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I'm Sorry.

Summary:
Bella has just come to Forks after a breakup with her boyfriend from Phoenix. But how long will she actually last? Warning: I have the ending in mind, and it is a MAJOR twist. Muahaha. * not done, and i don't use deadlines. i write when i am in the mood. :] *


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5. Chapter 5

Rating 5/5   Word Count 1603   Review this Chapter

“Hi,” he said quickly. “I’m Jasper. You’re Bella, right?”

“Uh…” I searched for words, dumbfounded by his beauty. “Yeah?” My voice was squeaky, like it always got when I got nervous.

“Come take a walk with me.” His flashed a perfect smile, and I couldn’t refuse, so I just nodded.

He lead me through the thick forest that bordered the school, and neither of us said a word. Under the leaves, we were shielded by the harsh rain. We kept walking for I didn’t know how long when he stopped at a small clearing. He turned to look at me with sorry eyes.

“I apologize,” he whispered into my ear and at first I thought he was going to kiss me, but instead he stuck his teeth into the tender flesh of my throat. I gasped in confusion and tried to push him off, but he wouldn’t budge. He kept drinking, and I could practically feel the blood flowing out of me. I got more lightheaded by the second, until I was awakened by a burning in my body.

I screamed with all my strength, but the fire didn’t stop. It only seemed to increase. I felt cool air on my face as the ground disappeared beneath me, and it stopped just as quickly. I tried to open my eyes, but all I could see was red and flames mixing together, trying to burn me, and succeeding.

I heard people talking all around me, and someone was sobbing, but I didn’t recognize any of the voices. There was mayhem all around me and I didn’t even know why! I just hoped someone would stop the fire.

I screamed again and it immediately got quiet, but then the sobs returned even louder.

“Stop the fire!” I screamed. “Stop it! Please, make it stop!”

Someone whispered something in my ear, but I couldn’t hear it. The fire mocked me and blocked everything from my vision and my hearing. I couldn’t even feel myself. Did he kill me?

“It’s too late!” I heard someone scream. Sticking my arms out in front of me, I desperately tried to grab hold of the person. I felt a cool hand wrap around my own, but it didn’t help. The heat overcame my senses and I just lay there. As the minutes passes, the pain intensified, and I knew that nothing would help it anymore. I didn’t scream, I didn’t beg. I just lay there. Maybe I was in hell.

The pain continued for forever it seemed like, until it started to fade. Limb by limb, the pain faded away, until it was a minor pain in my chest, and that faded after a while too. I rolled over onto my side and gasped when I saw six beautiful pairs of eyes staring at me.

The blonde boy, Jasper, was there too. Before I got up the courage to scream, a man stepped forward. He was beautiful, like the rest of them, but he looked more like a supermodel than anything. No one would turn down a face like that!

“Bella?” he asked cautiously. I winced. Why was everything so loud?

My eyes widened. “How do you know my name? What am I doing here?”

“Calm down.” He nodded to Jasper and my fear was immediately put to the back of my mind. “Let me introduce us. I’m Carlisle, and this is my wife Esme.” Esme walked forward with a motherly smile. “That is Emmett and Rosalie.” he pointed to the mean blonde and the muscular boy. “And that’s Alice and, well, you know Jasper.” He pointed to the short girl and the blonde boy. I stared at Jasper for a minute, but he wouldn’t look at me. He still shook with tearless sobs as Alice held his hands. “We’re the Cullens.”

“And we also have another,” Carlisle explained. “Edward. He’s upstairs. You’ll see him eventually.”

“What do you mean? When am I going home?” I looked at him with fear in my eyes. Why was I even here?

“Bella.” There was pain in his voice. “You can’t go home.”

“Why not?” I asked, exasperated. “You can’t keep me here. My dad’s a police officer, you know.” Emmett laughed at my threat.

“You’re a vampire!” he practically screamed. Carlisle shot him a look that instantly silenced him.

I stared at them in disbelief. “What are you talking about?”

“Bella.” Esme was the one to step up to the plate. Her motherly aura made me feel protected, but I was still nervous. “When our Jasper bit you, and you felt the fire, you were being transformed into a vampire. I know it’s hard to understand, but it’s true.”

Disbelieving, I walked towards the door in attempt to escape but there was already somebody standing in front of it.

“Ah! This is Edward,” Carlisle announced.

I stared with my mouth hanging open. He was perfect… and even more beautiful than the rest of them. Was that why they were so beautiful? Because they were vampires?

I ran upstairs and walked into rooms until I found a mirror.

I wanted to scream when I saw what I saw. I was so different… I was beautiful. I had red eyes, though, and it scared me. This couldn’t be! I couldn’t be a vampire! They weren’t even supposed to exist! What about Charlie? Was I even going to see him again?

The girl in the mirror wasn’t the one I knew. I sunk to the floor in frustration. Was I a monster? Was I going to be drinking innocent people’s blood?

Edward knocked on the bathroom door. I knew it was him. I didn’t know how, since the door was obviously not translucent, but I could tell. I didn’t answer, and he came in anyways. He sat cross legged on the floor in front of me, looking at me curiously.

“Are you mad?” His voice was soft, and once again I was distracted by his beauty. When I didn’t answer he continued to talk. “I imagine you would be. I was changed decades ago. I was dying though, so Carlisle saved me. I always think, would I be in heaven right now? My parents are there, I’m sure of it. I think they’re wondering where I am. Why aren’t I up there with them? It frustrates me. I‘ve been thinking about the whole heaven situation for many, many years. I can feel that Carlisle regrets changing me. I don‘t want him to feel like that though. I respect him.”

I stared at him. It was true. I really was a vampire. There were traces of anger somewhere in my body, but mostly I was sad. My thoughts about myself were pushed to the back of mind. I felt sadness for Edward. How could such a beautiful creature be caused such pain? I was even more frustrated.

“I’m sorry. About your parents, I mean.” My words were short, but I didn’t know what to say. What was there to say? “I‘m confused... Why me?” A silence fell between us. “I’m not going to get to see my dad again, am I.” It didn’t come out as a question because I already knew the answer.

Edward reached for my hand, but hesitated before dropping it. I studied him. He was so flawless, it was almost like I was imagining him. But even my imagination wasn’t this good.

His features were very sharp, like the rest of the Cullen’s, but he looked different. So much more beautiful. His bronze hair swung loosely onto his forehead. His dark brown sweater contrasted with his alabaster skin, making him glow. His topaz eyes, though, are what caught my attention the most. If he got a gorgeous Topaz, why did mine have to be red?

“You’re beautiful,” I blurted out. He smiled and I blushed. “Sorry.”

“You’re beautiful, too.” My blush deepened about fifty shades.

“Odd,” he said, studying me. “I didn’t think vampires could do that.”

“Do what?”

“Blush,” he said, stroking my cheek. It left a burning sensation. Talking about it always made me blush worse, which happened right then. I hated that it happened though. It was the real clue to whenever I was embarrassed, and I got embarrassed quite often.

“Why are my eyes red?” I asked, still feeling jealous of his golden eyes.

He looked thoughtful for a moment. “Carlisle will explain that later.”

I laid down on the floor, with my back against the wall, and closed my eyes. My head was pounding.

“I can’t imagine what it must be like for you,” he sighed. “I mean, I was dying. You just woke up like this. I don’t know how I would deal with that.”

“I don’t know how I’m going to deal with it either,” I said truthfully. “Am I just supposed to start living with you guys?”

He nodded solemnly. “It’s hard to adjust at first. Have you noticed how you can hear everything magnified?”

“Yes,“ I said, sighing. “I have a major headache.”

He laughed, and the room filled with the music that was his voice. “It’ll go away once you get used it. That should only take about a day. The real horror, though, is the bloodlust.” My eyes widened and he understood. “Us Cullens don’t drink from humans. We live off of animals.” I let out a breath of relief. “But since the bloodlust is so strong, you can’t be around people for a while.”

“For how long?”

“Just as long as it takes for you to be able to control yourself.” I groaned and he squeezed my hand. “That’s means you can’t go to school.”

I banged my head lightly against the wall and closed my eyes. “This can‘t be happening. I don’t understand, I… I can’t do this.”

He stared at me, his eyes intense. “It will get better,” he whispered, but something in his eyes told me it wouldn’t.