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Happily Ever Never?

Summary:
Bella never jumped off the cliff. Edward and the Cullens never came back until 100 years later, but the Cullen's are not the only vampires in Forks. What happens when they meet the one person they knew they would never see again? Will Edward finally get his happily ever after?
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Notes:
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10. Not Ready to Make Nice

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Chapter 10

Not Ready to Make Nice

“Go away” my voice was so low I wasn’t sure if I had actually spoken aloud. My tone wasn’t angry, just pleading. My emotions were running wild from the exhausting memories of my pain. I couldn’t stand to look at the cause of all my pain.

“ Please, if you ever loved me, you would leave now” I whispered again, but this time I knew he heard me because he turned like he was going to walk away, but didn’t.

“ No. I’m not leaving you again. That didn’t really work last time,” he said in a soft but resolute voice.

“ EDWARD!!” I screamed in frustration.

“ Bella” he said calmly back. He hesitated for a second and then added, “I missed you”

I gave out a strangled half sob half laugh.

“ Bella, I’m so sorry for all I have put you through, I understand that you hate me, and nothing can be the same, but I need to explain.” I looked straight into his eyes as he paused and what I saw there made me gasp. It was a reflection of my eyes, my pain. Edward was almost sobbing with remorse. As much as I wished I didn’t care, I did. So I nodded.

“ When, I left, it was the hardest point of my entire existence. Standing there, in the woods, telling the blackest lie there was—that I didn’t love you anymore.” I gasped.

“ I left because… I know there is no excuse for what I did, but… I thought taking the monsters like me out of your life would help you stay alive and help you to lead a happy, normal human life. I realize now that my reasoning is completely moronic, but at the time when your humanity hung in the balance, I thought you would be better off without me. In reality, however, my existence without you became a living hell. I was drowning. Falling down into the abyss, never to breathe clean air again. Days dragged on. I could feel each thousandth of a hundredth of a tenth of a second tick endlessly by. The only thing that kept me from going completely insane was you. The vision of you happy, smiling was what I lived for. But then you died. I went to your funeral you know. I sat there by your gravestone all night going over “what ifs”. Right at that moment the world stopped turning, because you were my world and you were gone. That day, in the cafeteria when I saw you, I thought I had finally lost it. But you were real. It felt like… it felt like the sun had begun to rise for the first time in 100 years. I love you Bella, more than you will ever know, I love you.”

At the close of his words I gave another straggled sob. Everything he had supposedly felt, I felt the same way. To know that he had loved me, always had threatened to break me. I closed my eyes thinking hard on his words, but I felt he wanted a response.

“ The difference between you and me, Edward, is I did drown. I went completely insane; I even heard your voice in my head sometimes. And I lived for those moments because they proved that we were not a dream. I gave up on friends, family, life. My chest was a gaping hole that burned at the edges every second of every day. No matter what you say it’s not enough. You can never fill that hole again. You weren’t there for me. You knew how much I loved you, I was willing to give up Charlie for you and you just threw me away like trash.” I was getting hysterical now, and pacing back and forth swaying with the effort to keep standing. “ The worst part is, I love you. I hate that I do, but I still love you. You left me to die body and soul, but I still love you.” The next thing that happened was a miracle.

I started crying, but not water. Instead, I was crying tears of blood. It had never happened before but as I stood there clutching my chest like I did so many years ago, blood started running down my face. The surprise of it all only made me cry harder.

At first, Edward looked alarmed, like I was hurt, but he finally realized what happened. He walked quickly toward me and picked me up. He sat down with me in his arms actually sobbing into his shoulder. At first I resisted and tried to get away, but he held me tight. I started punching his chest, but he didn’t flinch. Finally, I gave up and melted into his embrace. He sat like that rocking me and whispering, “I’m sorry” over and over into my hair. As the minutes dragged on I gained composure and when the tears finally stopped I made the mistake of looking into his eyes. I stared at those bottomless topaz eyes and found myself memorized. Edward leaned in slowly as if to kiss me. I started to lean in too. Our lips were almost touching when I pulled away sharply and smacked him in the face.

“ NO EDWARD! WE CAN’T! ” I yelled.

I jumped up quickly and started to run far, far away. As I vanished into the forest I heard him collapse and say, “ I’m so sorry Bella. For everything. I’m sorry.”