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Deja Vu

or Not on My Watch AU from chapter 3 of New Moon. Bella is taken to Florida with Renee. However, she is even more heart-broken without Jacob Black to cling to. She is sent to an asylum by a distraught Renee. Alice wasn't looking. She'd promised to leave Bella alone. But sometimes the visions come before you ask. She couldn't help it. She sees Bella being sent off and goes to convince Edward she really isn't better off without him. "Because I'm not going to let you do this to her! I know what it's like in there, Edward. Maybe I don't remember it, but... look. What more harm can you do?"

I disclaim. Alice's POV.

9. Chapter 9

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In fact, it would be better. At least dead she couldn’t hurt like this.

Staring at him in wonder, like she doesn’t believe he’s real. You don’t blame her for not believing in him or anything about him.

Gaze filled with pain and love, and he’s too stupid to see it. He keeps asking, again, and again, “Bella, do you love me? It’s me, it’s Edward, I love you, do you love me?”

Could he do anything else wrong? Could he say anything more painful? You don’t think so.

I am never speaking to him again. Never! All eternity is not enough time for me to forgive him, not for this.

I cannot stand to watch him do this to her. It is terrible. It isn’t just that he left her, but that he compounds that error with this vast insensitivity.

“Bella, Bella, please, talk to me, listen to me, something. I need you.”

“It isn’t his fault,” Jazz says.

“I can’t agree with that. He should know. Doesn’t he know? She hurts every bit as much as he does.”

“But he doesn’t know, Alice. He thinks it’s only him that’s hurting.”

She starts to sob. You think it may actually be an improvement. At least it’s feeling something besides those horrible screams.

He begins to shake, then moves beside her. One hand strokes her hair. The other pulls her close to him.

She relaxes into the embrace.

“I love you,” he whispers.

She screams.

“Will it ever get better?” I ask. Not Jasper, more myself. “Will they ever be all right?”

“No. But someday… If he changes her, he can fix it.”

I look for that future.

Sharp, glistening teeth sink into her skin. The whiteness is stained with ruby blood. He drinks.

And does not pull away.

“No! We can’t let him try that.”


I look out into the room, unable to take any more of the future. I can’t stand knowing this. It’s too much, what Edward has done to her, what he’s doing at this very moment. It’s too much.

I can’t expect either of them to bear it. There is just so much pain. I know both are affected, though she shows it more. They are made for each other. How can he stand to leave her?

“I love you. I only left because I love you, Bella. Believe me. Please, please believe me. I didn’t ever want to hurt you. I wanted you to be safe, and happy, and human. Now I find I’ve done something worse than taking your soul. I’ve broken your heart… oh, Bella, I love you.”

She screams.

“Bella, I have to… do you want to come back to the house with me? In Forks? Alice and Jasper will be there,” he offers, finally speaking gently and calmly.

The pale head nods slowly. It is her greatest range of motion.

Edward lifts her onto his back.

“They’re coming here,” I whisper. “Good. Obviously, Edward isn’t authorized to handle this alone.”

“You can say that again,” Jasper agrees.

“I’ll get ready. You should probably…”

“I’ll make myself scarce. I don’t want to be around all that agony… or all that blood.”

I try to ignore the guilt in his face.