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'Without You'

Summary:
Edward has left Bella. Time passes and she finds herself alond in the meadow. [songfic]


Notes:


1. 'Without You'

Rating 4.5/5   Word Count 500   Review this Chapter

I've sure enjoyed the rain but I'm looking forward to the sun
You have to feel the pain when you lose the love you gave someone
I thought by now the time would take away these
lonely tears
I hope you're doin' fine all alone but where do I go from here

I lay down in the meadow, my arms cold from the morning’s rain, my hair getting dirty from the muddy patches scattered around the once perfect meadow. If I thought coming here was going to make it all better somehow, that it would make me whole again… was I ever wrong.

I had to curl up into a ball on my side, arms holding my legs to my chest, as memories of Edward swam tantalizingly in front of my closed eyes. I would never have him again. I’d blown my chance with my stupid, stupid, stupidity. I ached and pined and hurt over something that wasn’t worth any of it. But…

Edward. Of course he was worth it. I sighed.


Cause without you I'm not okay
And without you I've lost my way
My heart's stuck in second place
Without you

The meadow was always our spot, the place where we could be alone. Here was were we enjoyed each others company – the silences, the question, the kisses… and with those memories came the tears.


Well I never thought I'd be lying here without you by my side
It seems unreal to me, that the life you promised was a lie
You made it look so easy, makin' love into memories
I guess you got what you wanted, but what about me

You turned away from me and you made my life… not worth living, I thought bitterly… but I love you Edward, why can’t you understand? Come back to me, I pleaded silently in my mind. I gave up after a few minutes. He just wasn’t coming and I had to face the facts. As long as he was happy, I guess I could find some solace.


Cause without you I'm not okay
And without you I've lost my way
My heart's stuck in second place,
Without you

It’s stupid Bella, I tried reasoning with myself, angrily wiping away the tears that had been constantly falling down my cheeks, it’s time to move. He isn’t coming back. Forget about him. Forget about his angelic voice, topaz eyes, golden eyes, crooked smile.

“ARGH!” I yelled in frustration to no-one in particular.

That was it, I was going to move on. My mind was set…

but my heart wasn’t going to follow.


Somebody tell my head to try to tell my heart, that I'm better off, without you
Cause baby I can't live.....

And just for the moment… I let my heart win. Let the tears fall where they may. At least here you don’t have to pretend.

Stupid thoughts.


Without you I'm not okay
And without you I've lost my way
My heart's stuck in second place,
Without you

Why?


Without you.

I thought you loved me.