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Deja Vu

or Not on My Watch AU from chapter 3 of New Moon. Bella is taken to Florida with Renee. However, she is even more heart-broken without Jacob Black to cling to. She is sent to an asylum by a distraught Renee. Alice wasn't looking. She'd promised to leave Bella alone. But sometimes the visions come before you ask. She couldn't help it. She sees Bella being sent off and goes to convince Edward she really isn't better off without him. "Because I'm not going to let you do this to her! I know what it's like in there, Edward. Maybe I don't remember it, but... look. What more harm can you do?"

I disclaim. Alice's POV.

14. Chapter 14

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I look intently at him. He will give the answer he must… the true one. There’s no way he’d hurt her by lying. And now she’ll agree to the change, and she’ll forget this whole mess, and…

“No,” he says.

I gasp. “How can you lie like that? Do you just not see…”

Because as he talks, she shrinks back. I see her retreat even further into the agony. Now, worse than refusing, she is unable even to answer. It’s beyond pain, beyond anything. She is empty. She isn’t even a person, isn’t even a shell. There is nothing at all, just a black hole. I’m not talented as Jazz, but I can feel it aching into my very core.

This is the last straw.

“Edward, I am going to kill you!” I scream, and I mean it. I jump at him, poised to attack.

He doesn’t defend himself, and it’s the only thing that slows me down… that and the future.

Poised on a cliff. Her hair blows in the breeze. You’re shocked she has the energy to walk up here. It’s remarkable.

The sea roils and churns below, and you look down with her. She almost smiles.

“Wait!” You scream. “Don’t do this!”

She doesn’t answer, only looks down at the water and smiles and smiles.

“Why?” you ask.

“You killed him. It was bad enough living without his love… but he’s dead…” she gasps. It is the first time she has spoken, has shown any life at all, since the incident.

It lasts for a second. Distracted, you don’t even notice her jump, until there is a distinctive splash in the water. You hurl yourself after her, but you find nothing.

Half an hour later, her broken body is located, curled in the weeds. She looks, finally, happy.

You weep, but more in relief than sorrow. It’s better than watching her suffer more.

“All right. For her, I’m not going to kill you. But you deserve it. Don’t you have a clue… how can you lie to her again, Edward? Do you not see what you’re doing to her?”

“She’s better off this way,” he drones. There is no inflection or emotion in his tone. It is like something recited from a textbook, and an exceptionally boring one at that.

“Look at her. Just look at her. Does she look better off to you? Because to me she looks like she’d be better off dead than suffering like this!”

He stops for a second, really hearing me for the first time. “Do you truly think so?”

“Yes. I do.”

“Bella?” he whispers. “Bella, I will still love you. I’ll always love you, no matter what.”

She shakes her head. “I can’t stand it. Don’t lie to me anymore, Ed-“ she cuts herself off, wincing. “Don’t lie to me.”

“Bella, make the change. Please.”

“I don’t want to live forever.”

“Please, Bella. Please, for me,” I plead.

She looks up at me for the first time. “Alice, I love you. But you’re not enough to live for. Nothing is, not without him.”

An unexpected voice speaks, and I sigh in relief.