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Old Times...New Beginnings

Summary:
Edward left. Renne took Bella back to Jacksonville. Edward and the Cullens come back to Forks, but Bella is already gone. Now, sixteen years later Bella is 34 years old and has two twin children. Bella and her children come back to Forks to take care of Charlie. What will happen when the Cullen's meet her and her family? Can Bella and Edward still love each other? How will her kids react?


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4. Chapter 4

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I looked at the clock on the table. It read 1:28 a.m, that meant Bella and her kids were sleeping. I weighed my choices carefully, after a while I couldn’t take it anymore. It had been three days and I needed to do it. Even if she didn’t want to see me; I could get around that easily. I needed to see Bella. I ran downstairs, opened the front door and heard a voice behind me.

Going somewhere? Rosalie said.

“I’m going out,” I said flatly.

“Where? For a little “moonlight” stroll?”

“I just need to think.”

“You’re going to think? Or are you going to think while watching Bella sleep?”

“No. She doesn’t want…”

“Save it Edward,” she sneered, “Alice saw it. According to her, you were looking at her with such…passion, hunger, need, love or whatever. Stop pretending and go.”

“Rose I swear…”

“Go, Edward, go now. I want you to be happy; I’ll kick you out of the house if I have to, or at least badger you until you stop feeling sorry for yourself.”

“Why do you care what happens to me or Bella. From what I remember, last time you saw her, you would have preferred her to get the hell out.”

“I’m not just doing this for you. Edward, our family has been depressed and feeling sorry for you for sixteen years, it has been an absolute nightmare for me. I can’t stand all the attention, how ever negative it is, on you.” She narrowed her eyes, “We had to deal with it for over one-hundred years anyway, and no one wants to deal with it anymore.”

“So this is so you can live a “normal” life, not because you care about Bella and me.”

“No. I owe to Bella that once she came you changed. We all saw it, Edward, we all knew. You and everyone else in this family at least owe her your happiness.”

“Rose, I…”

“No. Get out now. Go and watch your little human sleep. Just get your depressed ass out of the house.” I could only stare at her. “Did I stutter? Get the hell out!” I took a deep breath and left.

I ran through the trees and along the windy path in the forest. I could feel the wind in my face, the sweet smell of the forest in my face, it felt good. I felt…free, and I liked it. About one thing Rosalie was right, I owed Bella every ounce of happiness I had sixteen years ago. When she wanted me…if she wanted me, I would show her that.

I reached her house and leaned against the tree behind her window as I did so many years ago. I had doubt, regret, fear. Fear that she wouldn’t love me, fear that she would hate me, fear that…that after all of this, I still loved her. I want my Bella to be happy, to be safe, to be with me.

I love you, Edward.

She said that sixteen years ago, the night I left her. Left her to be protected by Alice and Jasper. Even that didn’t work, she was still horribly injured and in crucial condition. But she recovered…no, no she never did. He bit her. That…that beast bit Bella in Phoenix, she still has the scar, the memory, we all did. I had decided. I’m going to get Bella back, one way or another. And I was going to do it with every fiber in my body, I climbed the wall and entered her room.

It felt weird to be in Charlie’s room. I felt like I should be in Bella’s old room, sitting in the rocking chair, enjoying her sweet sent. I took a seat on the soft cushioned chair across the room and watched.

“Edward,” My heart, well if I had one, would have skipped a beat. “I love you, Edward, I can’t, Jack, Jack.” Jack, her late husband. She still loved me! But she couldn’t love me, not yet.

“Charlie, I don’t want to go. It’s just way too green here.” I chuckled softly; I loved her when she slept. “I want to be in the heat, stupid rain,” she mumbled softly and turned away from my direction.

I walked over to her desk with a large mirror on the top. She had a picture of herself and her husband at their wedding, I could only look away. There was another picture of Bella, her husband, Alice, and Jeremy waving from a sandy beach in Florida. Her husband was tall, had short brown hair, was very tan, and holding Bella incredibly close. Her kids looked young, younger than ten years old; they hugged their dad close and had large smiles on their faces. If only I could offer Bella that.

Another photo was of Bella and the twins, when they were babies, lying in bed with a tray of breakfast in front of them. The last picture was of Bella, Charlie, Renée, Phil, whom I assumed were Phil and Renée’s three children, her husband, Alice, and Jeremy sitting on a couch in an unfamiliar home.

Then I heard it.

“Edward,” Bella muttered, obviously in pain. A few seconds passed and I relaxed. Then I heard her again. “Edward?” Bella didn’t sound asleep, in fact, she sounded very much awake. “Edward, what are you doing here?!”

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Bella POV

I sat on the bed in Charlie’s room, staring at the photos of Jack, the twins, and myself. We all looked so happy, if only we could’ve stayed like that forever. I lied down in bed and closed my eyes, after what seemed like forever, I fell into a fitful slumber.

I could see myself when I was five years old. I was sitting on the porch of the dance studio and Renée was an hour late. She pulled into the parking lot and ran to hug me tight. Then, Renée when I was in the old living room when I was ten years old. We were sitting on the couch in our old home in Phoenix and were reading story books. “You’ll find a prince one day, Bella, and he’ll be even better than in the books.” She said.

Then, I saw myself on my “Sweet Sixteen”. Renée could definitely not afford the extravagant bash that so many other girls had, so she took me to the fanciest restaurant in town. She spent that money on me, rather than get the new dress she wanted for her two-year anniversary with Phil.

I saw myself on the plane to Forks, sitting there, reading Pride and Prejudice; little did I know what awaited me at my new home. I saw Charlie and me walking into the house and me putting my stuff into the small bedroom and I was making Charlie his first homemade dinner.

Then, I saw the worst thing I could have. It was the first day of school in Forks; I was sitting with Jessica Stanley at lunch, watching Edward and his siblings. I saw his onyx black eyes staring into mine. Then I was talking to him in biology about my life back in Phoenix. I saw myself talking to him at lunch, I laughed at the fact that I saw him take a bite of the lunchroom pizza. Edward and I were in the meadow the day he almost lost control, then we were at his house together and I met his family.

I was then at the Cullen’s family baseball game, then James, Victoria, and Laurent came. I was looking at Charlie with so much pain in my eyes; I said the thing I could to keep him safe. “Just let me go, Charlie.”

I was at the hotel with Alice and Jasper and I heard the words that made me love Edward and his family more than I ever could of. “Bella, you’re Edward’s whole world. Do you think any of us want to look into his eyes for the next hundred years and see the pain of loosing you?”

Then I was in the old dance studio with James. He was circling me, mocking me. I saw him lunge and hit me. Then I saw Edward come over to me, with my wrist burning with the searing pain of vampire venom. I saw Edward suck out the venom and tears stung my eyes. I was in the hospital with Edward “sleeping” in the chair across the room while Renée offered me a chance to come home. I saw the shock on my face and I rejected the offer. I was staying with Edward no matter what.

Then the last part of my dream was at the Cullen house for my eighteenth birthday. I saw myself laughing and smiling, then Jasper lunging at me and Edward protecting me. I was in the kitchen, getting my arm fixed, and Edward was looking at me with so much hurt in his face.

I was in the woods with Edward and I heard him say the words that shattered my life. “I’ll just be a memory; it’ll be a clean break. Goodbye Bella.” Then, he was gone. I was laying down on the leafy ground while Sam Uley picked me up and carried me to Charlie’s house. Then, I saw something I’ve never seen before…Edward, alone.

Edward was in a small wooden hut and lying on the ground, looking like he was in shock. He was moaning out in pain and I screamed out for him. Then Emmett and Jasper entered the hut and…

I awoke with a start and tears in my eyes. I heard a small creak in the floor and turned around. That’s when I saw him. “Edward?” I asked, panicking, “Edward, what are you doing here?!”

“Bella, I-”

“You what?!” I yelped.

“Shhh, your kids are just next to us. I’m-I’m sorry, Bella, I should’ve explained. I’ll leave…”

“Get back here,” I said in my mom tone, “I’m not through with you yet.”

“Bella…”

“Edward, you may be one-hundred and twenty two years old, but you look seventeen, so as far as we go, I’m the adult. Sit down.” He stared at me, shocked. I pointed to the chair and he sat. “Now, might I ask what you’re doing in my room…at night…watching me sleep?!”

“Bella, I just couldn’t stay away, I had to come and see you.”

“And you decided to wait until two o’ clock in the morning?! You, young man, have a lot of explaining to do.” I put my hands on my hips. A smile slowly spread on Edward’s face. “What is so funny?”

“You just sound so much like a mother. “Young man”, that was very maternal.” He chuckled.

“Yeah, well I have a lot of experience with Jeremy. Now explain, and I better like what I hear.” There was a long pause and Edward looked at me.

“I’m sorry. My family knows you’re here, Alice saw it. I needed to get away; I wanted to be with you. The times I remember most are in our meadow and watching you sleep.”

“What about when James almost killed me, do you remember that? Or how about when you left me in the forest! Is it wall coming back to you, Edward?” I said his name with distaste.

“How could you think I would want to remember those things?” He looked hurt, “I only wish I could’ve taken back what I’ve done...” I looked at him skeptically, “I mean, I just wish I could’ve given you the life your husband gave you, but I could never have compared to him, not now, not ever.”

“You’re right.” I was going to be honest, it was the only way.

“Alright Bella, goodbye.” He stood up.

“Sit down, I’m not through with you yet.” He sat down in the chair, “Edward, I still love you…as you probably already heard tonight.” I raised my eyebrows and he looked at the floor, “I want to continue to love you, I just don’t know how.”

“Bella, I will do anything you ask, I will never, ever think to hurt you again, just…just give me one more chance.”

“You want a second chance? You know, Edward, there aren’t any second chances in life. In the real world, you only get one shot; I learned that the hard way.”

“I understand,” he walked over to the window.

“Wait just a second, I wasn’t finished.” He stopped where he was, “I didn’t say the rules of real life apply here, nor would I follow them if they did.”

Edward turned around, his face calm, and then excited, he had finally grasped what I said. I smiled at him, he still loved me.

“Bella…I-I can’t ever…I love you.” He came over and passionately kissed me on the lips, I hadn’t been kissed like that in years. I kissed him back harder and we fell on the bed.

“I love you,” I whispered, “and I always will.”

“I love you, my Bella, now sleep, it’s to early to be awake.” He kissed my forehead gently.

“Just one thing,” I said, my eyes closing.

“What’s that, my love?”

“What are we going to do about my kids?” I could hear Edward sigh.

“We can discuss that in the morning, now sleep my Bella.”

“Goodnight, Edward.”

“Goodnight, my sweet, sweet Bella.”

I fell asleep that night with a smile in my lips, a happy heart, and a burden totally lifted off my shoulders. I could only think of one thing, however, before I slept.

Jeremy and Alice, what would they think? Oh, Lord.