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Insane

Summary:
This was a muse of sorts...the spacing and grammar will make sense once you read it(I hope). Eclipse left of with Jacob running away. Is he ever going to come back?


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1. Chapter 1

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It’s very hard to figure things out when it already started.

I at least know that much. But of course, that’s very hard not to know in this situation.

She is, to say it bluntly, a very powerful and thoughtless girl.

I’m not saying that she doesn’t care about others, I’m just saying that she…

Doesn’t think things through as much as she should. Or as much as anyone should.

That’s why I’m laying on the forest floor, half dead with heartbreak and exhaustion.

But maybe it’s not all her fault. Maybe I should have taken my own advice.

Maybe then I could have stopped this before it blew out of control.

But then… she would be dead.

Either from him leaving her, or if she staked out long enough, from the pack from not being close enough.

If her blood- husband(she got me into the habit. Now I can’t go back to my slurs) bit her, then we would surely of killed them. We wouldn’t of learned that they weren’t all that bad. And we wouldn’t of been there in the clearing to help fight. So…I guess her relationship with me saved all of them.

But that does not justify it in any way, in the opinion of my brothers. It’s just an excuse on my part.

I know that I shouldn’t be in love with her when she can’t love me the same way back.

I know that this pain I’m feeling can’t be excused and I know that this pain that I’m feeling just won’t be brushed aside like she did with her humanity.

I’m angry.

I’m upset.

I’m heart broken because of her.


I just like to think that she took some consideration into account of her humanity. That she had to think to abandon me and her family and her friends and the pack and her life. I like to think that it’s worth it in her eyes, in the end. Everyone will forget in time. Maybe not Charlie or me or Billy(because I’m gone), but the other humans and the pack.


Bella did what she had to do. He was back. She was happy. Even if I wasn’t. So be it.


I tried to save her and I failed. At least I know she will be indestructible. She won’t be breaking her bones or falling down the stairs anymore. That’s my Bella, show the world what you’re made of.


I know I’ll always be waiting to hear from her, or for her if she ever changes her mind.


But what good will it do for me if I’m sitting on my wolf butt sulking for hours on end?


Get out there Jacob! Protect La Push and Forks! Be useful you sack of bones!


Yes! That’s exactly what I’ll do! I’m not completely worthless, or I won’t be in a couple of days.


Great, I’m talking to myself now. And answering. Wow, I’m going crazy. Well, that’s something I never thought I’d do.


Sheesh, I haven’t moved for days. I’m all stiff-ouch-one of my joints cracked.


Anyway, for anyone who is listening to me, I have something I need to say.


I AM JACOB BLACK. BOY. TEENAGER. WEREWOLF. AND HEARTBREAKEE. WATCH OUT LA PUSH, BECAUSE I’M COMING BACK, AND NOW NOTHING IS GOING TO GET IN MY WAY OF PROTECTING MY FAMILY AND TRIBE. NO GIRL, VAMPIRE, OR ANYTHING. BECAUSE I’M BACK, AND I’M REALLY STARTING TO LIKE THE SOUND OF THAT…