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Memories & Feelings

Summary:
Ok… I know that there are a lot of other songfics like this, but the songs I use here are ones that I don’t see used a lot. I will also include links to the songs for each chapter. I don’t know about you, but I always like to hear what the author is referring to when they talk about a song, it really helps me get into the story! Thanks to Day for helping me with this story!! ;) Chapter 3: Separation (Bella & Edward POV) is out!!please tell me what you think of this... I'm not posting anymore until I get some rewiews!! :(


Notes:
Please go easy on me... this is my first time doing something like this! :S


1. Leaving

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“Come for a walk with me” he says in a tone that makes we want to protest, but I can’t. So, here we are standing in the forest.

Take it back, take it all back now
the things I gave, like the taste of my kiss on your lips,
I miss that now

The many times I’ve kissed you, the countless times you’ve said you loved me, and now you say this?? “Bella, we’re leaving”… those words ripped through me.


I can't try any harder than I do
all the reasons I gave, excuses I made for you
are broken in two

So you’re a vampire, big deal. I want to be one too! I’ve made many excuses to friends on how you take so many “Camping Trips” whenever the weather is nice. After all I’ve done, you’re still going to leave me here like this?!

All the things left undiscovered
Leave me empty and left to wonder
I need you
all the things left undiscovered
Leave me waiting and left to wonder
I need you
Yeah I need you
don’t walk away


Please… Don’t do this to me! I need you. I want you. There’s so much more I want with you. Just don’t leave.


Touch me now how I wanna feel;
something so real, please remind me
my love, and take me back

Just take me with you. We could go away… just the two of us. I’d do anything, just don’t leave me like this! Edward, my love, my life, take me and let’s run away!


Cuz I’m so in love with what we were
I’m not breathing I’m suffocating without you
Do you feel it too?

I love you; I’ll say it a thousand times more if it means you’ll stay! We were so happy… and just because of one little mistake at a party, that I never wanted in the first place, you’re just going to give up?!? “What happened with Jasper – that was nothing, Edward! Nothing!” I shouted at him, trying anything to make him stay.



All the things left undiscovered
Leave me waiting and left to wonder
I need you
all the things left undiscovered
Leave me empty and left to wonder
I need you
Yeah I need you

“It was exactly what was to be expected” he replied… I didn’t like where this was headed! I don’t want to hear this… don’t leave me, I need you!!

When I’m in the dark and all alone
Dreaming that you'll walk right through my door,
it’s then I know my heart is whole

“This is about my soul isn’t it? You can have my soul. I don’t want it without you – it’s yours already!” I protested, and you might as well take my heart too; it won’t beat without you here either.


There’s a million reasons why I cry
hold my covers tight and close my eyes
Cuz I don’t wana be alone


Tears streaming down my face, I stared at him looking into his eyes. They seemed frozen, like he was afraid of showing something. I closed my eyes, breathing in his sent, quite possibly for the last time. That thought brought chills running up my spine. I don’t want to be without my angel.


All the things left undiscovered
Leave me waiting and left to wonder
I need you
all the things left undiscovered
Leave me empty and left to wonder
I need you, I need you

“Bella, I don’t want you to come with me.” He said those words with no emotion. No, you can’t mean that… either you’re lying to me now, or you were lying when you said you loved me; and I refuse to think that’s true. “You…don’t…want…me?” the phrase came out like a question, a very weird question. “No” he replied plainly.

Cuz I can’t fake and I can’t hate
But it's my heart
that’s about to break

I literally felt my heart rip from my chest. He doesn’t want me, how is that even possible? Not that I didn’t think it might come. I mean, he’s perfect, a Greek god… it never did make sense for him to love me, a weak human. “Well, that changes things then”


You're all I need
I'm on my knees
Watch me bleed
would you listen please

“I’ve let this go on much too long, and I’m sorry for that” My knees are beginning to shake, I don’t want to do this; I don’t want to hear this! “Don’t… Don’t do this!” Please don’t walk away from me.


I give in
I breathe out
I want you, there’s no doubt
I freak out, I'm left out
without you, I’m without

He pressed his cold lips lightly to my forehead for the slightest second, “Take care of yourself” he said as his cold breath blew across my face. What do you care, you’re leaving, you don’t want me. Then he was gone with the breeze.


I'm crossed out
I'm kicked out
I cry out
I reach out

Gone… disappeared. I tried to follow him into the woods, but there was no sign of him. No footprints, no sign of him ever being here. He was gone, and never coming back again. ‘It will be as if I’d never existed’… the word echoed through my head. The problem, Edward, is that you DID exist; you changed my life in so many ways.


Don't walk away
Don't walk away
Don't walk away
Don't walk away

My knees buckled and I collapsed in a heap on the damp ground. I know I should have gotten up, but I didn’t want to. My life, my love, my angel was gone; and he wasn’t ever coming back again. He didn’t want me, so what do I have to live for? He took my heart when he left. I might as well give up, and just die here in the woods. ‘Goodbye my angel; I love you, and always will. Even if you don’t love me’ I though as the darkness slowly closed in around me.