This story starts a month after Eclipse ends, and talks about what Bella will do with Jacob, because he is obviously having trouble letting go. Will she pull an Edward on him, (as if I never existed), or will Jacob get over it on his own, maybe imprinting along the way? Or maybe, just maybe, she'll run off with him and live her life as a 'wolf girl' instead of a 'vampire girl'. Or will the Volturi get her first?
I got quite a few of my ideas for my story from another fanfiction called Consequences, by helloeverybody, posted on www.bellaandedward.com, but I also received some of my ideas from my friend Kara, who is not currently a member of this site, but is, like me, an avid follower of the Twilight series. We come up with the ideas together, and then I write the story. She is also my editor, so I would like to thank both her and helloeverybody for their ideas and their input.
1. Chapter 1
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Bella’s Point of View
I couldn’t believe what I’d done. I was engaged to Edward, and a month later, I had already kissed someone else. What was wrong with me? Edward had told me that he forgave me, that I was only human after all, but didn’t many human couples go through successful marriages without these kinds of problems? And even if Edward said it was okay, I’d seen the hurt in his eyes when he’d realized what had happened—what I’d done.
This couldn’t happen again- I wouldn’t let it happen. This was the last time I would let my weakness get the better of me—the very last time I would ever betray Edward like this. If the problem was that I was only human, then I’d fix that-once and for all. Everything would be so much easier after that.
But Edward didn’t like it. He didn’t seem to understand why it was necessary-why it meant so much to me. He said he was trying to protect my soul, but as far as I was concerned, they couldn’t make me go anywhere he wasn’t. He had to understand that. If it meant an eternity of suffering, I wouldn’t mind as long as he was there with me. I would have to talk to him.
Edward’s Point of View
I lay on my bed, trying to convince myself that it wouldn’t do any good to go down to La Push and tear Jacob apart for what he’d done to Bella. He said he loved her, but in the end, look at how much he was willing to hurt her to get what he wanted. Bella had been despondent when she had come home that day. But it would upset Bella if I went and killed Jacob like that. She’d blame everything on herself again; she always did that. As if she could be responsible for anything anyone else did. But nonetheless, she would feel guilty for whatever happened to Jacob, and she would be miserable because of it. And that would not do, so I’d just have to control myself.
A knock on the door interrupted my brooding. It would be Bella, of course, blaming herself again, apologizing for something that wasn’t even her fault.
“Come in,” I said, sitting up. The door opened, and Bella walked in, her exquisite, floral smell filling the room.
“Hey,” Bella said, wringing the bottom of her shirt with her hands with a nervous expression on her face. I could tell she thought that I was actually angry at her- she could be so oblivious sometimes.
“Good morning,” I said, smiling at her. I patted a spot on the bed next to me. “Come sit.”
Bella smiled nervously and obliged. I wrapped my arms around her, feeling her warm body shiver slightly at my cold touch.
“So . . . what are you thinking about?” I asked; it still frustrated me that I didn’t know. I could guess though; at the moment her eyes were so anguished my heart almost broke. She had to stop feeling so guilty! It was masochistic and completely unnecessary.
“Edward, I’m so, so sorry. What I did was inexcusable, unforgivable, and I . . . I . . . . I mean . . .” Bella’s eyes were glazing over, threatening tears.
“I know, Bella. Its okay, you’re here with me now. That’s all that matters.” I leaned in to kiss her, hoping to reassure her. It wasn’t right for her to be so upset.
She looked up at me. “Edward, I want you to know…that when you want to change me, I’m ready. I’m ready to start my new life,” she said seriously.
I groaned inwardly. This was her way of apologizing, of fixing things. She thought that it was her fault and she wanted to make sure it would never happen again. Only it wasn’t her fault, it was Jacob’s, and damning herself for all eternity wasn’t going to help. She didn’t know what she was asking for. Those three horrible days, those three days of pain and suffering that seemed to go on forever; I couldn’t bear to put her through that. And what if, after all that, she changed her mind? How could she be sure she wanted to spend the rest of forever with a monster like me? I didn’t want to damn her to an eternity of darkness, an eternity of looking over her shoulder and wondering whether or not she had made the right decision.
“Bella-” I started.
“Wait, Edward. Look, I know what I’m getting myself into,” she said firmly.
“I seriously doubt that.”
“Just let me finish. I know what I’m doing, and I’m going to stick to my decision. If you don’t have a soul, well, too bad, because I’m going wherever you are. If that means eternal suffering, at least you’ll be there too. Heaven would be unbearable without you. And as for the immortality, I couldn’t be readier. I’ve said goodbye to my friends and family, all except you and your family, that is. I’m ready to join you.”
“And what about Jacob?” I asked. “You know he won’t be able to bear it if you become a vampire,” I didn’t add that he might wage war on her and her new family-she already knew that, and there was no need to remind her.
A look of pain came into her eyes. She looked down at the floor.
“I know that,” she whispered.
I winced. I hadn’t meant to make her upset. But truly, she had to look at all the facts before she decided. I tried to distract her.
“I know what you mean though. The flying cars and the holograms are going to be fun-I wouldn’t want to miss them either.”
She smiled weakly, but the pain didn’t leave her eyes.