Dreaming of the Breaking Dawn
Post-eclipse; Bella and Edward and Bella's first demand. Lots of teasing, a little turn of the tables, and then...well, you will have to read it... The became much more than I originally meant for it to...it has become a fluffy story of the last days of Bella's life in Forks.... COMPELTE
I don’t usually like post-eclipse stories, I would prefer to write Edward's point of view from something I have already read, but this just came to me. I have it rated Adult now, but I really don't think it will ever get to that point, I want to keep it in the same voice and I could never see Stephenie writing anything graphic...plus, the story isn't there yet...they may not...=o)
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The weeks had flown by. I guess that sometimes happens when you are dreading an event, an event like saying goodbye to your father, possibly forever. Edward, Alice and I were heading towards Charlie's house one last time before the move.My mind whirled at the thought that this would be the last time I could be near my father. After this evening, I would call him once or twice more, but then everything would change. I would change.
"Oh Bella, you have been so quiet today!" Alice's chin was on my shoulder, her arm around my neck. "Are you having second thoughts?"
I looked over at my small sister and smiled, "Not a chance. Can't you still see it?" Alice closed her eyes for a moment and concentrated.
"Alice," Edward winced, "that's enough." I took that as a yes.
She opened her eyes, sparing a quick glance at my husband. "Yes, and it's becoming clearer now." She hugged me tighter.
Edward looked at us both with a small smile. He seemed to be coming to terms with the whole situation now, though I knew he was still not entirely happy. I wanted him to be happy. I really did. But this was something I was not going to budge on. It wasn't that he didn't want me to be with him forever, he was just hung up on the soul thing still, I wouldn't let his fixation ruin eternity for us. He would see.
"So, what's the plan?" I asked them. They had been very tight lipped about all of the details of the move. I knew we were going to Alaska; somewhere out in the middle of nowhere. Rosalie and Emmett would not be joining us right away, nor would most of our stuff. I had also deducted that Esme had plans to stay with Eleazar and his family for a short time. Alice assured me that she and Jasper would be with me after. Carlisle promised he would be there for my change, to watch over me and make sure everything went smoothly. And I knew Edward would never leave my side. Beyond these details, I wasn't sure of anything.
Alice shook her head. "You are on a need to know basis...and it isn't important now." I scowled at her. I didn't understand the secrecy. "You will be happy with the plans." That meant surprises, I really don't like surprises, but I let it go.
We were at my dad's house in record time; Edward wanted me to be able to spend as much time with him tonight as I could. "Are you sure you don't want us to leave you alone with him tonight?" Edward had his arms around my waist as we made our way up to the door.
I shook my head, "I don't think I will be okay if you leave me. I need to be reminded of why I have to do this." I smiled up at him, the worried look on his face soften slightly. Alice was behind us, walking entirely too slow to be subtle, I was sure she was trying to give us some privacy.
"Bella..." his voice was concerned and sad. I closed my eyes and sighed; he hadn't asked in days, I knew it was coming. But he didn't say anything, I felt myself being pulled around into his arms and as I opened my eyes he kissed me hard, my heart reacted the same as it always did, and he smiled and put me down. "I love you."
I smiled at him, still stunned by the sudden shift in mood. "What? You aren't going to try to talk me out of it?" I eyed him suspiciously.
He shrugged, "I have decided that it is pointless to argue, and besides you have enough to worry about. You are my stubborn Bella, and I emphasize the stubborn part."
I love him and I told him so as I knocked quickly and opened the door.
"Charlie?" I called, it was odd that he didn't come to the door when I knocked; he had made a habit of hurrying to meet us when we arrived. I looked up at Edward and Alice questioningly; both of them had huge smiles on their faces, obviously knowing something I did not.
I began to walk towards the living room to find my dad with Edward and Alice following close behind. As I walked into the room, I realized that the voices I thought were coming from the television were actually coming from the room. I saw someone sitting with their back to me that was not my father, who was sitting in the chair. I froze in the door as the person's voice gave away their identity.
"Mom?" I asked as she turned to see us standing in the entry, her eyes bright with laughter.
She jumped up and ran around the couch, always so impulsive, and gave me a huge hug. "Bella! Surprise!" I stood their looking over at my sister and husband trying to decide if they had been in on this, their looks told me that they had not known until we arrived.
I hugged her back fiercely, realizing how much it would have hurt to never see her again. "Mom, when did you get here?"
"Just flew in. Charlie called and said you would be leaving for school tomorrow, so I caught the next flight up here. I had to see you before you left; who knows when a busy college student and loving wife would have time to see her mom again." She never released her hold as she explained. Tears came to my eyes as I thought about her words, the answer to her worries was never, but thinking of that hurt, too.
"Alice!" my mom let go of me and ran over to give her a hug. Alice and my mom were two of a kind and got along very well, bonding over wedding plans. Edward pulled me against him, knowing my emotions were about to overwhelm me, I closed my eyes. "And of course, my son-in-law, so handsome..." she pulled him away from me, embracing him tightly, smoothing out his messy hair. He smiled at me over her shoulder, love in his eyes.
While I was free I made my way over to Charlie, "You know I don't like surprises," I whispered. I smiled at him so he would know I was not upset.
"It wasn't my idea, you know your mom." And I did.
Finally, after my mom commented on how happy I looked, Charlie ducking out of the room after remembering his awkwardness with a similar statement, and another round of hugs, we sat down in the living room.
"So Bella, Edward, let's hear your plans," I looked up at Edward, hoping he could answer the question since I wasn't in on the plan.
He was amused at my obvious frustration. "Well, Renee, Bella and I are leaving tomorrow. We will be driving up to school for orientation. The rest of the family will be meeting us later this week." I glanced over at him wondering if we were really leaving without the family and would be alone.
Renee smiled at us. "And Alice, are you going to be attending school as well?"
"Yes, I believe we will be, Jasper and I. We considered going somewhere else, but we wanted to stick close to the family for now. We may transfer in a year or two." My mom found it odd how the Cullen's stuck together.
Charlie came out of the kitchen after a few more questions about our school year and told us dinner was ready.
"Sorry, Charlie, my brother and I have a couple of things we need to take care of, but we will be back very soon." Alice was already headed towards the door before Charlie could reply. I looked at her in shock; they were supposed to stay with me tonight. Edward motioned for me to follow him.
I looked at my parents and made a weak attempt to smile, "I'll be right back, I am going to walk them out."
As we walked out of the house I stared at him, trying to understand why he would leave me when I had asked him not to. "Bella, you should spend time with them, we won't be gone long. Just ducking out since your mom tends to pay a bit more attention and we don't want her to notice us not eating."
"You said you would stay with me..." tears came to my eyes now, I tried to blink them away. "I need you." I whispered. Edward looked at me, I knew he would stay.
"Bella! Get a grip, those are your parents in there, they need you for a few minutes, stop being selfish. Go in there, eat your dinner, and enjoy being with them." Alice's sudden firmness startled me, my eyes meeting hers. She softened her tone. "I'm sorry, but you are being silly...they are your parents. You can do this, and without Edward." She shot him a glare daring him to challenge her.
"Alice, if she feels she needs me here, I will stay with her..." Alice's death stare told me she was telling him something silently. He shook his head at her and looked back at me. "Bella?"
I thought about what she said for a moment and realized she was right. "No, its fine...she's right." Her face was beaming when I looked back at her. "Did you see something?" I asked her.
She shook her head, "no, I just know your mom and Charlie and they want to be with you tonight, say a proper goodbye. It is just common sense." I shook my head at her, not believing her. "Scouts honor! We will be back in an hour...promise."
Edward bent down and kissed my cheek before following his sister to the car. They did not drive away until I had opened the door and walked back into my father's little house.
"Well they left in a hurry," Charlie chuckled as I sat down, "Is my cooking that bad?"
I smiled at him, "No dad, they just have a lot to take care of before we leave."
Dinner went well. We ate and talked. Renee told me about Phil's baseball team and all the trouble they got into, which Phil continuously had to take care of. "He loves those kids like they were his own," she said after a particularly wild story and looked over at me with a smile. "You know, he loves you too, he just didn't want to butt in on my visit this time. Since school is out, he decided to go spend some time with his old teammates. He sends his love."
Phil and I had an odd relationship. He knew that I was happy as long as he made my mom happy, so he and I were friends as long as that was the case. I could tell he was living up to his side of the bargain and this knowledge made leaving a slight bit easier.
My mom continued talking about her current hobbies and adventures with her new teacher friends while Charlie cleared the table and we made our way back into the living room.
After we were all settled in the room, it became very quiet. I was looking for something to say when Renee sighed. I looked at her with question in my eyes, trying to understand what the change in her mood meant. Meeting my eyes, she smiled thoughtfully, "Bella," she began quietly, she had a much more somber sound in her voice, "your dad and I love you, you know that." I only shook my head in confirmation, still not understanding why she was saying this. I looked at Charlie for more explanation but he only looked resigned.
"We just wanted to make sure you are happy." This statement was a complete surprise to me. I had done everything to make sure they knew I was happy. I had married Edward, I talked of nothing but my new life I was excited to begin, of course the one where I was a college student and in love, I never imagined that they would question my happiness. Had I given them some reason to think I was not?
I said nothing, waiting for her to continue, but when she did not I realized that she wanted an answer. "Of course I am happy," I finally managed. "Why do you ask?" I hoped for clarification.
"Bella," Charlie spoke for the first time in quite some time, "you are our daughter, we just want to make sure you have everything you want." My heart swelled and the tears were threatening to come. I knew they loved me, but this seemed different. Almost like they knew that this was goodbye. As if they understood that this would be their last chance to be my parents.
I knew I wanted them to know I was happy; that no matter where I was that my choices were right. I composed myself, not wanting tears to betray my meaning, "Dad, Mom. I am very happy. These last two years have been stressful." I paused and looked over at Charlie, seeing the pain in his eyes as he thought about everything I had put him through those months that Edward had left and the other erratic behaviors he had to witness during my time in Forks. I reached over and grabbed his hand, squeezing it, hoping he understood my apology.
In response to this he looked at me with love in his eyes, more emotion that I had ever seen from him, "Isabella, I am just glad you gave me a chance to be your dad. I'd happily go through it again to get the time with you. Well, maybe with a little less drama..." he cracked a smile as he finished.
I couldn't help but smile back. Still holding his hand in mine, I continued. "But now, I can't tell you how happy I am. Everything that led up to this was worth it. I cannot wait to spend eternity with my husband. I can't wait to experience the rest of my life. I love everything that I can see coming in my future and I am ready for it. So please don't worry about me. Edward is my world - of course he could never take either of your place - but the love we feel for each other...I am his world too I suppose. We will take care of each other now." The tears were falling freely now. I wanted them to believe me and understand. It meant everything to me; it was the last thing I could do for them.
My mom moved from the love seat and embraced me tightly, enough that I felt as if maybe Emmett or Jake were hugging me instead of my tiny mother. Charlie never released my hand. "Bella that is all we wanted to know. As long as you are happy, I can be happy," she was crying now as well. When she let go of me I looked over at Charlie, sure that all this open emotion was making him uncomfortable but as soon as I did he pulled me into a hug that was as fierce as the one I was so recently released from.
The room was quiet after the tears stopped and the hugs were finished. I suddenly realized the time and as if on cue I heard the knock at the door announcing the return of my Edward and Alice. I ran to let them in, throwing my arms around my husband before he came through the door. He was ready for it. He held me in his arms while Alice made her way into the living room with Charlie and Renee. "I love you," I whispered in his ear.
"You are my world, Isabella Cullen, don't you ever doubt that," he replied. I was not surprised he had heard and didn't care, it was all true. Placing me back on the ground we walked to the living room to joint he others.
We all sat and talked well into the evening, just enjoying the company. They asked us about the classes we planned to take, which we had carefully chosen before hand to be sure our story was complete for times such as these and many other questions about our future. Soon my mom jumped from her seat and started giving everyone hugs. "Sorry guys, I better go try to call Phil, I promised I wouldn't wait too late," she explained. I wasn't ready for the evening to end, but I knew it was time.
I gave her a kiss on the cheek and pulled away from her, "Mom, where are you staying?" I suddenly realized she had not said.
"Oh, your father offered your room since I was only here for the night," She smiled over at Charlie who nodded. She quickly continued, "Ok, Bella, you be safe and make sure you call me and let me know how everything is going! Edward, I trust you to make sure she does!" Edward smiled at her and bowed his head in assurance as she made her way up the stairs. I had to fight the tears. I would miss her.
I looked back into the room as she disappeared and moved toward Charlie. "Well, I think we should be leaving, too, Dad. We have a busy day tomorrow." He hugged me again. I held on to him. I was going to miss him too. My mom didn't need me anymore, but I had so little time with my father, I was going to worry about him. Saying goodbye after such a short time was painful and I struggled to keep my cool.
As if he was reading my mind, "Ok, kiddo, don't worry about your father, I will be fine. Billy has me booked up for the next five weekends. I think he was trying to take my mind off you leaving." He chuckled as he let me go.
"I'll miss you." I told him as we walked towards the door, Edward and Alice already outside.
He beamed at me, "I'll miss you too Bella. And I mean what I said, I wouldn't give up any of the time we had, I am so happy we had the chance. Don't forget about your old man." I shook my head, hoping he knew that I could never forget him.
Charlie moved toward Alice and she eagerly hugged him. "You take care, I am glad Bella has such a great friend," he told her.
"Sister," Alice corrected. "We couldn't ask for a better addition to our family Charlie, we will take care of her. She is in good hands." Alice kissed him on the cheek and made her way to the car.
Charlie now walked to Edward and extended his hand. "Son," he started seriously, "I know we haven't had the easiest of times, but I want you to know that I am happy she has you. You seem to truly love her and that is what matters. You better take care of her." - the last statement almost sounding like a threat.
"Thank you Charlie. I will be by her side forever. And as happy as I may make her, it couldn't compare to the joy she has brought to my life. I will never let her go." Edward's voice seemed to shake with emotion as he finished.
"Good boy," is all Charlie said as he put his arm around Edward's shoulder releasing him as quickly as it happened. Men!
"I love you, dad. I'll call to let you know we arrived safely." I said to him with one last hug and a quick kiss. My heart hurt knowing this would be the last time I would see him, but I pushed the thoughts aside as I smiled at him and jumped into the car. Edward closed the door and I saw Charlie say something to him and shake his hand once again before Edward started around the car.
I waved at my father as we drove away. I did not look at my sister or husband; I didn't want them to see the tears that were streaming down my face. I didn't want them to doubt my decision. I couldn't take them being upset as well.
"Bella," Edward broke the silence, "you don't have to hide your tears from us. We know it was hard. No matter your conviction of the desire, it makes it no less difficult to leave your family behind. We understand," he grabbed my hand and laced our fingers together. "I am overwhelmed that you have done this for me," he said in almost a whisper.
The tears began again, but this time for a different reason. I was doing this for him, for us. I had not thought that he could see that. I had felt the entire time he thought I was being selfish, that I was doing this for myself. "Edward, I would do anything for you, you know that. I am doing this for us. I am so happy you can see that." I smiled at him and he leaned over and kissed me, his lips pressing hard against mine.
"Ok, enough. Keep your eyes on the road!" Alice suddenly groaned. Her tone obviously annoyed at our display and not worried about dangerous driving.
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