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Jacob and... Amanda?

Summary:
Jacob comes back (from wherever he was) and it turns out he fell in love. She becomes insanely jealous and eventually tells Jacob this. Edward overhears in Jacob's thoughts and gets very mad. He runs away and Bella need to find to him. Will she find him? Will she end up with Jacob? Or will Jacob end up with Amanda? What will Bella's love triangle come to? READ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! REVIEW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


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3. Loves and Hates

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"JACOB!" I scream."HOW COULD YOU??!!"

"What?" he asks all innocently, but I know he's just playing dumb. I know that he had Edward read his mind. I know that he somehow made sure that Edward was listening to our conversations, and Jacob's embellishments. I know that Edward heard me say that I love JAcob. I know that Edward was crushed. I know that that's the reason he left. The only thing I don't know is where he went.

The Volturi? No, he's smarter than to go back there. HE knows that we would look there first thing. Alaska? He always liked that family up there. I could see him living there, being happy and normal(as he could be). He's smarter than that though. He know we would look to the places he loves. That being one of them. He has to have gone someplace no one ever would have thought of. Where?

I turn my attention back to Jacob. Lying Jacob. Lying, selfish Jacob.

"Why?" I ask, hurt, confused but most of all sad and depressed. I still can't believe Jacob would do something like this. "I know you hated him, but this is low even for you." I whisper the last part, but I can tell by his hard expression he heard me.

"Look, Bella, I honestly don't know why I did it, OK? I didn't realize I was doing it until it was already done. It was too late to fix it by the time I realized what would happen. I didn't know that he would run. I didn't know that you would be crushed. If I did I never would have done it. You believe me right?" He looks down.

I look up. I look at the sky and the trees. I look at a bird slowing flying through the air, enjoying life. If only I was a bird. No worries, no cares. I wouldn't have to worry about my werewolf boyfriend making my vampire ex-boyfriend run away. I wouldn't have to worry about vampires coming to get me. i wouldn't ahve to worry about Charlie's reaction when we tell him that Edward's a vampire and Jacob's a werewolf. All I would have to worry about is when flap my wings. If only...

I come back to reality when I feel Jacob sliding his hands around me. I can tell he's trying to say he's sorry, but I'm not buying it. I feel his face coming towards mine. I refuse. I push him away. I don't want him. I don't want the jerk who pushed Edward out of my life.

It's then that I realize as much as I love Jacob, Edward is and will always be, my true love. My heart beats faster at the thought of Edward. My pulse is higher than ever when I think of kissing Edward when he comes back. I relax at the thought of waking up in his arms, like I did just a couple of days ago. A smile spreads across my face at the thought of spending the rest of eternity with him. I can't wait until he comes back.

Jacob lets go and I slowly crumble to the ground. I realize that he's not. He's gone. He's never coming back. I wind up kneeling. I block the tears that threaten. I know I can't cry. I need to be strong, for Jacob. With Edward gone, he's all i have. I need him. Last time Edward left, he was my rock. I need my rock.

The tears push through my tightly closed eyes. I cry. I bawl. I can't help it. Jacob kneels down beside me an d patiently waits. He knows as well as I do, that there's no use trying to stop them.

I lean over and put my head to the ground. All I hear and think is. He's gone. He's gone. The pain that I thought was gone forever is now back again. It splits through me like a steak knife through butter. I can't help but cry harder at the thought that this time he may not come back we may not find him. I bawl at the idea of never looking into his golden eyes again.

Eventually the tears stop coming, but the pain never stops. I sit and think about how I could live without him. Then I think, I've done it before. It was painful and boring, dull, worthless. But I lived. Although this time, it's harder, because it's not just for a couple months. It's forever.