen to her and it was good to have someone there to look after her.
After some thought, I agreed to also join them, after making sure I wasn’t going to be any imposition to them. This would be my chance to restart. I could recreate myself and try to forget all that had happened recently. It had been a week from the battle in Oregon. One week since I had slipped up and allowed Jacob Black to see me while he was in his wolf form. I had not seen or spoken to him since.
Not seeing or speaking to him did not stop me from constantly thinking about him. I couldn’t get him out of my thoughts no matter how hard I tried. It was inevitable that I would be thinking about him. How this would change our lives. I would love a vacation from my own life right about now. Just to be able to escape from all of this craziness.
Everything in the world was wrong about this Jacob and me thing. We are supposed to be mortal enemies! You do not fall in love with the person that you were designed to kill. And he’s in love with my sister! What, am I supposed to walk up to him and be like “I know you’re I love with my twin Bella and all but instead you’ve imprinted on me. Isn’t that great!” No. That’s definitely not going to happen.
This is freakin’ unnatural! But then I looked at myself in the mirror. I saw an unusually exceptionally good looking person staring back with abnormal yellow eyes. I sighed. Ok, so I was also unnatural but that isn’t the point. I furrowed my brow. I was having an argument with myself and was loosing. God, I am mental.
I grabbed the last box and carried it out to the front driveway where Brad was parked, already holding my other belongings; waiting for me to drive over to the Cullen’s place. I put the box in the bed and when I turned back around, Amanda was standing in front of me with wide, sad eyes.
Amanda had honey colored hair that flowed in easy waves down to her waist. She had a found face and soft features, much like Esme Cullen. She and I were so close. It was like she was my twin when Bella wasn’t around, when she went into her solitary state. Her usually sparkling topaz eyes were dull with her pain.
“Am, please don’t” I said in a weak voice. I was going to miss her but I had to leave and go somewhere new. There were certain memories I didn’t want to cling onto.
“I’m sorry Becky,” Amanda apologized to me in a voice even more heavily burdened with sadness than her eyes. “It’s just that I’m going to miss you so much.”
“Both of us,” said Leo, appearing at Amanda’s side, putting a soothing arm around her waist.
Leo was the opposite of Amanda. Amanda was barely five foot one while Leo was an easy six even. Being a vampire made her naturally angular but Leo was even sharper looking than the rest of us. I had seen pictures of Leo when he was human; even then his features were very sharp looking. While Amanda seemed to have a light glow around her, Leo was slightly darker though that strangely did not make him intimidating looking.
I felt hot tears rising in my eyes. It was a power that originally belonged to some British man I had met while hunting and I had been able to keep it so far. “I’m going to miss both of you too,” my voice was chocked with emotion. “But it isn’t like I’m going to be gone forever. I’ll visit real soon,” I assured them.
“It’s going to be so different with you gone. The house is going to be so quiet without you randomly blasting some music or running around the house just to share with me some cheesy joke you heard or came up with.”
Leo and I both grinned but Leo also grimaced. He wasn’t that big of a fan towards my horribly cheesy jokes that I would tell them. Amanda, on the other hand, found them enduring.
“So,” Leo said, “Do you have one final parting joke to tell us?” he asked.
“Hm,” I said, thinking. I knew though Leo hated them, he was still going to miss me running to find him or calling him so I could share it with him. I knew thought he always voiced how he didn’t enjoy them and would always complain when I would tell them, he was going to miss hearing them.
“Got one,” I said after a moment’s thought. “What does Snoop Dog wash his clothes with?” I asked
“I don’t know,” said Amanda. She always played along for me.
“Bleee-ATCH!” I cried in a high, Texan accent.
Amanda immediately erupted with laughter and even Leo allowed himself to laugh while putting his head in one of his hands and shook his head. I also laughed with them bit there was something bittersweet about it. We didn’t want to part but we knew we had to.
“Bye Becky,” Amanda said in a voice that would break even the hardest heart. I stepped forward and we hugged each other. Amanda unnecessarily sniffed like her nose was running. Amazingly I wasn’t crying. It could have been the power was wearing off but when I’m prepared, I had always been good at controlling my emotions so they didn’t show to others. When I’m prepared that is. I knew this separation was coming so I was slightly prepared but it did not stop the immense grief that was overcoming me.
I broke away from Amanda and Leo came and embraced me. “We’re gonna miss yah,” he said into my hair.
“Me too,” my words were slightly muted by my face being pressed into his chest.
Dan pulled back and looked into my eyes. “We love you,” he told me and I saw Amanda nodding her head. “You always will have a place with us if it is ever needed.”
This time I couldn’t withhold the tears. I allowed them to flow freely down my face. Theses people are my family now that Charlie is gone and I definitely could not ever go to Renee. I imagine that if I had lived to be human long enough to go to college that this is what the farewell would have been like.
I sniffed loudly and wiped my face. I hugged her one last time and she gave me a peck on my cheek. Then I climbed into my truck and pulled out of the driveway. As I drove away, I did not allow me to look back. For once, I drove on without music playing. It took all my self restrain to not glace at my rearview mirror. I knew I would see Leo and Amanda waving to me, and I knew that if I were to see this sight, I would break down. It was like back when I was human and jumping into cold water. You just had to do it and deal with you. You couldn’t jump back out of the water. You had to endure the ice cold water and adjust to it. Just as I’m going to have to adjust to my decision but this time, unlike when jumping into water, there was no going back.
It wasn’t that long of a drive to the Cullens which was good and bad. Good because it wouldn’t take long to get there. Bad because no matter what space of time it was, without me actively doing something that took my full attention (I could drive with my eyes closed if I really wanted to) or talking to someone, it allowed my mind to wonder. And of course my mind wandered to the one place I didn’t want it to be.
Jacob Black. He was good looking; I had to give him that. But I’m not even sure if I even want to be in a relationship right now especially not a serious one that this one guarantied to be. The first serious relationship I was ever in ended extremely badly. When that one ended I was a vampire. The next one, I actually got to marry the guy before he just disappears out of my life with me having no clue where he was or what happened to him. Then, when I finally get over Collins, I fall for this guy who wants me and my family dead. Don’t I have good luck with relationships?
I remember before I started stressing about the whole ‘Jacob is going to imprint on me one day if I allow it’ thing. Jacob was funny, and charming, and he just radiated this air of happiness and comfort around me. And him being a werewolf, he was always so warm. But what about Bella? I saw the way he looks at her. There’s no denying what his stares convey. That he is completely in love with her. Not me. And although it does sound shallow, I just don’t want to be some guy’s replacement for Bella. I don’t want them to be like, “Oh well, close enough. They pretty much look the same,”
Why was I kidding myself? The more I thought about him, the more apparent it became to me. I wanted him. I wanted him bad. It scared me how bad I wanted him. My whole body practically screamed in it’s craving for his eternal warmth and his carefree, easy smile. Though the last times when I had seen him, I had forced myself to be cold and keep my distance, but even then I couldn’t disguise what I was feeling. I yearned for him and I hated myself for that because I mostly likely screwed up anything I could have had with him that stupid day in the forest.
Maybe if I had chased after him. Maybe if I could have pulled him aside and explain to him everything. Apologize to him. But instead I just stood there and allowed Sam to run after him and try to comfort him. That should have been me. I was just a coward, afraid to do what I should have done. What I wish I could have done. I wish there was some vampire with the power to time travel and I would use their power to go back in time. I would make myself go after Jacob. Or maybe I would make myself never have taken those memories away from him. Or maybe even stop myself from ever meeting Ryan, the day when everything went wrong.
So many maybes and what ifs, but I have to live with the consequences of my actions. And I will. I don’t know if Jacob will ever want to talk or see me again but if he does, I want to make things right. I’d apologize a thousand times over if it would make him forgive me. I was foolish if I ever thought that I could make things better for me, for both of us, by taking it into my own hands to determine who we fell in love with. I wouldn’t blame him for hating me for doing that. I thought I could prevent this from happening, prevent him from loving me. But I was wrong, now I was the one in love with him and there was no denying it.
I was now only five minutes away from the Cullen’s house. I could hear them. They were just trying to find space for the rest of Alice’s and Rosalie’s clothes and were trying to resolve who was going to drive which car.
When I pulled up Bella came up to my door immediately and greeted me. She had towed Edward along with her, their hands entwined. I didn’t need to be psychic or an empath to see that one coming.
“Hey Becky!” she greeted me enthusiastically but I could see the concern she was trying to hide in her eyes. Time to put up my fake charade for her. Bella seemed to buy it most of the time but sometimes I think she sees through it.
“Hey Bells,” I greeted her. “Edward,” I said and he nodded his head in my direction. “Are we ready to go?” I asked.
“Just about,” Bella said. “Is that all you’re bringing?” she asked as she noticed how much was packed in my truck’s bed. There wasn’t much in there. Only about four boxes. “What happened to all your clothes?”
I shrugged indifferently. “There weren’t many clothes I wanted to keep or bring.” The truth was, when I first reached my home with Amanda and Leo, I had a bit of a fit where I had broken, burned, or torn everything that was me and Greg related which didn’t leave me with much.
“That was a smart decision.” Alice told me as she walked by, another box in her hands. “That way you’ll have more closet space when we move into our new home and you’ll get to go shopping more,” Alice and I both smiled while Bella grimaced. There was something wrong with her mind where she didn’t like shopping.
“Do you mind?” Alice asked, gesturing towards Brad.
I shook my head. “Not at all. I do have the space,” Alice laughed her small tinkering laugh, and placed the box into the bed.
“No problem,” I told her easily. “So where are we going exactly?” I asked
“Rhode Island,” Edward answered, “In a small town called Hightens where it’s foggy, cloudy, and rainy every day.”
“Oh joy,” said Rosalie sarcastically. “Yet another sunless town that’s not even listed on most maps.” Rosalie did have a point. Most places I have lived since I became a vampire were scarcely populated and rarely saw sun.
“Is everyone ready to leave?” Carlisle asked? We all nodded so he said, “Then let’s go,”
We all climbed into our cars and followed Carlisle to what would be our new home. I allowed myself to drop behind the others, letting them go ahead. I had already seen the way in Carlisle’s mind so I had no fear of getting lost. I drove slowly, by my standards at lest, and watched the scenery go by. This was perhaps the one time I should have actually paid attention to the road.
All of sudden there was a heap of brown that jumped out into the road, in front of my car’s path. I swore in surprise and slammed on the breaks. I swerved my car to the right, angling it towards the road’s shoulder; not wanting to hit what had came out at me. Brad’s tires squealed and finally jerked to a stop. Luckily, I had not hit anything.
But when I looked at the road again, the huge brown thing was gone. I stared out my windshield in confusion. I definitely saw something but now it was gone. Then there was a knock one the window opposite of me that made me jump in surprise. There outside the passenger seat’s window, barely clothed, stood Jacob Black.
He was wearing cut off jeans but that was all. I tried not to stare at him. I cringed internally and turned away, fearing that he might yell at me. But when I looked back at his face, he did not look angry or mad. Just determined. I decided that if he came here to yell at me, he might as well get it over with. I pressed the button that rolled down the window he was standing at.
“Jacob,” I said his name and it sent a strange feeling through me. Almost like I hadn’t seen him in years instead of just seven days.
“We need to talk,” he said to me in a calm voice.
“Doors unlocked,” Jacob opened the door and climbed in beside me and closed the door. Having him here was almost painful. It seemed wrong that I should have to defy my body of what it wanted to do. It wanted to be with him but I needed to know first how he would react.
We sat in silence for a few moments, we fighting with every urge not to stroke his cheek and have his heat next to my cold self. Jacob sighed. “I think I should explain why I ran away last week although I think you might know part of it.” He told me running a hand through his hair.
“You imprinted,” I said in a flat voice, not wanting any emotions to be heard, fearing how he would take them. Silence followed. It was my turn to sigh. “Jacob, I’m so sorry,” I apologized.
“For what?” he asked confused.
“Well, you know how some vampires have extra powers?” he nodded. “Well,” I continued, “one of mine is I can tamper with human memory and I, well I sort of knew that this would happen, so I erased from your mind the certain thing that triggers the imprinting impulse. I thought it would make things easier on us, you being a werewolf and me being a vampire, but I was wrong and it was wrong of me to do so to you,” I hung my head in shame and looked down at my hands that were folded on my lap.
More silence followed. Then there was Jake’s low, husky laugh booming through the car. I looked at him in shock and in confusion. He laughed even harder when he saw my expression. “What is so funny? I’ve been feeling so guilty about what I’ve done and you’re just sitting here laughing at me!”
Jacob just shook his head, trying to control his laughter. “Here I was,” he told me. “Wondering if I’d ever find the right girl or if I’d ever imprint and she was right in from of me.”
“Aren’t you mad?” I asked him, surprised he was taking this so lightly.
“Honestly, I was a little bit when I first found out. I didn’t want to believe it. How could I ever be with a vampire? But then,” Jacob paused, gazing into my eyes, “I decided that since I’ve waited around a quarter of a century waiting to fall in love, just like everyone else I know has, I don’t really care. I’ll take you anyways, leech and all.” He grinned at me, that beautiful grin I’d been waiting to see. It was contagious. I grinned back at him. “Besides,” he continued. “When you imprint, it changes your whole perspective on a lot of things,”
“You really don’t mind?” I wanted to believe him but could quite do so.
“No, I don’t,” his voice rang with such sincerity that I couldn’t doubt it. “And I love you with all my heart.” I heard him think. I smiled at that.
“So, where does this leave us?” I asked. “Do you want to come with me? I was going to move in with the Cullens in this new house unless. . .” I pause and shot a look over at him. “You have any other plans,” I left it open for him to choose.
“Nope, but moving in with a group of vampires? That might be . . . interesting,” he finished. But I wasn’t worried. I already had an idea in mind for how I would fix our situation.
“Don’t worry,” I told him. “I’ll take care of that.”
“How?” he wondered. “I mean, I’m sure you wouldn’t like me too much if I lost my control and killed one of your friends. And then, what if . . .” Jacob began to banter on but I wasn’t paying strict attention.
“Hey Jacob,” I interrupted.
He stopped talking. “Yah?”
“Shut up,” I told him and leaned over and kiss him gently on his hot lips. He seemed surprised at first but then the best thing ever happened. He kissed me back.
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