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Deja Vu

Summary:
or Not on My Watch AU from chapter 3 of New Moon. Bella is taken to Florida with Renee. However, she is even more heart-broken without Jacob Black to cling to. She is sent to an asylum by a distraught Renee. Alice wasn't looking. She'd promised to leave Bella alone. But sometimes the visions come before you ask. She couldn't help it. She sees Bella being sent off and goes to convince Edward she really isn't better off without him. "Because I'm not going to let you do this to her! I know what it's like in there, Edward. Maybe I don't remember it, but... look. What more harm can you do?"


Notes:
I disclaim. Alice's POV.


20. Chapter 20

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Edward grabs her in an instant. “Bella, don’t, for God’s sake don’t, don’t, don’t… don’t leave me.”

She struggles. It is clear she wants still to die, that she doesn’t believe or trust in him. I can’t blame her. But she grows limp, incapable of movement with the pain overwhelming her again. “No…” she moans. “I can’t leave you.”

“I could never leave you, Edward. It’s always you who leaves me. Why can’t you see that? Why don’t you know that? Why don’t you understand that? I can’t leave you, because I love you. Oh, you say it’s because you’re so goddamn selfless. Well, look were selflessness has gotten us, huh? Would you? Cause it doesn’t look so freaking great to me, Edward. In fact, it is pretty damn awful.”

You’ve never heard her swear before. Of course, she is alone in her room. No one can hear the words pouring out, the lecture of agony. It is delivered to a mirror, to empty space. Nonetheless, it is the truth. And you hear.

“Yeah. I don’t know when it started being impossible for me to live without you. But it is. I need you, Edward. I can’t live without you. Can you understand that? No. You can’t. Because you have this stupid idea you need me so much more than I need you, like you’re the one who loves me, like I don’t love you. Well, which one of us walked away? Which one of us told what you claim is a lie? It sure wasn’t me.”

She looks into his eyes even though he isn’t there, peers into the soul he doesn’t think exists, and laughs hysterically. “It sure as hell wasn’t me.”…

“Edward, bite her now. This instant.”

“Why?”

“Because she… she doesn’t believe you. And she will if you just do it. Just take away her memories and her mortality. One little bite.”

“But she has so much to live for!”

This time Bella and I laugh together. “Right… have I told you you’re an idiot, lately? She has nothing to live for. She’d commit suicide, but she’s too depressed, Edward. I think that should be a pretty compelling argument toward changing her.”

“Bella…”

She, in a last desperate move, throws her head back. Her throat is exposed. The smell wafts toward me, hideous temptation. The scent, so sweet, catches in my nose. I grit my teeth.

Edward can’t resist it. She has played her trump card, she has taken her last power.

He lowers his teeth to her neck, almost gently, and slips them in her throat like a caress. Through the furor of my bloodlust, I note how easily his teeth part her pale skin, like a hot knife cutting through butter.

She doesn’t react at all to the pain I know must have immediately set in. Instead, she moves her neck further up, cutting it deeper into his teeth.

A drop of blood rolls down his skin, red against white, and he laps it up before biting her again.

“Yes,” she moans. “That’s right. Kill me.”