A Heavy Heart
Edward finally gave Bella more human experiences, but the reprecussions leave Bella in a situation that astounds and compromises the entire family, and provokes the Volturi to step into action.
I hope you enjoy this story, it's my first Twilight story other than a oneshot. I'm also writing a companion piece for Jacob currently. It isn't a sequel - it just coincides with this story during time-wise, only it's Jacob's tale.
1. Chapter 1
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Trying to shake away the nerves, I stared at myself in the mirror. My Champagne colored wedding dress clung to my curves, or what I had that I could try to call curves, reaching to the floor in silk. I wasn't used to wearing a dress without straps, but I made do, it's not like there was anything I could do about it, there was no sense in complaining. Though, I'm not used to wearing that many dresses at all in general.
This was not something people would expect me to wear, even to a wedding. A corset bodice kept had me barely able to breath, as it was laced up tightly in the back. It was a two piece dress, with a lace skirt that had floral designs on it and above the corset. Some taste of cleavage was showing, but not enough to consider terrible; just a bit to accentuate, as Alice said. I was a bit hesitant at the start to wear something like this, even though the dress was absolutely gorgeous.
An hour of a lecture from Alice was all it took. I would have given in within ten minutes of her talking about it, but she wouldn't allow me to get a word in. So I was forced to sit on her couch for an hour to hear her drone on and on about how this was going to be the only human wedding I was ever going to get, that I deserved it. Still, I don't believe I deserve this much, it was extremely expensive. The Cullens even insisted on an expensive caterer, but I stood firm on refusing that one. This was going to be a small wedding, that was going to be certain, so there wasn't any huge planning that we couldn't do just as well ourselves without having to pay a large sum of money.
After all, this was about the only human wedding that Alice was going to get to help out with for a while, I didn't want to hurt her feelings. I allowed her to take me shopping, which was something I instantly regretted. When you give Alice the reigns on shopping, it's very hard to keep a hold on them until she breaks completely free. She acts like a child on Christmas day, if you're looking for an analogy to her excitement.
The wedding was to take place inside the Cullen's own home. There certainly was enough room, that's for sure. We just had to clear out a bit of furniture, which definitely didn't take that long. Small white chairs were lined up in the open area, and a small pue was decorated in lilacs. The time for the wedding would be only shortly, at Edward's favorite time of day, Twilight. It was the one thing he asked of me at the wedding. How could I deny my angel as such a simple request as that?
After all, he was giving me the best gifts he could ever give me. Well, he was giving me the two best gifts I could only wish for. One, he was turning me into a vampire, after long awaited imatience from me. And two, he was marrying me. Me - normal, average looking, accident prone Isabella Swan. It still took me a while to realize that when I went to sleep that he wasn't going to vanish, prove that I was dreaming. He was real, and he was going to spend eternity with me.
"Bella, come on, it's time!" Alice spoke anxiously while peaking through the door. Her lilac colored dress stuck out against her dark hair. She gave me an encouraging smile, as she grabbed me by the hand to lead me through the door. I'd been getting ready in Alice's room, well, she'd actually helped me get ready for the most part, she had just went downstairs momentarily to check on everyone.
We stopped at the beginning of the spiral staircase, where Charlie stood in a tux. I hadn't seen him so dressed up since...well, I'd never seen him so dressed up before. Alice smiled at me once more before I took Charlie's arm and began descending down the staircase. The music had started, and the playing sounded so beautiful I could have sworn it was Edward himself playing.
My hand glided down the satin smooth railing of the staircase as I heard Charlie begin to mumble. "You look really pretty Bells," I could tell he was feeling a bit awkward, and smiled. I tightened my grip around him as we came into view of the guests, who were turning around to view us. There weren't many people, as we only invited our closest friends, mainly my own.
I saw Renee and Phil sitting up front, with tears in Renee's eyes. Ben and Angela sat near the middle, Angela smiling widely at me as I saw Ben tenderly take her hand. Everyone I had invited had come, I was grateful, but I glanced towards the corner. A small pang hit my heart as I saw the empty chair. I knew who was supposed to be there, but can't say I was completely surprised that he didn't come. Though, Jake was my best friend, a part of me wished he could have came to the wedding to see me.
Before I could think any further, I was already at the end of the aisle and being handed over. I was completely startled that I hadn't fell the entire time in these shoes that I was wearing. Who knew such beautiful things could be such monsters? Well...I can't really say much about that, I do know that feeling. Even the vampires like James and Victoria who had attempted to kill me were still beautiful. It took a moment, and I had to withhold myself from laughing. I couldn't believe I was comparing my uncomfortable shoes to ravenous, bloodthirsty vampires.
Edward's velvety voice rang through my ears as he recited his vows. I smiled at him, could there be anyone else closer to perfection? Slowly, I recited my own as we slid our rings onto each other's fingers. Mine was absoultely breathtaking. Momentarily it would be Isabella Cullen, I would finally officially belong to my family.
Isabella Marie Cullen...the thought in my head couldn't sound any more perfect no matter how many times I kept repeating it in my head. And shortly, that was what my reality was going to become. The day of mine and Edward's wedding finally came, and I can't believe I was worried about this when he'd first asked me. Marrying Edward would be one of the best decision I'd ever made, I could feel it. Just staring at his perfect face made me even more sure that this was going to be the best thing to happen.
"Do you, Edward Anthony Cullen, take Isabella Marie Swan, to be your lawfully wedded wife? In sickness and in health, til death do you part?" I could tell we both wanted to laugh at the irony. I smiled as wide as it could possibly go as I heard his voice ring the room, "I do."
"Do you, Isabella Marie Swan, take Edward Anthony Cullen, to be your lawfully wedded husband? In sickness and in health, til death do you part?" I nodded before speaking the same answer as Edward, and we were pronounced man and wife. Edward's lips met mine for a briefest moment, I knew he wanted to spare me the embarrassment of acting the way I did when we usually kissed.
Walking down the aisle with Edward, I couldn't believe what had just happened. I was married, I had just married the man I love. Turning away from the opened doors, I could have sworn I saw a figure's shadow, but I shook the thought out of my head. The thought caused me to tighten my grip on Edward, though it wasn't as if he objected. We led the others into the reception room, where tables were set up. Me and Edward walked toward the table up front where a three layered cake sat, waiting to be sliced. I wished they hadn't spent so much money, knowing that half of the guests at the wedding didn't even eat human food.
Edward's arms wrapped around me and grasped my hands as we sliced the cake in front of everyone, receiving a few flashes from cameras in return. Mostly from Renee, I'd bet. Edward only chuckled, "You look absolutely beautiful, you know that." He nestled his face in the curve of my neck. The heat rose to my cheeks, more than likely noticed by everyone. "Alice is thinking about the honeymoon," Edward laughed, and my thoughts stopped. For some odd reason, the honeymoon had totally left my mind. Then I remembered the fact that he put the words 'Alice' and 'honeymoon' together, and the only result was a sigh from me as I thought of our day at the mall once more.
I groaned as Alice grabbed my hand and drug me further into the mall. Already, I had bags on top of bags piled onto my arms, not to mention the many on Alice's. It was as though we were a walking shopping cart. Yes, that is how many bags we had, no exaggeration. We had already been to about twelve stores, the mall was a lot larger than what I thought it to be. Suddenly, Alice stopped at a store and squealed. Looking, my eyes widened in shock.
"No Alice - this is - this is -"
"Victoria's Secret...Perfect!" She cut in for me, just not using the same term I was thinking. "It'll be perfect for the honeymoon! We have to buy you some lingerie! You can't possibly think of seducing Edward with the wardrobe you have." I blushed, I hadn't thought about that.
"Um, Alice, I don't know if that's happening. I mean, I'm still human." I mumbled, her mouth dropped.
"You don't think you're going to sleep together on your wedding night?" She asked me, startled. To be honest, yes, I didn't think we would. I was still human after all, and Edward still had temptations. Of course I wanted it to happen, but I didn't want to push his boundaries too far if he wasn't able to control himself. Plus, it wasn't the most comforting though in the world to be discussing the sex life of my soon-to-be husband with his sister. "Of course you will! Edward himself said he wanted you to have as many human experiences as possible, and what human woman doesn't sleep with her husband on her wedding night? He'd be contradicting himself."
"How do you know he actually wants that?" I asked, mostly to myself. What if Edward didn't want me that way?
My question caused Alice to laugh, "Of course he does. You should see Jasper. Have you not noticed recently that whenever you and Edward are together in the house that he has to leave? He has to deal with all of the sexual tension!" She laughed even harder, causing me to go about as red as a tomato, if I wasn't already. "He's been sexually repressed since...forever, and you think he doesn't want you when he finally has a shot at getting laid?"
I wanted to both burst out laughing and die of embarrassment at how Alice put her statement. The next hour consisted of her forcing me to check almost every piece of lingerie the store could provide us with.
"You never told me where we were going." I reminded him, turning my head to face him. He smiled, shaking his head. I pouted, wanting to know where we were going for our honeymoon already. He had been keeping this from me since I don't know how long, which made me even more persistent to find out what it was. I mean, it wasn't that long away, it wasn't as if it was going to ruin the surprise. Just a few hours early is all.
After I finished eating, Charlie rose from his seat, calling everyone's attention. "If I could have all of your attention please, thank you. I would just like to talk about Edward and Bella for a moment," He began, as if it wasn't obvious. I couldn't help but smile at him as he attempted an effort at making a toast. "At first, I thought Edward and the rest of his family was a fine one, very respectable. Then I learned that he was dating my daughter, and well, as you would guess, the protective father instincts took over me.. He was taking care of Bella just as I'd wished a boy would do one day, treating her with every bit of respect that she deserved, so I was accepting him." He glanced at our table, winking at me.
"But then he left," I winced, and Edward's grip tightened around me. I didn't think Charlie would bring that up in front of everyone. "It was so heartbreaking to see Bella in that state, it was as if her soul had left her body." Edward's face hadn't moved a muscle, his expression hadn't changed at all. "And when he came back, I wasn't as welcoming. I didn't know what he thought, that he could come back after leaving her broken like that. But after all of the explainations and everything, I came to and realized that Bella hadn't been this happy since before he'd left." I smiled at Edward, reassuring him.
Charlie continued, turning towards us once more, "Bells, I just want you to know, the only reason I've kept my guard up around this boy the entire time, longer than I should might I add, was just because I was scared. I knew I was losing my daughter, even after I had only had you for a short time. You were growing up, and I didn't want to let you go. Now here you are, married to the boy you introduced me to as your boyfriend years ago, and I've never seen you this happy before, which is all I want... Congratulations." He finished. I mouthed an 'I love you' to him before he sat down, and he smiled at me yet again before taking his seat.
The father-daughter dance came along, and I took the floor with Charlie. Swaying to the music, he murmered in my ear, "I'm so happy for you Bella, I hope I didn't sound all corny in that toast I made." He chuckled, and I shook my head. Even though, he did sound corny, I wasn't going to upset him.
"You didn't, I love you dad. Thanks for letting me move in," I joked with him. Our dance continued, until I saw Charlie's shoulder being tapped on, asking to cut in. I expected it to be Edward, but saw Jacob behind my father. I was caught by surprise, as I jumped into his arms, taking him into a breathtaking hug. Another song began to play, as me and Jacob began to dance. For a moment, we danced in silence, not speaking to one another. Finally, Jacob was the first to speak.
"I'm sorry I didn't come." He apologized, I could see the sincerity in his eyes. I nodded, showing that it was alright, but he shook his head in disagreement. "No, it's not. You're my best friend, and I couldn't even get the courage to come see you on the happiest day of your life." He cringed a bit as he spoke of my marriage to Edward being 'the happiest day of my life'. "I was just...so upset with the fact that you had chosen him. I was being selfish. I came here to try and talk sense into you," I was about to cut him off, angered, but he stopped me.
"But I saw you through the doors, and you looked so happy with him. I couldn't ruin your happiness like that. I just want to make sure that you're happy with your decision, that you chose to be with him." I nodded my head.
"I've never been more sure of anything, I love him, I want to spend the rest of my life with him, however short that may be, and then eternity," I attempted to joke about my impending vampire initiation, as I guessed I could call it. He didn't think it was very funny, as I immediately felt him stiffen by my side. Wrong thing to say Bella, I scolded myself. "I know it must be hard for you to be in the house with so many of them." I offered, referring to the Cullens.
"It's...alright," His face contorted in disgust as Alice passed by us towards Jasper, but he quickly covered it up. I knew that the smell was horrible for him, just as it was for them, but it wasn't as if he hadn't handled it before. Though, that was when they were about to fight the newborns, I shuddered remembering how they all risked their lives like that. Jake noticed, and glanced towards Edward who was keeping a protective watch on me as he danced with my mother.
I tried to change the subject, "So..how's the love life going?" We both laughed and to my surprise, he actually answered me.
"It's actually changed somewhat, very recently though." He smiled at me, but his expression fell a bit. I was taken aback by how quickly he'd found someone else, not that it would have been a problem for him. Still, I was happy for him, but curious at his expression. Before I could push further into it, Edward appeared by my side. Finally, we could dance together. Jacob nodded when Edward asked to dance with me, and grudgingly let me go. He muttered a 'take care' and was out the door before another sentence was out of my mouth.
Edward twirled me gracefully, before pulling me closer to him. I had to admit, this was the best dance of all of the dances I've had with Edward. This was our first dance that started off our new life together as husband and wife. I smiled, that had a nice ring to it. My husband. Edward put his cold lips to my ear before asking what I was thinking about. "Us," I answered honestly.
He smiled that crooked smile I loved so much. "Isabella Marie Cullen," It sounded even better when it came from his velvety voice. "Can I call you mine?"
I smiled yet again, letting a small chuckle escape me. I don't think I had stopped smiling all day. "Forever," I promised him, but didn't notice his body tense as I said it. He kissed me lightly on the forehead. The idea was so surreal, Edward and I were going to be married from this moment. We could finally spend forever together as husband and wife.