Text Size Large SizeMedium SizeSmall Size    Color Scheme Black SchemeWhite SchemeGrey SchemePaper Scheme        

Memories & Feelings

Summary:
Ok… I know that there are a lot of other songfics like this, but the songs I use here are ones that I don’t see used a lot. I will also include links to the songs for each chapter. I don’t know about you, but I always like to hear what the author is referring to when they talk about a song, it really helps me get into the story! Thanks to Day for helping me with this story!! ;) Chapter 3: Separation (Bella & Edward POV) is out!!please tell me what you think of this... I'm not posting anymore until I get some rewiews!! :(


Notes:
Please go easy on me... this is my first time doing something like this! :S


3. Separation

Rating 5/5   Word Count 1122   Review this Chapter


Time passes. Even when it seems impossible. Even when each tick of the second hand aches like the pulse of blood behind a bruise. It passes unevenly, in strange lurches and dragging lulls, but pass it does. Even for me.

I always needed time on my own,
I never thought I'd, need you there when I cried.
And the days feel like years when I'm alone,
And the bed where you lie,
Is made up on your side.

[Edward]

I don’t know how long it’s been since I’ve seen the outside world, but it must be a long time. I haven’t been out of my hiding spot in weeks; or was it months?? I always did like to have time to myself, but not like this. Not when all my thoughts continually drift back to her. If I could cry for her I would, but all I can do is wait. Humans always did have it easier. They can die so easily, it’s not such a simple thing for me. The only thing that is keeping me on this earth is the fact that somewhere out there she is still alive, and has probably forgotten all about me by now.


When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

[Bella]

I still haven’t quite grasped how long I was in my ‘zombie’ state, but I would gladly welcome it back. Anything in the world would be a better feeling then what I feel now. I can still remember the look in his eyes when he said he didn’t want me. And it still hurts just as bad as it did when he left. I would give anything in this world to have him with me again. I still need him, no matter what he says.


[Chorus]
When you're gone,
The pieces of my heart are missing you!
When you're gone,
The face I came to know is missing too!
When you're gone,
All the words I need to hear to always get me through the day...
And make it OK...
I miss you.

[Edward]

My heart only felt alive when I was near you. You breathed life into me. Now I’m just an empty shell, all feeling gone. Perfect state for the monster I am. I'll always remember the perfect shape of your lips, your nose, the shine in your eyes, and the invigorating scent of your skin. I will miss all of that. Frightened to remember; terrified to forget.


I've never felt this way before,
everything that I do,
Reminds me of you.
And the clothes you left,
they lie on the floor,
and they smell just like you,
I love the things that you do!

[Bella]

I didn’t know it was possible to love someone so much. “It will be as if I’d never existed”, that was his promise when he left. How could he possibly make a promise like that, everything I do is about him, or reminds me of him at least. His enthralling sent has long since faded away, but I refuse to let his memory die. That’s why I’ve been so reckless lately, to hear his voice. He can’t keep his promise, and I’m not going to keep mine. Not that it matters anyways, he doesn’t want me, so why would he care if I died, or got hurt at the very least.

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

[Edward]

When I walked away from her; well, needless to say… that was one of the hardest things for me to do. If she had simply said that she wanted me to stay, that she never wanted me to go, then I would have stayed. I’m sure that even now, if I had heard her say those words, I would gladly comply. Truth be told, I’m not sure how much longer I can hold out here. Every second is harder than the last, the urge to run back to her is almost overwhelming. I need her, she is my brand of heroine, and this separation is nearly killing me.

[Chorus]
When you're gone,
The pieces of my heart are missing you!
When you're gone,
The face I came to know is missing too!
And when you're gone,
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day...
And make it OK...
I miss you.

[Bella]

You took my heart with you, Edward; and you can keep it. I don’t want it without you, it’s always been yours anyways. The hole in my chest, where my heart used to be, will never heal. The frightening part is that the memory of you; your lips, you marble chest, those mesmerizing topaz eyes, even your velvet voice; is all starting to fade. I need you to say you love me again; I need you to pull me in your cold embrace and tell me you’ll never leave me again. I miss you, with all that’s left of me.

We were made for each other,
Out here forever,
I know we were,
Yeah, Yeah!

[Edward]

I do believe we were made for each other. Perhaps if we had met in another time and place, when I was still human, then we could be together happily. Without the constant worry that I may lose control. But instead, I’m left here cowering in this dingy little attic to prevent myself from doing just that. Right now, the pain and torture of not being with you is my only companion.


All I ever wanted was for you to know,
Everything I do I give my heart and soul,
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me...
Yeah!

[Bella]

I’m sure you must know. You have to know that I have given you my everything. You were so worried about my soul? Well you have it now, do with it what you want. Ever since you walked away I haven’t been able to breathe, I can’t. The hole in my chest refuses to let me. I need you here to make me feel whole again, heal these wounds, and make me forget this pain.

[Chorus]
When you're gone,
The pieces of my heart are missing you!
When you're gone,
The face I came to know is missing too!
When you're gone,
The words I need to hear will always get me through the day...
And make it OK...
I miss you!

[Edward]

I never have, and never will, forget about you… you are my love, my life, my angel; and I love you and always will until the day we die, because I won’t be far behind you.

[Bella]

I haven’t moved on from you Edward Cullen, and I don’t think I ever will. I love you always and forever.