If there were no monsters and no magic
What if Bella chose Jacob? Would she still get her happy ending?
12. Chapter 12
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“Please, please don’t do this,” Bella begged, tears running down her face.
“We don’t give second chances,” Jane said. “You’re lucky that my master has decided to let you live.”
“Please, please don’t do this. Kill me, I’d rather die.”
“That is not up to me, child. If it were, you would already be dead. Hurry up, Felix. I haven’t got all day. I would like to go home sometime this century.”
“With pleasure,” Felix sneered as he dropped his mouth to Bella’s neck.
“Alice, Alice…” Jasper whispered nudging me slightly. My head flew up, and I looked around the room. Edward was snarling, he looked like he was ready to murder somebody – probably everybody he could get his hands on. Jasper sent calming waves throughout the room, but they didn’t help Edward at all. He was seething.
Jacob looked confused. “What’s going on? What did you see?”
“It’s Bella,” I managed to say after a moment. “I think they are going to change her!”
“No!” he yelled. “What can we do?”
“I don’t know.” I said. Jasper put his arms around me and pulled me close.
“Let’s go to the house and wait for Carlisle and the others,” he suggested.
I nodded. “That’s a good idea. Maybe I’ll have another vision.”
“Could you tell where they were?”
“No,” I wailed. “I couldn’t see.”
“Jasper’s right. We should just go to the house.” Edward said finally. His voice was bleak.
“I’m going with you,” Jacob said quickly.
The four of us ran the short distance to where we’d left the Volvo. As we got closer to the house, I started to hear a noise – it sounded familiar, but I wasn’t sure what it was.
“Do you hear that?” I asked the others. No one said anything, but Edward accelerated. By the time we turned down the road leading to the house – thank God we hadn’t sold it – the screaming was all we could hear.
When I came to, the only thing I was aware of was the pain of the fire. It was unrelenting, burning me alive from the inside. I couldn’t think, I couldn’t breathe, I couldn’t do anything but scream – and that didn’t even help. There was no escaping the pain; there was no escaping the all-encompassing flames.
I don’t know how long I screamed; time had no meaning any more. I wished I were dead, if only so the pain would finally end. In the distance, I thought I heard a door opening, but the flames overcame me once again, and all I could do was scream.
“Oh no, Bella…” a deep voice said. I wasn’t sure who they were, but maybe they would help me.
The pain receded enough, so that I was able to stop screaming momentarily. “Just kill me, please… please… I can’t take it.” I begged. My eyes fluttered open, and there were two shapes in the doorway.
“There’s so much blood.” I heard one of them say. “Why is there so much blood?”
“I don’t know,” the other one snarled. He was so beautiful, surely he was an angel. Surely he would help me.
“Please,” I sobbed. “Please make it stop. I can’t stand it. I don’t want to live, just kill me… please.”
“Why is there so much blood?” The first figure repeated.
“Damn it, Jacob, I don’t know! Go get Alice and then get some towels.”
Jacob… that name sounded familiar to me, but I wasn’t sure why. The angel kneeled beside me. He was so beautiful; it hurt to look at him. Why wouldn’t he help me? I grabbed his hand; it was cold and felt good against my burning skin.
“Can’t you see the fire? Why won’t you help me? Please…please… why won’t you help me?” I wanted to say more, but the fire was pulling me under, and I couldn’t speak anymore, I could only scream.
There was so much blood, but I couldn’t figure out where it was coming from. The wound on her neck was bleeding slightly, but not enough for there to be this much blood. I scooped her up into my arms, and she clutched my shirt frantically.
“Please don’t leave me… please don’t leave me,” she moaned in between the screams.
“I’m not leaving, Bella. I won’t leave you.” I said, trying to make my voice as soothing as possible.
“We’ve got to take her to the hospital!” Jacob said from beside me. There’s so much blood, she’s going to die. There is just too much blood.
I’m coming, Edward.
“We can’t take her to the hospital, Jacob, are you mad? Do you not see what’s going on?” I snarled at him.
“If you won’t take her, I will.” Jacob said and grabbed her arm.
“Step away from her, dog, or I will remove that arm for you.” Alice growled. She might be small, but she could be positively ferocious when she put her mind to it.
Bella’s eyes opened slightly. “Edward?” she gasped.
I hugged her closer to my chest. “Yes, Bella, I’m here.”
She turned her head towards Jacob, her eyes widening with horror. “You… took me to them. How could you?”
What do you need me to do? Jasper can’t come inside, He’s sorry about that, but there’s just too much blood. Why do you think that is? Oh no… maybe it’s the baby. Here let’s take her to Carlisle’s room, they left their bed up. We can put her in there, and I’ll stay with her so you can call Carlisle. They are still waiting on their flight.
I nodded and stood up with her.
“What are you doing with her? Let her go! I won’t let you turn her into one of you.” Jacob yelled. Filthy bloodsuckers.
“Too late for that, but you’ve got nobody but yourself to blame, dog! You practically handed her to them on a silver platter.” I growled. “Now, get out of my way. I’ve been tolerant up till now – letting you into my home after what you’ve done – but you will not touch one hair on her head, or I will kill you.”
I carried her up the stairs with Alice on my heels. Jacob sprinted out the door.
“We’ll have to watch out for him,” Alice said.
I laid her on the middle of the bed and kissed her forehead. She was silent for the moment, but I knew the screams would return. I didn’t know if I could bear to leave her.
“She’ll be… well, not fine… but she’ll be okay for now. Go, call Carlisle.”
I ran down the stairs as fast as I could. I made it out the front door before I broke down. My body shook with the tearless sobs I’d been holding in.
“Oh my Bella, I should have stayed away. I should have never allowed Alice to talk me into coming to Seattle. If only we had never come, you would not be going through this.”
Jasper sat down next to me and put his hand on my shoulder.
“It would have happened whether you came or not, Edward. You could not have prevented this. In fact, had you not come, it would have happened sooner, and the wolves may have killed her.”
I knew he was right, but… every scream caused my heart to ache. I never wanted Bella to go through this. I never wanted her to suffer like this. I would do anything – anything – to take the pain away from her. I’d gladly shoulder it for her myself if I could.
I pulled my phone out of my pocket and called Carlisle.
“We’re about to board now,” he said when he answered.
“We found her,” I said, my voice breaking. “They left her in our house.”
“Is she dead, Edward?”
“No, she’s not. It was too late when I got here, there was nothing else I could do but let her go through with the change. I couldn’t save her.”
“I’m sure you did the best you could. It will be all right, Edward.”
“I don’t know, Carlisle. There is so much blood. Alice said maybe… the baby?” I couldn’t even say the words. Had it only been yesterday when I thought it might be possible to have a family – an actual family? And now it was all being ripped away from me – from Bella. She wanted this baby – I didn’t have to read her mind to know that. She was going to be devastated.
“Ah, yes. I will have to examine her when I get there, but the shock probably caused her to have a miscarriage… I’m so sorry, Edward, but it was inevitable. The baby would not have survived the transformation. We’ll be there as soon as we can,” he said and hung up.
Edward, I got her cleaned up as well as I could, but she’s getting hysterical. She doesn’t understand what’s going on.
“Come on, Edward. I’ll go with you. We will get through this together.” Jasper said.
We opened the front door, and I could hear her shrieking. “Why are you doing this to me? Why won’t you help me? Please… just let me die. Why won’t you help me?” over and over again.
We ran up the stairs as fast as we could. Bella was curled into a ball in the middle of the bed. I sat on the bed and tried to pull her to me. She recoiled at my touch.
“It hurts,” she moaned. “Make it stop, please, make it stop.”
I choked back a sob and brushed the hair out of her tear-stained face. “I’m sorry, Bella. I can’t make it stop. I’m so sorry. It will be over… soon.”
The hours it took for the others to arrive were the longest hours of my drawn out existence. I could do nothing to soothe her, nothing to calm her down. Her screams were unbearable, but her begging for death broke my non-existent heart. I was so attuned to her that I no longer heard the thoughts of my family. I jumped when Carlisle leaned into the room.
“Why don’t you go see the others while I examine her?” he said softly.
I was downstairs without even knowing how I got there. There were looks of horror on everyone face.
“Oh, Edward,” Esme cried, and I allowed her to wrap her small arms around me.
“It wasn’t supposed to be like this. I didn’t want this for her.” I sobbed wishing again for the tears that would never come.
I heard Carlisle’s footsteps on the stairs, and I knew. Even though he hadn’t thought or said a single thing, I knew.
I’m sorry, Edward.
The screaming started again, and for the first time in years I allowed all the voices in my head to penetrate my mind. Anything to not hear her tortured screams, anything to not think of the pain she was going through – pain that would have never happened if I hadn’t been so weak, so selfish.
I knew that I should probably just go back to La Push – back to our home, but I couldn’t move from the woods that surrounded their house. Sam and Emily’s funeral was the next day, and I knew the pack needed me, but I couldn’t make myself leave. Leah called me constantly, but still I couldn’t move from the woods. Bella’s screams had me frozen in place. Her tear-filled words echoed in my head: How could you do this to me? You… took me to them. I wanted to grab her and shake her and tell her it wasn’t true because it wasn’t true!
It was me, but then it wasn’t. I couldn’t even explain it to her if I wanted to because I still don’t understand what happened – even now! The small boy leech – Alec maybe? Who knows? – smiled at me, and the next thing I know, I’m calling Bella and telling her that Charlie had a heart attack! It was sort of freaky like an out of body experience. I wasn’t sure why they wanted her to come here anyways, but I did want to see her. When I told her where to meet me, I didn’t even know they were coming. I wouldn’t have led them straight to her if I had known. I just wanted to talk to her.
But they got her, and now she was going to be one of them. I couldn’t help but feel that maybe Edward was right – man, I hated to admit that – and it was my own fault. I should have been able to take those leeches out, but that girl… I’ve never experienced pain like that before. I wondered if that was what Bella was feeling now. All night long I listened to her screaming and begging for them to kill her. It took every ounce of strength I had to not phase and rip Edward apart…
“That wouldn’t do any good,” a soft voice said beside me.
“Stay out of my head,” I growled through my teeth.
“It’s quiet in there now. Is it over?” I asked him.
He clenched his jaw. “No.”
“How much longer?”
“I can’t be sure, but probably another day and a half or so,” he said. I felt bad for him then. He looked as if he was the one in pain – as if her pain caused him physical pain.
I was about to ask about the baby when he shook his head.
“For what it’s worth, Jacob, I’m sorry that I blamed you. I know what Alec is capable of. If he wanted you to do something, you would have no choice.” He said with a sigh.
“Will she blame me?”
“Perhaps, but I’m not sure. It’s hard to say with Bella. She is quite unpredictable. She never reacts the way I expect her to.”
“Can I see her?”
He hesitated. “Do you think you can control yourself? Regardless of what she may say? She’s not herself right now – I just want you to be prepared.”
I swallowed the lump in my throat and nodded. “I think so.”
“Don’t say anything to her about the baby. We haven’t told her yet.”
“Come on, then.” He ran a pale hand through his messy hair as he led me into the house. The rest of the Cullen’s were sitting in the living room. They looked at me as I walked through the front door, but no one said anything. I felt relaxed and wondered briefly if it was because I was actually relaxed or if the leech that controlled emotions had caused it. I decided it didn’t matter either way – I just wanted to say goodbye to Bella, and I knew this would be goodbye, the only goodbye I would get.
Bella was curled up against a pretty woman with caramel-colored hair. She was stroking her hair and speaking to her in a soft voice, but the voice was much too low for me to understand. Edward stepped back against the wall as I came into the room. She was still Bella, but not exactly. She was in this weird in-between place – half-way Bella, half-way vampire – and I wasn’t sure how I felt about that.
“Oh Bella…” I said, tears springing to my eyes. It was hard to look at her – to see what was actually going on – and not blame myself. I should have tried harder. I should have killed that damn leech. I reached out to hold her hand. I’ve always loved holding her hand. It brought back memories of hanging out in my garage and working on the Rabbit – back when we were just Jake and Bella, best friends. Back before we were werewolves and freaky Virgos. I’d barely touched her when she yanked her hand back like I’d burned her.
“Don’t touch me! Don’t touch me!” she shrieked.
“I’m sorry, Bella. I won’t touch you.” I mumbled and starting backing up to the door.
“Maybe you should go.” Edward suggested.
“Yeah – I think you’re right. Bye Bells. I love you.”
I ran for the door, phasing the minute I reached the clearing outside. When I got back to the house, I couldn’t stand being in there. The entire place reminded me of her. I got dressed and drove to Port Angeles. I wasn’t sure what I was actually going to do, but I didn’t want to be near Forks – or La Push for that matter. I ended up at one of those all-night diner places. I sat at the bar and ordered a cup of coffee.
From the corner of my eye, I saw her. I wasn’t sure if it was my imagination or if it was really her, so I didn’t say anything. A minute later, I heard someone sit next to me.
“Hey… Jacob, right?” she smiled and pushed her red hair out of her face.
“Yeah,” I said taking a drink of my coffee.
“It’s Meredith, remember? Thanks again for helping me out the other day. You were such a life-saver.”
“No problem. Glad I could help.”
“This is going to sound a little weird, but I can’t stop thinking about you. Would you like to join me for breakfast? Unless…” she stopped as her eyes drifted down to my left hand to my wedding band. I smiled at her.
“I’d love to… and don’t worry about weird. It’s kind of my specialty.” I said and winked at her.