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Ending Dawn

Summary:
I was engaged! It sounded like a swear word to me, but I couldn’t complain about the results that were to follow. I loved Edward more than life itself, and he knew it. I would die for him. I would be immortal as a vampire, as his wife. I wanted to spend the rest of eternity with the most perfect boy on the face of the earth. But of course, he had his own list of things to do before he would change me into a vampire. We had to get married. Edward wanted me to himself, no one else. CHAPTER 16 Will be up soon! Sorry for the delay...I just graduated from High School!  Banner by ME! Let me know if you would like me to make you a banner! send me an e-mail at weasleygirl_96@yahoo.com!


Notes:
Hello all! This is my first crack at a Twilight Fanfic and I hope you all enjoy it! I really enjoy writing this story! Please enjoy Ending Dawn!


4. Chapter 4: Preparations

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Chapter 4: Preparations

A month later…

“Alice,” I groaned, my forehead pressed against the long dinning hall table at the Cullen’s house. It was the exact same table they had used to throw my eighteenth birthday party and where we had held the vote to determine my fate to become a vampire. Neither were extremely memorable experiences on my part, and this wasn’t turning out to be much better. Planning my wedding with Alice was turning out to be slightly more than I bargained for. She kept trying to push the issue of things that were unnecessary for an event that would occur more than once if things worked out to be the way I wanted them to. However, Alice and Edward were right, this would be my first wedding as a human and they thought that it should count for something.

“You are not buying ice sculptures! This is where I have to draw the line!” I hissed. I just didn’t find humongous ice cubes necessary in August. They would melt before anyone even arrived. Nonetheless, Alice thought they would be the perfect topper for the celebration. Edward’s idea of going down to Vegas and getting married in my jeans was sounding more and more appealing by the minute. But what about Charlie and Renee? I kept forgetting that this wedding was more for them than it was for me.

I had slowly begun to distance myself from my father and my old high school friends. It would make things easier, but Charlie just wouldn’t let go. Even though I was spending more and more time with the Cullen’s, Charlie seemed eager to call me at least twice during my stay. It was as if he wasn’t ready to let go of me: his baby girl. This thought crushed me inside, but spending an eternity with Edward would make up for that pain. The pain of losing my family was bearable, but life without Edward…I couldn’t even begin to imagine the torment and emptiness I would feel. I didn’t want to think back to the empty hole he had left in me the first time he had tried to leave.

“But, Bella!” Alice pleaded, her lower lip jetting out into the pout that had already swayed me twice today. I would never forgive myself for allowing her to convince me that I needed a caterer from New York City or golden dining plates. I didn’t’ even want to think about the six tier cake that she had talked me into last week. It was just too extreme for me, but I would let Alice have some of her fun. I was just glad we had taken care of the guest lists two weeks ago. “They would just tie everything together perfectly. It would make the ceremony so memorable to your guests. Please, Bella! It’ll mean everything to Charlie, and Edward’ll love it!”

I gapped at her. I couldn’t believe that she would play that card on me, turning my own father’s wishes against me. However, I knew for a fact that Charlie could care less what was at the wedding, just as long as he got to hand me off to Edward. And Edward, Edward was happy as long as I was, for the most part. The most perfect man on the face of the earth had already told me that the wedding decision were up to me and Alice.

“No,” I said firmly, taking pride in the power that Edward had given me in this process. I watched as Alice’s face fell and a shook my head. I already had Edward, and he was the closest thing to an ice sculpture that I needed. “Besides, if I had said yes, then you would have probably gotten them sculpted to look like me an Edward!” I couldn’t even picture myself in the form of an ice cube, it was just too over the top.

I watched as Alice pursed her perfect lips in an attempt to hide her guilty expression, my eyes narrowing.

“You were going to, weren’t you?!” I asked, outraged at the thought. The thought that she would even consider asking me was crazy. Alice knew me better than that.

“Fine,” Alice grunted, her darkening golden eyes staring me down. “But you’re going to be disappointed when there is something missing in your wedding and you can’t put your finger on it. You’ll regret it Bella,” Alice warned, tapping the side of her head with her finger.

I snorted with laughter at this. I highly doubted that I would feel sorry for not embarrassing myself at the wedding by being in the form of ice. Alice wasn’t about to fool me with her false vision, either. I could see what she was playing at. The girl hated not to get things her own way.

“Cross it off the list,” I hissed, narrowing my eyes in warning again. I watched as she grabbed her purple pen of the table and hastily scratched it off the list made on extremely elegant paper. I couldn’t even imagine what she had done to spice up my invitations after I had seen them. I could only dread to see my mother’s reaction when she an Phil received them in the mail. I looked back up to see a pout on Alice’s perfectly flawless face.

“There is no reason to throw a fit, Bella,” Alice said, looking down at her list again. I could tell that I had let her down by not allowing her ice sculptures, but it was for the best. I didn’t want people to think that because I was marrying into the Cullen family that I was going to be rich and snobby.

“I’m not!” I retorted, crossing my arms in front of my chest. This caused Alice to raise a brow at me, letting me know that I was throwing a fit. I sighed before reaching for the list that was near Alice’s elbow. However, she snatched it away before I had moved an inch. “What?”

“No,” she said simply, a smile playing on her lips. “There is no need to ruin all my fun before I even get to see your reaction.” I groaned at her. What could she want me to agree to now? It seemed like the only thing that we hadn’t discussed was murder, and I would feel bad enough about that when the time came. I only hoped that I could maintain the Cullen “vegetarian” diet so that I wouldn’t be upset with myself later.

I sighed, dreading to know what Alice had planned for us to discuss next. “What’s next,” I asked, my head resting on the table again. I couldn’t wait until Edward and the rest of the Cullen’s returned from their hunting trip. I hated being without him, time just seemed to pass so slowly. I couldn’t complain, however, as Alice was able to keep my thoughts from dwelling. I watched as a flawless smile came over Alice’s face at my question. This couldn’t mean anything good.

“Edward asked me to discuss who you would like in your wedding party,” she smiled. I felt a little relieved that she wasn’t discussing flying in the latest boy band to play at my reception. I would have to shoot myself with Charlie’s revolver. “I know that you have already selected me as your maid of honor, but I was wondering who else you would like in your bridal party. I need to get measurement for the dresses that I picked out.”

I raised my brow at Alice, like she didn’t already know who I had chosen. But I enjoyed that fact that she was asking me instead of just going at it. I imagined she had already gotten around to making measurements but I would appease her nonetheless.

“You know, just to make sure you haven’t changed your mind,” she added with a smirk. She rested her head on her hand, waiting for my response.

“Like you wouldn’t know that, either!” I shot back at her, causing her mischievous smirk to widen. “Rosalie, Jessica, and Angela,” I sighed, knowing that there was no point in fighting her. I would have asked Esme but she was too concerned with being the mother of the groom. She wanted to take pride in that fact as she couldn’t very well have a son of her own. Edward was the closest thing to a son that she would ever have. I understood how she felt, as well as Rosalie. However, I didn’t pride myself on the idea of having children. It seemed like too much of a hassle for me.

“Okay,” Alice said with a guilty look coming over her face. “I already sent for them to have their gowns fitted. You’re going to love them!” she squeaked, practically dancing in her chair. I could only imagine what these dresses looked like after what I had seen the Cullen’s prom attire last year. I was glad that Charlie hadn’t gone along with the general tradition of the father of the bride paying for the occasion. The Cullen’s offer to pay and I wasn’t going to fight them. I would feel guilty about it though. I would have to repay them, and I would in time. “They’re Edward’s favorite shade of blue to match the wedding colors, and, they have gold trim.” She beamed at me, knowing the wedding colors before I had even told them to her. Alice was sneaky like that.

I looked up at her with tired eyes, as we had been going at this since this morning when Edward had left my side. I could still feel his sweet kiss on my lips but I longed to have him back. His absence seemed to have an odd effect on my body. I felt as if a piece of my soul were missing. It hurt me to be away from him for more than a few hours. However, I always had to give him up so that he could go hunting, as he didn’t think it wise to be around me in a thirsty state. It wouldn’t have bothered me in the slightest to have him bite me early, but I knew he never would. Edward was always overprotective of me and thought it might have had something to do with my clumsiness, I couldn’t help but feel like a porcelain doll around him at times. I couldn’t wait until I could match or even overpower his strength as a vampire. Then he wouldn’t have to have the fear that he would hurt me. Rather, I would be the one afraid of hurting him with my need to drink blood. I shivered at the thought. I would wait to see how it turned out.

“Don’t worry, we’re almost done,” Alice said with a comforting smile. She carefully stroked my hair with her pale hand, calming me slightly. To me, it felt like she had stolen some of Jasper’s ability to calm me. A smiled weakly up at her. “You miss him don’t you?” she asked, though I’m sure she already knew.

“Immensely,” I breathed. This was an understatement. There wasn’t a word that I could use to describe the feeling that was eating away at my chest. It felt like a monster was unleashed on my heart, slowly killing me with intense stabs of a knife. “Do you ever..” I started, feeling slightly awkward. “Do you ever feel like this when your away from Jasper?” I lifted my head lightly off the table to watch her expression better, Alice still absently twisting my hair in her icy fingers.

Alice looked thoughtful for a moment, as if she were trying to decide how to answer my question. A light smile pulled at the corners of her lips as she continued playing with my hair with one of her hands. “Yes,” she whispered. “Always. But Jasper and I have a unique relationship.”

The set my head back down on my hands gently, my mind racing with thoughts. I wondered if vampires could imprint on another vampire, or humans for that mater. What was this unbreakable bond that seemed to tie life partners together in the vampire world? I was intrigued. I wondered if Alice would know the answer.

“So it’s like an unbreakable bond?” I asked, my heart starting to race slightly. Alice tilted her head sideways, as if she wasn’t sure what I was talking about. “What I mean is…how do…erm…what keeps a vampire’s relationship together? Is it like imprinting for a werewolf?” I was surprised when Alice laughed in response.

“I guess you could say that we are similar to those dogs in that way,” she laughed. “It is almost like vampires make a mental connection while werewolves have more a physical one?” I didn’t understand and Alice must have read the expression off of my face. “You see, with me and Jasper, I knew, as soon as I had my vision, that he was the one for me. Our minds just seemed to connect together. It is almost like when you find your mate you can read each other’s mind in a way.” I raised my brow at her. “It’s not anywhere near as strong as Edward’s power, mind you, but it can still be affective.” She smiled at me as she looked back down at her list. I let out a groan. I was too tired to do any more, as it had to be almost eleven at night. It was a good thing that I had told Charlie that Alice and I were staying over night in the city to go shopping for the wedding. “One more thing, Bella, and then I promise I will let you go be human.”

“Fine,” I said in a groggy tone. I didn’t know if I would be able to keep my eyes open long enough to answer this question, or approve for that matter.

“Edward wanted to know who you would like to be his best man and grooms men…” Alice said lightly, her golden orbs concentrating on her pad. I was obviously missing something that she wasn’t telling me. Her hand moved the pen quickly between her fingers, it looked almost like a purple blur to me. I sat up slowly, gapping at the tinniest of the Cullen family.

“I-I thought that was the grooms job, not mine!” I gapped, looking stunned that I had to decide this too. “Carlisle and Jasper,” I said automatically. I would have stated Emmett but he would be the one marrying us, and I knew he took great pride in playing priest. I smiled at the thought. However, Alice’s lips pursed, looking quickly up at me and then back down.

“He didn’t know if you want to have any of your…other friends here for the occasion,” Alice said softly. My heart immediately sunk as I realized who the others were that she was referring to. I felt a stinging feeling in my heart as I thought of Jake and his friends. I shook my head, trying to clear the image that was popping up in my mind. It would be too painful for him to be there, I couldn’t handle that. I had made my choice and there was no going back now, not ever. I couldn’t live without Edward but I could due without Jake.

“No, I-I…I couldn’t do that,” I breathed, unable to speak any louder. “I’m going to bed,” I said quietly as I stood up. My knees felt weak, showing me exactly how tired I was from the day that Alice had planned out for us. It was more than I had thought it would be. “’Night--Alice?” Her face had turned to that look that I had seen numerous times before. I looked into her glazed amber eyes that seemed so distant for me. My hearted started to beat faster and faster. She quickly shook her head, I couldn’t read her expression. “What, Alice? What’s happening?” I asked anxiously, my nerves getting the better of me.

“It’s nothing,” she responded, looking away from me. She seemed determined not to make eye contact with me. This worried me.

“Alice!” I insisted. “Tell me! Is Edward okay? How about the others? Charlie?”

“Yes they’re all fine,” Alice said. I watched as she expression turned thoughtful. I couldn’t fathom what was running through her mind, even though I wished I knew. “It’s just…odd…”

“What’s odd?” I asked panicking now. I couldn’t handle this, not now.

“You’re future disappears as soon as you go home tomorrow,” Alice said in an extremely low tone, her eyes not meeting mine again.

My heart immediately started to pound faster and faster in my chest. Jake. What had happened to Jacob? I couldn’t live with myself if he had hurt himself because of me or if he had done something rash. But why now, why a month after I had last talked to him? Why the sudden concern? I didn’t understand, but I knew how I could fix that pain. I just wouldn’t go home tomorrow, sure Charlie would be upset, but it would save me from that pain. I couldn’t see Jake, I couldn’t. It would hurt too much to see how I had hurt him. I couldn’t live with myself for that.

“Bella, breath,” Alice said, obviously seeing the look of horror on my face. “I’m sure it’s not bad. I bet your friend just want to talk to you or something. You could take Edward, he’ll be back tomorrow…” I knew what Alice was trying to do. It’s what I wanted to do for myself, but nothing seemed comforting.

“No,” I said shaking my head. I didn’t want to think about Jake, I couldn’t think about him. “I just wont go home. I’ll just call Charlie and tell him that I need to take another day shopping, he’ll survive.” Alice looked at me with a raised brow, she seemed to be trying to read my face.

“You can’t run away from him forever, Bella,” Alice said, her eyes downcast. I could tell she didn’t feel comfortable telling me this, but it was necessary. But she was right, I had to end it with Jacob before it got too far, again. But maybe not seeing him would be better.

“I’m going to bed,” I said shortly, not wanting to have to think about Jacob Black anymore. Things would be much easier when I was a vampire, at least that’s what I thought. “Good night, Alice,” I yawned, trying to block all the thought out of my mind. I refused to think of anything that I deemed unnecessary. It would be much easier just to forgive an forget, slowly pulling myself away from my family and friends.

“’Night,” Alice said, watching me go with an apprehensive look on her face. I knew that she regretted telling me about her vision. However, I didn’t look back. I quickly climbed the stairs and walked down the long corridor to Edward’s room. I had grown accustom to this rout, having taken it numerous times in the past two years. I seemed to know Edward’s room just as well as I knew my own.

I quickly opened the large golden door handle to the beautiful room, forcing myself inside before shutting the door immediately behind me. I couldn’t hold the pain that seemed to have boiled up inside me. Angry tears flowed seamlessly down my face. However, these were not tears for Jacob Black, as I refused to do that again. These were the tears of all my fears and the pain I would cause my family for leaving them behind. I would stay firm in my decision though, I would be with Edward forever. I just needed to get used to the idea of not seeing the ones I loved anymore. It hurt me to think of Charlie an Renee thinking that I was safe somewhere and really be in the realm of the dead. I would be immortal, but they wouldn’t be. I would forget them soon enough, I reminded myself. I didn’t want to forget them, though, I loved them. But Edward was worth any price.

I silently walked over to the large golden bed that Edward had bought for me, the tears still running down my face. Turning to the CD player to my right, I pulled out the disk that Edward had made for my with my lullaby on it. It calmed me as I turned it on. My tears slowly started to slow as I turned off the light and climbed into the bed. I fell asleep with Edward’s song playing in my ears. It was almost as good as the real thing.

*****

I slowly opened my eyes, the darkness of the night surprising me. I looked out the large glass window that took up one wall to the room, staring into its abyss. It was almost welcoming to the feeling of loneliness that I was feeling inside. I couldn’t help but feel like I was missing something, missing someone. I sat up slowly, my eyes not leaving the dark forest outside of the glass. I slowly wiped the dried sticky tears from my cheeks. I must have fallen asleep crying, but at least Edward wasn’t here to see it.

Suddenly I jump, a reflection in the glass catching my attention. There was a dark ominous shadow coming toward me, and I had a feeling it wasn’t outside…