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A Change in Monsters

Summary:
When Bella comes back from Renee's after Edward leaves in New Moon, she has trouble coping. Will she ever find love again? Sam/Bella


Notes:
NO EMILY! Just so you know! She's not in this story, never will be...


13. Forgiving

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Bella’s Point of View:

I broke down in tears. One of my two favorite men had died; and, the other one had killed him. It felt like it was my fault. Nay, did not feel: was.

“It’s all my fault,” I muttered over and over again as a set of muscular arms grasped around me and cradled me into their chest. Why was I always crying? Oh, yeah, my life might explain that question.

I felt the person bouncing slightly, so I knew that we were moving somewhere. I did not know where they were headed, but I had no choice but to let him carry me to wherever.

“I love you.” It blended in with the wind so well, that I couldn’t tell if he had said it or not. I wanted him to have said it, but I was not sure if he had.

After a couple of minutes, I felt myself being placed on a soft cushion thing.

“What’s wrong with her?” It was Jacob.

“She’s going into shock,” I heard Sam murmur.

“Why would she do that?” Jacob asked curiously.

I felt Sam raising my feet up slightly and placing them on a pillow. “Because…” he trailed off, and I felt him bump into the couch as he tried to drag Jacob a little further away. I could still hear them though.

“Jacob,” Sam started, “I just did an awful thing.”

“Like what? Did Edward come back and you just killed him?” he guessed jokingly.

“Jake, that’s exactly what I did.” I could picture Sam running his fingers through his hair over and over. I could hear when his feet hit the ground, too: he was pacing.

“Jake, I probably ruin all my chances with Bella. I am such an idiot. She will never love me again. I mean, I killed her ex-boyfriend. What do you think she is going to think of me? Gosh, I am so stupid sometimes.”

“No, you’re not.” My voice had finally come back and at a perfect time. He needed to know that he was not stupid at all.

“Bella?” he said. He rushed over to the side of the couch and knelt down next to me. “Are you okay? How are you feeling?”

“Yes, and I am feeling fine.”

“Good, good,” he muttered to himself.

“Jake?”

“Yeah?” his gruff voice asked from the other side of the couch.

“Hi.”

“Hi, Bella.” I laughed weakly and grimaced slightly.

“I shouldn’t be the one in pain,” I said to Sam. “You were the one that fought him.”

“Yeah, Bella, about that…”

“Shh,” I said, placing my index finger over his lips. “Don’t say anything.” I heard the front door slam quietly, and I knew that Jacob had left surreptitiously to leave Sam and me alone.

“Bella,” Sam tried again. “I’m s…”

I blacked out.

--

“Hmm,” I groaned as I turned over to my side.

“Bella?” Sam asked worriedly. “What’s wrong?”

“What happened, Sam?” I asked. He was on the couch and had his arms wrapped around my waist protectively, but I could tell that he had been sleeping.

“You fainted. You were hopefully just a little tired.”

“Sam?” I asked, turning around in his arms so I could face him.

“Hmm?” he hummed magically.

“I think I need to call them,” I said, trying to keep my voice calm.

He knew exactly who I was talking about. He just nodded and released me from his grip. I stood up and started walking in the direction of his kitchen so I could go and use his phone.

When I got about five steps away, though, I turned around, walked back to him, and knelt down by his head. I kissed his lips passionately. “I love you, too.” I pecked him on the lips once again before turning back in the direction of the kitchen.

I skipped over the phone connected into his kitchen wall. I picked it up and put it to my ear. I heard the buzz and hung up the phone quickly. I knew that they were going to be mad.

Maybe they wouldn’t even know yet. This could be true because when Edward was fighting, he was with a werewolf, so Alice wouldn’t have been able to see anything.

I picked up the phone once again and placed it back up to my ear. I slowly dialed the numbers of the Cullens’ home residence.

“Bella?” Alice’s usually perky voice asked.

“Hi, Alice.”

Sam’s Point of View:

She pulled away slightly from me, breaking our kiss. “I love you, too,” she muttered, and then pressed her lips to mine quickly.

I saw her skipping towards the kitchen. She was so brave to be doing the right thing and calling the Cullens. It would’ve taken me awhile to muster up the courage. Maybe that’s another thing that I love about Bella, she is so brave. It’s sad that she doesn’t know it.

I heard her slam the phone back down into its cradle. I glanced over at her, so was breathing steadily in and out. I could tell now that she didn’t want to do it.

I started pushing myself off the couch to go and talk to her, but she picked up the phone again and started pressing down numbers on the phone.

“Bella?” I could hear the conversation with my werewolf hearing. I really didn’t want to intrude in on Bella’s business though.

“Hi, Alice.”

“Do you know?” Alice’s voice was cool, calm, and collective. If only I knew that that was how Bella felt.

“Yes, Alice, I do.” My brave Bella.

“And, you know who did it, right?” Was Alice testing her?

“Yes, Alice, I do,” Bella repeated.

“And yet, you are still there with him?” I saw Bella pull the phone away from her ear, looking at it like it was going to attack her.

“Yes.” Bella sounded as if she were on the verge of tears.

“How could you, Bella? He killed Edward!” That’s when Bella really broke down. I couldn’t take the way Alice was yelling at her. I ran over to Bella, and wrapped my arms around her waist.

I grabbed the phone from her hand and put it up to my own ear. “Don’t you ever talk to her like that again! She did nothing wrong! It was me. I’m the one that killed him. And you know why?”

I waited for Alice to reply. She didn’t and I could tell that she was waiting for me to continue.

“I killed him because I know what happened while he was gone. He can’t just use my Bella as a play toy for his own pleasure when he wants her. I know he was in Alaska with Tanya!”

Bella’s Point of View:

“I killed him because I know what happened while he was gone,” Sam argued. My eyebrows creased, but I leaned into Sam, my knees suddenly feeling weak. “He can’t jut use my Bella as a play toy fro his own pleasure when he wants her. I know he was in Alaska with Tanya!”

Tanya? My eyes flashed up to Sam’s. He understood that I was having trouble standing up with my weak knees. He lifted me up in his arms. I wrapped my legs around his waist and my arms around his neck. I placed my head gently underneath his chin.

He kissed the top of my head, but continued talking to Alice on the other side. “You didn’t know? He didn’t tell… I have a reliable source…no, no one was stalking him… yes, I do know people in Alaska…do I have to answer that?” He sighed. “’Bye. Yes, I do.” He hung up.

“What do you do?” I asked weakly.

“Forgive her for blowing up at you,” he answered wrapping his arms around my waist.

“That’s nice of you,” I mumbled as he set me down on the kitchen table. I lifted my head off of his chest. I could feel my hair sticking to face with sweat.

“Do you feel all right, Bella?” Sam asked concerned again.

“Yeah,” I answered stronger. “Thanks.”

He slid me closer to him on the kitchen counter and soon our bodies were pressed up against each other. My legs were on either side of him.

“Now,” he began, “I just need one more thing.”

“What’s that?” I asked.

“For you to forgive me.” I frowned slightly.

“You don’t need me to forgive me at all. It should be me forgiving you. Not the other way around, Sam. I’m the one that stupidly went with Edward.”

“You had no choice.”

“Well…”

He cut me off as his lips crushed against mine.