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Starlight

Summary:
Continuation of Eclipse Bella's wedding day finally arrives, but her streak as a danger magnet isn't over quite yet. No, you are not delusional. I have actually updated. *cheers*


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1. Starlight

Rating 5/5   Word Count 1845   Review this Chapter

Far away
This ship has taken me far away
Far away from the memories
Of the people who care if I live or die

Starlight
I will be chasing a starlight
Until the end of my life
I don't know if it's worth it anymore

Hold you in my arms
I just wanted to hold
You in my arms

My life
You electrify my life
Lets conspire to ignite
All the souls that would die just to feel alive

I'll never let you go
If you promise not to fade away
Never fade away

*

“Do you really mean it when you say you will love me forever?” I whispered, my eyes wide open, but non-seeing in the darkness. I waited for his answer, the question becoming a burden on me. I was never sure anymore, and his indifference to me lately has only intensified my doubts.

He hesitated for a few moments, trying to phrase his wording correctly. But his long silences on made my anxiety grow. I squeezed my eyes shut and tried to still the tears that were threatening to spill over. His behavior has frustrated and worried me to no end. I clutched at my blanket and tried to concentrate on the scenario at hand. My arm still stung from the memory of my disastrous eighteenth birthday party, but I was sure that Edward’s actions hurt more then any shards of glass could.

“Forever is a very long time,” Edward answered slowly, his tone suddenly cold and unfamiliar. My eyes snapped back open again and my head seemed to whirl. Was he taking back everything he ever said to me? Did he actually get bored of me like I expected?

“But will you?” I prodded, my voice cracking under the stress. What if all he ever said were all lies? Did his declarations of love actually mean something? Was I living a lie? A cruel, wonderful lie?

I started to shake, since the answer was apparent to me. I felt the world disappearing from underneath me; I was suddenly alone in the darkness. I barely even felt the two cold arms still wrapped around my middle. They were home to me, but suddenly they felt so foreign, like they didn’t belong there. Maybe I never belonged there; with him.

“I can’t, Bella,” he muttered, the space next to me suddenly empty. My eyes searched the room in panic, trying to hold onto him. He had an eternity, didn’t he? What did a few extra minutes mean to him? “Try to find someone else to love,” he whispered in my ear. There was a swift breeze and then I knew I was alone.

“No!” I screamed before hopping to my feet and scrambled towards the window which was open. My heart felt like it was being clawed into pieces. He didn’t love me anymore. He didn’t love me. He was gone.

As soon as I hit the floor I sprinted towards my window. The few feet never seemed to long in my life. It was even darker outside then it was in. I could see faint stars dot the sky and the full moon to my left. I saw no movement from my window. The forest seemed to me dead. A sob escaped me and I sagged over the open window. I lost him…I was alone. My love was gone.

I didn’t try to stop myself from falling when my weight become too much for gravity. I slid out of my room and then I was falling. And falling and falling and falling…

*

I woke from the sound of my own scream. My hair was plastered to my forehead from sweat and my blankets were tangled around my legs. My head whipped around my room quickly, trying to find him. To see if he was there or not. There was no one in the space next to me and my heart stopped. It wasn’t a dream. I felt tears come to my eyes and I laid back in my bed, reality sweeping over me. When I felt a cool hand on my shoulder I snapped my head up in surprise. I turned my head to see Edward standing next to me, a glass of water in his hand.

“You’re here!” I exclaimed in surprise. Edward looked at me confused and placed the glass of water on my night table. As soon as he sat down on my bed I clutched onto him and waited for my heart to slow back down to a normal pace.

“You seemed surprised,” Edward said sadly, trying to pry my fingers from his shirt. I frowned, not wanting to part from him again.

“It was just a dream I had,” I reassured him and then narrowed my eyes. “Where were you anyway?” I wondered, curious to how he chose the perfect time to suddenly disappear.

“You were restless,” Edward explained, picking up the glass cup filled with water again. The liquid swirled around due to the sudden motion, but not a drop spilled. “I went to get you some water so when you woke up, you would have something to drink. Do you want it?” he asked. I realized then how thirsty I was. I took the cup gratefully and eagerly pressed the cup to my lips. “I think you have anxiety issues,” Edward muttered, fixing my blanket so that it covered me from my chin down. I rolled my eyes and stuck out my tongue. It was a childish thing to do, but I couldn’t think of anything else.

Edward chuckled lightly and kissed my forehead. He turned towards the window.

“Don’t leave,” I whimpered, putting on my best puppy-face. But Edward just laughed and sat down on my bed again. I looked at him confused. I thought I was pretty good at pouting.

“Alice wants me to help set up for today,” Edward exclaimed. I racked my head, trying to figure out what he was talking about. I came up with a blank.

“Today?” I asked, puzzled. Edward cocked his head to the side and gave me a confounded look.

“Our wedding,” Edward said, and then pointed to the calendar by my bed. “Today is August 13th.”

“Holy crap!” I yelled and jumped out of bed and widely whipped my head around the room, trying to memorize every nook and cranny. It was my wedding. I was getting married. I was going to be a vampire in less then a week. Holy crap, I was getting married.

From the bed, Edward was gazing up at me with a confused and worried expression.

“Well, I can see why you are nervous, Bella,” Edward started slowly. “But I didn’t really expect you to forget about the huge ceremony Alice hounded you about for the past month.” I wasn’t listening to him, though. I was busy throwing all my keepsakes into a suitcase. I wanted to remember as much if my human life as possible. I was rooting through one of my drawers when I felt two cold hands over mine, forcing me into submission. “It’s only four AM,” Edward whispered, slowly pushing me away from my drawer and towards my bed. “Charlie is doing some early police work or filing or something to clear the afternoon for him. You’re lucky he wasn’t at home to hear this. But you, however, should be sleeping,” he chastised and pushed me into my bed. I nodded slowly, calmness over taking me.

“I’m getting married today,” I whispered, still in wonderment. I heard Edward sigh.

“Yes, yes you are.”

I nodded again, but my eyes wouldn’t close.

“I can’t sleep,” I grumbled and sat up. Edward sighed and pulled me towards him.

“Charlie won’t be back for a little while. Do you want to visit a coven of vampires?” he asked mockingly. I stretched my arms and hopped out of bed.

“There’s nothing I would like to do more,” I agreed. Edward just smiled and placed me on his back. In a matter of moments the wind was rushing through my hair and I squeezed my eyes shut, not wanting to see the blurred landscape. But even though my stomach was threatening to do a double flip, I was slightly disappointed when the run came to an end. And even more disappointed when Alice came bounding down the steps, already discussing wedding plans with me.

“Nothing you would like to do more,” Edward mocked quietly and threw me a look of pity. I grinned half heartedly, but I knew it was short lived. There was nothing I hated more then parties. And Alice was just too eager to make this into the party bash of the millennium. But I would do anything to have Edward by my side. He was my addiction. I needed him.

I turned around and gave him a timid smile. He shot me his crooked grin and then ran around the back of the house.

“Bella, are you even listening to me?” Alice wondered, breaking me out of my thoughts.

“No, not really,” I answered in a daze, not really aware to what I was actually saying. Alice shot me a glare and then a mischievous smile spread across her face.

“Fine then,” she chuckled. “You just earned yourself one more diamond necklace to be worn.” I stared at her with wide eyes.

“I won’t even be able to hold my neck up!” I exclaimed, panic coursing through me. I would probably be strangled by the end of the night. The thought if all the jewelry I was going to be wearing made me a little dizzy. I was never one to like being the center of attention. Alice just rolled her eyes and started to walk towards the house again.

“Then you either you put as much thought as I did into your wedding or I’ll add ten pounds of pure lace to your dress!” she yelled from the porch step. I narrowed my eyes. So she resorted to threats. Well, two could play at that game…

“Fine then, Alice,” I yelled back, trying to keep my voice steady. “I’ll wear the ten pounds of lace. Just sew it right on!” I yelled, and planted my feet on the ground, crossing my arms over my chest. Alice turned around slowly, an angry glint in her eyes.

“I’ll do it right now,” she said, her voice smooth and cold. I started to panic again, but I was sure Alice wouldn’t really go through with it. But as I heard her calling for Esme to bring up more, and a lot more, lace to her room, I started to think that I was actually going to be a human ball of fluff for my wedding. Well, if it was a stand off she wanted, then so be it. I wasn’t going to give up, even though I forgot what I was fighting for in the first place. Hopefully Edward wouldn’t care what I was wearing, but I hoped Charlie wouldn’t take too many pictures. I didn’t really want to be remembered as the Snow Queen for the rest of eternity.