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Deja Vu

or Not on My Watch AU from chapter 3 of New Moon. Bella is taken to Florida with Renee. However, she is even more heart-broken without Jacob Black to cling to. She is sent to an asylum by a distraught Renee. Alice wasn't looking. She'd promised to leave Bella alone. But sometimes the visions come before you ask. She couldn't help it. She sees Bella being sent off and goes to convince Edward she really isn't better off without him. "Because I'm not going to let you do this to her! I know what it's like in there, Edward. Maybe I don't remember it, but... look. What more harm can you do?"

I disclaim. Alice's POV.

13. Chapter 13

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Her hair cascades down, a dark curtain. “Please, talk to me,” you plead. She doesn’t move at all. “Bella, please.”

“Do you want to be a vampire?”


Still no luck. Damn future just won’t change!

“Definition of insanity,” I hear Jazz whisper in my mind. “Doing the same thing over and over…”

And expecting different results. I groan and go for the direct approach.


Nothing. Just like the vision. I was right, of course. Silly Jasper-hallucination, thinking this would change anything. “Bella, do you want to be a vampire?”

Again, nothing. I sigh and walk over to her. A new tactic occurs to me.

“Bella, Edward will want to be with you if you become a vampire.”

Not strictly a lie. I mean, he will, I’m just failing to mention he wants her now as well. I have done worse.

“Really?” she asks. It’s the first word I’ve heard escape her lips in so long. She seems to be able to think, almost, to react, to know, to live.

“Really. All you have to do is tell Carlisle to change you and Edward will love you.”

Her eyes stare into my soul. They are huge, blank, empty, and they search out the lie. I tremble as she searches for the truth, but I do not budge. I have to fool her. I have to fix this giant mess so they can be together forever.

“Carlisle!” I call, and he comes running.

“Well, Bella? Do you want to be a vampire?” he asks, gently, tenderly, like he’s talking to a child.

Bella’s wide, empty eyes blink twice. He sighs. “If you don’t answer, I can’t change you.”

“NO!” she screams. “No, do. You have to! Please!”

Then she returns to her silent sulking huddle. But the necessary has been done. She’s said what she has to.

Edward runs to her, falling to the floor, shaking her arm desperately. “Bella, my love, don’t do this. Don’t, please, don’t.”

She seems utterly bewildered. “But… But… I…”

“Edward, leave her alone. She’s made her choice,” I snap.

As I say his name, she screams. I sigh.

This is all going to be so much better when no one but the immortals involved remember it. I personally don’t think it will do Edward any harm to wallow in guilt for the rest of eternity. What is the phrase that Emmett would employ? I know it, but just for fun I peek into the future.

“Edward’s still all angst-ridden and guilty. What should we do?” you prod.

The largest one laughs. “Read my lips, sis. It’s his own damn fault.”

I snicker aloud. Best way to put it. And the outcome will be the same, his own damn fault. If he doesn’t like it, he’ll have to learn to, because he’s given up his options by messing up so badly. He doesn’t get to choose for Bella again. That ship has sailed.

I’m sure we’re all agreed.

Unfortunately, Carlisle isn’t. He turns from Edward to me with a heavy sigh, and finally faces her, crouching to be on her eye level, though she won’t meet his gaze.

“Look, Bella. I’m going to ask one more time. Answer me yes or no. Do you want to become a vampire?”