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Dream's Shadow

Summary:
This is my take on the over- and usually poorly- done plot. Edward leaves Bella again. She is changed and they meet again in the future. There will be a big twist! Requested by Iris. Banner by Iris!


Notes:
Try it! I know stories like this usually stink, but I thought I'd give it a try. I own nothing. Stephenie Meyer owns all.


31. Chapter 31

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I alone return to England. I am somewhat unhappy to have to leave them, but I know they will not leave. Even if Edward wanted to take this opportunity to rid himself of me, Alice wouldn’t do that. Right?

No, I am fairly confident they will wait for my signal.

I’ve been given a cell phone to contact them when I clear the house. Edward struggled valiantly. “I’m not letting her go in there alone! Damn it! Damn them all! I can’t do this! She isn’t going to die.”

His protests broke my heart- and healed it. It is comforting to know he cares, literally, whether I live or die, even if I cannot trust it and his pain is as always mine.

“Edward, no one is going to get killed. I’ll be fine. I promise.”

“How can you know?”

More manipulation had transpired then. I had to make my family safe. And I couldn’t know. I couldn’t know my new powers would be enough, that I could fight off all these vampires… yet I also could scarcely let my family be killed what was basically because of me. “Have I ever broken a promise to the one I love?” Just the slightest emphasis… not too much pain.

It hurt him. But it worked. He had let me go, with many half-teasing threats and the final promise, “Bella, if you don’t come back, I will kill myself.

It was the only thing that could make me so desperate to succeed. My life is worthless, but if his, infinitely precious, depends on mine continuing, I will fight until the end of time to live for him.

I sneak toward the house. The forest is thick and dark, even though it is the morning. All the light is blocked.

It is quite the metaphor, I realize. This is the life I wanted. My dawn has broken. I have everything I wanted. My one true love hasn’t yet married me, but we’re engaged… and we are together. I don’t have to fight him to change me any longer. I will live forever. Should he leave, as he very well might, I can simply chase him- it worked just fine last time.

Everything is bright. Everything is full of hope and probabilities. I am going to spend eternity with Edward, it would seem. Why then can’t I believe it?

Because once before- no, twice- I had this lovely life lined up. Everything shone beautiful and bright and perfect. Both times, he left, and plunged me into nothingness. That darkness is the forest, shading the light that looms. I cannot trust that my life can be perfect, not when it has betrayed me. Not when I cannot deserve him, not now and not ever.

Third time’s the charm.

Maybe this time he won’t leave.

Can I bring myself to believe it?

I run faster toward the yellow house.

I will do this. I will, I will, I will. I will escape from this endless forest of doubt. I will conquer these enemies, I will defeat my own demons, I will be with the one I love.

I will.

Won’t I?