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I Need You to Love Me

Summary:
A penny for your thoughts… A picture so it lasts… Let's knock down the walls of immortality Your fingers on my skin… only you can hear my fear… only you can help me heal… i see forever with you here. It's never enough, no matter how many times I try to tell you this is love. If tomorrow never comes, I want you to know right now that I'm gonna love you until the day. I'm gonna love you like it's the last night on Earth. And though I'm undeserving, I need you to love me.


Notes:
All of this belongs to the great stephenie meyer. I am just playing with her fun toys.


13. Chapter 13 - Let's Knock Down the Walls of Immortality

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Chapter Thirteen- Let’s Knock Down the Walls of Immortality

The sun slowly rose against the horizon, painting the midnight blue sky with bright red, highlighting it with purples and golds, oranges and pinks. Most people didn’t know it, but Dawn was a fully aware conscious, seeing all and telling nothing. Loud rumbling filled the air as dawn approached, sending beams of gold and orange, some not passing the looming gray clouds. Those that did were jetting across the white sandy beach, making the crystalline sand shine brightly. One beam happened to fall upon a slumbering couple. It landed on a bed of pale frost blue and hot pink, in which two figures lie intertwined together, peacefully sleeping.

As the light crept up the bed, the girl shifted positions slightly to were her arm was by her side, the other under the makeshift pillow that was a man. It silently moved up the bed until it reached her pale face. It paused, for a moment, to them. After all, Dawn hadn’t taken the chance to observe the vampire in a long time. He tended to avoid Dawn like the plague. Dawn understood the boy’s fear- to him, Dawn meant exposure, infamousness and possible death. Yet Dawn could not help the curiosity of the boy that the Night spoke so fondly of. Looking at him now, Dawn understood completely.

The girl was the first to stir. She was usually a deep sleeper, if Dawn remembered correctly. It was odd for her to rouse first. Then, Dawn supposed, the boy had not slept for several millennia. He would be more exhausted than the girl could even have dreamt, let alone experienced.

“Alec?” Gia whispered, expecting him to be conscious.

The vampire- Alec, stirred, but did not move much. Gia rolled her eyes, thinking him to be playing. She tried to move, but found herself encased in his arms. She was oddly cold yet warm. The sun shone down on her hotly as Dawn made room for Morning. Yet, Alec’s embrace- while warmer to him- was still very cold to her. “Alec,” she said a little bit louder. She would have nudged him, but he kept her arms pinned to his side.

“Mwushizzit?” he groaned.

“Wake-up sleepy head,” Gia grinned, teasing him.

“I don’t sleep,” Alec muttered. He groaned, and, sitting up, released his hold on her. Gia sat up as well, looking curiously at him. His eyes were bloodshot and a bright blue.

“Alec?” she questioned.

He turned to her with a groggy expression, sleep in his eyes. “Yes?”

“I think you were asleep,” Gia said. Being one of those lucky people who were instantly alert after rising, she saw everything. Alec looked exactly like an insomniac who awoke after a particularly needed sleep.

Alec’s eyes snapped open, her words bringing the world into sharp focus. He looked at her like she had suddenly grown three extra heads. No. It was impossible. He hadn’t slept for the past six hundred years. There was no need for him to. His body just did not require it the way a human’s body did. Yet he did not remember anything from the night. He sometimes closed his eyes as Gia slept and fantasized about being human. But… last night was different. Completely different. Last night, he had experienced something that he never thought possible. Oblivion. His mind had shut down as did his body.

He felt alive and recharged, alert and ready for anything. It hit him like a ton of bricks. He had actually slept last night.

“Oh damn…” Alec breathed out.

Gia blinked several times before- “Eeyyyyyahhhh!” she screamed as Alec swept her up into his arms. Her heart raced and her entire body rose several degrees in temperature from the scare. “Alec!” she loudly protested.

The boy did not care. He spun them around in circles, laughing loudly. He felt so alive! So human! Was this always how it felt to be Gia? Why didn’t she say that it was so incredibly amazing? Gia gave up trying to get out of his iron grip. Holding gently onto his neck, she laughed as they spun in endless circles, marveling in the fact. Sometime later, after she was quite dizzy, he sat her down, heavily breathing and grinning madly.

“That was amazing!” he exclaimed.

Gia grinned. “I’m glad you liked it. We can try it again tonight,”

Alec’s eyes lit up like those of a child on Christmas morning. “Really?”

Gia nodded. “Of course. This time could have been a fluke so we should test this several times.”

“That’s what Master Caius would do,” Alec agreed. He then winced. “It would probably be best to not inform the others of this development until we are sure of its continuous occurrence. They might think we are fibbing otherwise,”

That sounded reasonable to Gia, and besides, it was Alec’s discovery thingy, not hers. She was just the catalyst. “Okey dokey,” she grinned. Her grin fell when her stomach growled loudly, demanding food.

Alec laughed. “The human’s hungry. You always are,” he commented.

Gia glared. “I can’t help it.”

“Why not?” Alec asked.

She shrugged. “Like I told you in the car, it is a natural thing for a normal person to do. I am a normal person, so I logically need to eat. Like you need to drain people, I need to eat animals. It’s a meat-slash-carnivorous thing.”

“Oh,” Alec scrunched up his face. That made sense. The thought of eating sounded disgusting. He would never ever take a bite of human food. The smell alone was enough to make him ill, the taste had to be that much worse. “Let’s get you changed so we can go into town and get you breakfast.”

“We could just go in our swimsuits. People do that all the time,” Gia had to jog to keep up with him.

All it took was one look for Alec to decided that there was no way in all the earth that he was letting Gia go into town looking like that. It was unfair for any person to look so beautiful. He did not feel like having to show a gaggle of adolescent pathetic human boys that Gia was off limits. She was his, his alone.

Donning a pair of fashionably ragged jeans and a printed tee-shirt, she sat on the stone bench, licking her breakfast of ice cream. Alec had not put up anything that resembled a fight when she instructed him to buy her some. Apparently, he did not know that ice cream was bad for you in general, and that having it for breakfast was down right ludicrous. Gia groaned as her ice cream dripped onto her hand.

“Are you all right?”

Whipping her head up, Gia felt head-splitting pain as her head smashed into Alec’s chin. Very hard. “Owww!” she screamed. “Shit! OWW! Oww! Oww! Owwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww!” She grabbed her head with both of her tiny hands, her entire face curling into a mask of intense pain. “What the fu-” She caught herself just in time, Alec noticed since her face turned as red as her hair. Ignoring the throbbing pain in her head, she lowered her arms and looked innocently up at Alec. “Are you all right?”

“Diamonds, remember?” Alec teased with a slight grin. “It’s you that I am worried about.”

“I’ll be fine,” Gia winced out. Alec wasn’t so sure. Her head had connected with his chin pretty hard. And, Heidi always called him hard headed… perhaps he should take her to a physician. He could not bring the Masters’ pet home with new brain damage. He seemed to hurt her quite a bit, actually, he mused. Was it just him, or did all humans fall prey to accidents often? He might have to consult that Cullen on the matter.

“You dropped your ice cream,” Alec frowned at the ground where her mint-chocolate chip ice cream and cone now lay. The day was so warm that the icy goodness had already begun to melt on the gray concrete. “I’ll go get you some more,”

“That’s not necessary!” Gia protested to no avail. Alec had already trotted off to the shop on the corner. Truly, Gia was thankful that he was gone, for his absence gave her a moment to rub her head, a futile attempt to soothe the burning pain. She always forgot just how hard Alec’s body actually was until she hurt herself on him in some way. This wouldn’t’ve happened if he were a normal boy! she thought loudly. Of course, if he were just a normal boy, she would not be sitting on the French coast right now, waiting for him to bring her her new, especially delicious ice cream.

Trotting back a few minutes later, Alec cursed the vendor for taking so damn long. Who knew what kind of trouble Gia could get into while he was concentrating on not revealing his secret. It was very cloudy and humid, but he was still wary every time he was more than a few feet from Gia’s side. Handing over her ice cream, he sat down next to her with a grin on his face. His brows furrowed in an adorable way, Gia noticed, as he watched her raise the cone up to her lips.

“Would you like some?” Gia offered, giving him a knowing look. After all, who in their right mind would refuse mint-chocolate chip ice cream, the best flavor in the world?

Alec looked at her like she was an idiot. She knew that he couldn’t eat any thing. Well… not without having to return it later. Thus far, she had not asked him to prove that statement, for which he was thankful. He supposed that the frozen dairy delight would be rather difficult to return, but since she had offered and he was indubitably curious.

“You lick it, right?” he confirmed.

She nodded. “Yeah. Don’t try to bite it or else it will make your teeth freeze. That is a really uncomfortable feeling,”

Alec grinned at the warning. “It would probably be warm for me,”

Gia did not think his teasing was as amusing as he did. She gave him a slight whack up against the head, being careful to not hit him too hard, lest she hurt herself in the process. They both knew that Alec was near indestructible. It was rather irking. “Don’t you even dare,” she warned, eyes icing over.

Not intimated- or not willing to admit how much he was- Alec thought it better to simply obey. He knew that the coolness of the ice cream would seem warm to him but did not want to cause her any unneeded distress. Not when the fight that would ensue would be about something completely ridiculous.

Watching him eat his first bite ever of ice cream, Gia got the strangest feeling in her stomach, especially when he twirled the ice cream on the top with a flick of his tongue. She did not understand why watching him eat her ice cream made her feel warm and tight- she had shared ice cream with plenty of boys before, namely Adrian, but never had it made her feel like this. This was a feeling that she had read about, but never experienced. Even her chest was affected and she normally forgot they even existed after she was dressed for the day.

Alec’s eyes lit up. Surprisingly, the ice cream was cold to the touch! And, it tasted good! The light cream on his pallet created paroxysms of new sensations throughout his body! Who knew that ice cream could taste so good?

“It tasted good!” he declared.

Gia grinned, the tables turned, him now being the idiot in the conversation. “Well, no duh. Ice cream in always good.”

“But, normally, all food smells horrendous to me, let alone the taste… But this… this was amazing! I never imagined that something could taste so incredible!” he exclaimed.

Gia grinned. “Then go buy yourself some. I promise to not move,”

Alec bobbed his head like a little child before darting off. He was the only one in the line this time, and the people were much more expedient with his order. He was back beside Gia in no time. She watched him with a grin at his child-like behavior.

“What flavor did you get?” she asked him.

“Something called Heavenly Hash,” he answered, looking at his ice cream cone warily yet greedily. “Do you like this flavor?”

She shrugged. “I have never tried that flavor before,”

“Really?” Alec quirked an eyebrow. He figured that all humans would have sampled as many flavors of this heavenly creation as they possibly could. That was why he selected Heavenly Hash- heavenly was in the name.

Gia nodded. “I tend to stick to mint-chocolate chip. It’s my favorite,” she felt the need to explain to him. Alec could be so innocent some times, it was hysterical but the most adorable thing she had ever seen.

“Would you like a bite?” he held out his cone for her, “It’s fair, after all. You gave me the first bite of yours,”

“That was because you never had ice cream before,” she protested.

Alec shrugged. “It’s not really different. You have never had Heavenly Hash before. Go ahead,”

Gia smiled at him gratefully. Oops. Alec realized then how a bad of an idea this was right then. He was an idiot for insisting this. Even knowing that, he could not take his eyes off of her as she bent at the wast and very, very slowly slid her tongue up the ice cream for a long, delicate lick. Alec figured that he was probably going to burn for all of the fantasies he would have from this, most of which probably wouldn’t be his fault. It was so worth it.

“It’s very good. I think you’ll like it.” Swiping her tongue over the top of her lip, she made sure to get every faint trace of of ice cream off. Gia stopped, wondering why he suddenly looked hungry. She glanced at his eyes. They were a very dark color- but they always were around her. He told her that he had been born with blue eyes, light blue ones, not dark like hers. Her strange ability turned his eyes to a mix of pale blue and, coming up with a dark purply color with icy blue highlights. They were beautiful eyes, she decided. “Aren’t you going to have any? It’s going to melt otherwise,”

Finally able to turn his gaze back to the cone in his hand, Alec saw that it was indeed melting. He glanced at Gia, who seemed preoccupied with her own tasty treat. He quickly lickd up the melting cream on his hand where the Heavenly Hash had dripped. Gia was the first to finish hers, Alec seemed to savor each lick to the point of being ridiculous. It was okay, though. Everyone deserved to enjoy their first ice cream. Feeling her eyes on him, Alec met her gaze. Something in her beautiful eyes made him forget all about the melting ice cream in his hand.

“I wonder what else you can eat,” Gia mischievously pondered.

Alec froze. She had this look in her eyes, and he knew that they were going to find out just what exactly he could stomach.

They had walked around for hours, not really doing anything. They talked about stupid stuff, like their pasts and their favorite things. He found out several things about Gia, things that he never really wanted to know, and things that he really did not care about- like the fact that she preferred cumulous clouds to stratus ones.

Gia’s stomach rumbled again. “I’m hungry,” she informed him.

Alec nodded. “All right, where would you like to eat?” They had visited each and every restaurant in Ambrosia. Gia had picked out several favorites.

“How about the Auberge?” she asked.

The Auberge was the finest restaurant in the city. People went nuts over the food, and Gia concurred vehemently. eing favored guests who always seemed to spend an outrageous amount every time they visited- which was frequently- they were quickly seated and served.

“What would you like to eat?” Alec asked Gia as she looked around.

“Everything on the menu,” she replied absentmindedly.

“What?” Alec shrieked. He must have misunderstood her, though he knew he hadn’t.

“Yep. I’m curious.”

“Curious about what?” he sighed.

“On what you can and can’t eat,” she replied, serious for once.

Alec fought the urge to gag. “I hate food. It smells beyond disgusting.”

“You liked the ice cream this morning,” she pointed out.

“That was a one time thing.” He folded his arms across his chest so he could sulk.

Gia grinned. “Just like the sleep,”

“Shut up,” Alec muttered.

Gia laughed. “You are acting so childish today!”

“Am not,” Alec muttered.

Gia rolled her eyes. “What ever, loser.”

Just then, Philip, their waiter, arrived with their drinks. He took their large, large order. Gia settled back and waited, twiddling her thumbs idly.

“Stop that,” Alec snapped. “It’s bothersome,”

“Only if you eat something,”

“I was going to no matter what. I am paying an arm for it, you know,” he darkly muttered.

Gia grinned. “I believe you have told me about the vast fortunes of the Volturi one too many times for that to have any effect on me now.” Alec couldn’t help but grin at that.

“What do you mean, you ate?” Adrianna hissed. She pulled Alec off to the corner of the room, unbeknownst to the rest of the vampires in the room. Gabriel, Gia and Alphonse were too absorbed in the movie to pay any attention. Despite his warnings to Gia, Alec had felt the need to inform Adrianna of everything that he had experienced today. It might somehow be important. “And you slept?”

Alec shrugged. “I did! I don’t know how it happened, but I did! You would be surprised how good veal cordon bleu tastes.”

“Alec,” Adrianna whispered, slightly frantic, “You do know what this means, right?”

“Uh… obviously not, or else I would not have sought out your guidance,” Alec snapped.

“You broke the rules, Alec.”

“What rules?” he asked, confused. What rules were there that he was unaware of? Adrianna was considerably younger than he, and if she somehow knew of them, that meant that Alec had seriously become complacent in his life as a guard.

“We are immortal creatures Alec, and are bound to a code higher than that of the Volturi. We pay a small price for our immortality- the comforts of human life. So small in comparison to everything gained, it still a price that must be paid. We are banned from eating, from sleeping, from walking amongst our prey for we are a higher breed and should not mingle with those who are weak. In return for our human qualities, we become beautiful and strong, perfect creatures, enhanced in every way, constantly alert and only able to feed on the purest nectar available to us.

“You can’t have it both ways. You are either a human- a weak, pathetic creature undeserving to walk this earth, or a vampire- a majestic, powerful being. You are trying to be both- a human for her, and a vampire for us. You can’t do that. You have to chose one. Otherwise, you won’t have to deal with the Masters. The Creator will get you Himself,”

Alec glowered. “I think God has better things to do then monitor if I eat or not. Besides, it was He that created Gia in the first place.”

“Alec, Alec, Alec,” Adrianna sighed, “Just be careful. Everything has rules, and there’s always consequences if you break them.”

“I’m not breaking them.” Alec turned around, angry that she would even suggest a thing. “All of this- every thing in life- it all happens for a reason. The Masters finding Gia was all a part of something much bigger than us. I have to assume that, for what ever reason why, Gia is meant to be a part of the Guard just as you and I. And if she was meant to join us, I only logically can conclude that my body reacting to her strange ability is part of something greater,”

Adrianna shook her head. “This is so unlike you, Alec. Here you are talking about beliefs and fate, when all I have ever heard you talk of is facts and things set in stone. Belief, fate, hope… that isn’t you,”

Alec shrugged. “Einstein called some assumptions intuitive leaps. I don’t believe, or hope, necessarily. I made logical intuitive leaps for I recognize Einstein as a scientific authority.”

Adrianna shook her head wearily. “I don’t know, Alec, I just don’t know. All I know is, I hope God distinguish your intuitive leaps from blasphemy.”

Alec walked away, secretly hoping that she was right.