I Need You to Love Me
A penny for your thoughts… A picture so it lasts… Let's knock down the walls of immortality Your fingers on my skin… only you can hear my fear… only you can help me heal… i see forever with you here. It's never enough, no matter how many times I try to tell you this is love. If tomorrow never comes, I want you to know right now that I'm gonna love you until the day. I'm gonna love you like it's the last night on Earth. And though I'm undeserving, I need you to love me.
All of this belongs to the great stephenie meyer. I am just playing with her fun toys.
3. Chapter 3
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Alec stared out at nothing. He had already counted the stones in the wall. Twice. And he had counted the cracks in the mortar. Three times. He had not excepted his task to be so tedious. It was long into the night and he was positively bored. Bored out of his mind. He had not realized just what dull creatures humans were. He had no idea how Cullen would want one as his mate.
Gia was a deep sleeper. He had not heard her toss or turn yet. She occasionally groaned. Other than that, it was silent. Far off, he heard the signs of life of his coven. Unlike Aro, he could not consider all of them family. Some he hated too much- others hated him. He did get along well enough with a few. Even fewer he truly cared about. If that was his family, it was an incredibly small one. Alec remembered what it was like to sleep. It was in his sleep that he had been saved from the pain and the fear. In his sleep, he had dreamed. He dreamt of wondrous places and people who would not hurt him. After being changed, he had no need for those fantasies. He was living them.
Dutifully, he did not move from his spot all night. He was there when a disheveled Gia opened her door. It was around ten in the morning. She was a lazy person. She looked at Alec and scowled.
“Good morning,” he said dully.
“Morning,” she yawned. “I don’t suppose you have any food around here?”
“Uhh…” Alec stopped. He had not even considered her need to feed. It was a foolish thing to forget. Food was much more vital to a human for survival than it was for a vampire. “I am not sure,”
“And…” Gia blushed. A drop of venom entered his mouth. He swallowed it, despite the burn and ignored it. He had a great amount of control over his instincts. Others, he could say, did not have that.
“What else do you need?” Alec asked, “You can have whatever you want.”
“I hate to be a burden,” she muttered.
Alec rolled his eyes. Humans. “You are part of the Coven, despite the fact that you are still a human. You are not- nor will you ever be a burden. Now, please tell me what you need.”
“Some more clothes and sundries,” Gia promptly answered. Her face was bright crimson.
Alec nodded his head. “That sounds reasonable.”
Gia grinned. Alec could sense her discomfort. “Thanks,” she said.
He shrugged. “It is not a problem. This way.” He gestured. As they walked, Alec was amazed at how much noise she made. She probably did not even know that to him she was so loud. Perhaps to a human, she was quiet. He would never know.
Alec led her down the same hallway, taking a left to lead to the main room, the throne room. Aro sat in his chair, Thalia in his lap. Neither one paid the two any mind. The vampire scanned the rest of the room. Jane was nowhere to be seen, neither was his master, Marcus. Heidi burst into the room. She looked at Alec and the human, her head quirked to the side. Surely everyone knew by now that he was to watch the child. She walked quickly over to him, her steps becoming noticeably slower the closer she came to Gia.
“And what do we have here?” she asked, a purr on her lips.
Gia flushed and Alec rolled his eyes again. Simple humans. If she was intimidated by such an easy question, Alec knew that she would be an easy mark for the more pesterers of the clan.
“This is Gia. I’m sure you remember,” Alec said dryly. He liked Heidi well enough but she could be shallow at times. Very very very shallow.
“Gia, what a lovely name.” Heidi grinned at Gia’s embarrassment. “It does not happen to be short for Gianna does it?”
Gia shook her head. “No, ma’am,”
“Ma’am?” Heidi laughed loudly. “I don’t think I’m old enough to be a ma’am,”
“Sorry,” Gia whispered.
“You’ll have to speak up to be heard around here, you know,” Heidi lectured. “It can get pretty loud.”
“I’ll remember that,”
Heidi grinned. “Good. What are you all doing?”
“Gia needs some things from town.” Alec responded.
Heidi looked the human up and down. She nodded her head in agreement. “You do look rather disheveled.”
“This is the third day in a row that I’ll be wearing this outfit. No duh,” Gia answered.
Heidi arched an eyebrow. “You do seem to turn rather quickly from submissive to antagonistic,”
Gia shrugged. “That can’t be helped,”
“I suppose not,” Heidi agreed.
Alec could not believe what he was hearing. This girl… this human, who had been quaking in fear by the very appearance of Heidi, had somehow found the courage to stand up to her. But, not fight her. She simply stood up for herself. Very few people took on Heidi. Her temper was legendary. Alec realized that, like Heidi, Gia had red hair. Red hair was a sign of a fierce temper. He groaned internally if there was going to be another Heidi in the coven.
“Have you eaten yet?” Thankfully, the vixen decided to be forgiving to the naive human.
Gia shook her head. “No,”
“Well, then how about Alec goes and buys you some food while I take you shopping? You will want a woman’s opinion on things like that.”
“Uhh…” Gia looked at Alec for guidance. She had no idea what to do. If she remembered correctly, Alec was her baby-sitter. As such, she should probably stay near him. But, if she went with Heidi, she had a better chance of escaping. Whatever she did seemed to work more on the female vampire than the little one.
“If you are going out- or going anywhere for that matter,” Aro interrupted, “Alec must stay with Gia at all times,”
Gia rolled her eyes. “Is that really necessary?” she asked without turning around.
Master Aro did not even look at the human, giving her the same treatment. “Yes, my dear, it is. I know very well how tenacious you are. If you are not watched by someone diligent at all times, I have no doubt that you will try to escape. Alec’s presence will hopefully discourage such futile attempts.”
Gia huffed loudly. Alec smirked at her childish behavior. “Let’s go,” he said, hopefully preventing an outburst of crying. To his surprise, Gia nodded her head. Her navy eyes were clear.
To his even greater surprise, she threw her body forward. Standing on her hands, she began to walk towards the elevator, humming to herself. Alec stood there gaping, not sure what else to do. He had never seen someone do that before. Heidi stopped beside him. She ruffled his brown hair. He jerked away glaring. The beautiful woman smirked.
“The human is an oddball, dear Alec. She will do several things today that surprise you,” Heidi informed him.
“Do all humans walk on their hands?” he could not help but ask.
Heidi shook her head no. “Only this one,”
“Great.” Alec let out a breath of frustration, “Let’s get this over with,”
Heidi giggled. “Don’t worry. This’ll be fun,”
Alec did not believe her. Their short ride in the elevator was silent. The human looked around with wide-eyes. Had she never seen an elevator before? Alec scoffed at her naivety. Instead of getting off in the lobby, they continued downward to the garage beneath the actual castle. Even the Volturi were modern. They too had use for cars.
Heidi preferred to drive the bright red Camaro. The human was far to presumptuous. She took the passenger’s seat. Alec glared. She did not seem to notice. He cleared his throat. Gia turned.
“Shot gun,” she said as she buckled her seat belt.
Heidi laughed from the driver’s side. “You heard her kid. Get in the back,”
Incredibly irked, Alec climbed smoothly into the back seat. Like Heidi, he did not buckle. There was no need for either one of them to. There was not a reason for the human to, but she was unaware of that. Then, Alec felt petty enough to let her be harassed by the cumbersome strap. As far as he was concerned, it did no good for anyone.
“Do you mind?” Gia asked Heidi, pointing the radio. Her grubby little fingers hovered just above the dial.
Infernal Heidi shrugged. “Go ahead,”
“What do you like to listen to?” Gia asked.
Again, Heidi shrugged. “I love the stuff from the eighties. But, like I said, let whatever you like play,”
The girl nodded. She turned the radio to a station that Alec had never heard of. Her fingers tapped the car door to the beat. Every once in a while, she might mouth some of the words.
“How old are you, Heidi?” she suddenly asked.
“Fifty-nine,” Heidi answered. “But I was changed when I was twenty-two.”
“I see.” Gia nodded her head. “Did it hurt?”
Alec watched the conflicting emotions cross his friend’s face. She did not want to terrify the human. But, unfortunately for her, Heidi did not like to lie. Unless it was to prey. That was different. To one that she would have to live forever with, she didn’t like to deceive.
Alec came to her rescue. “It depends on how much you suffered in your life,”
That was the truth. During his transformation, he had experienced pain unimaginable, pain that he thought never could have happened. But, he was able to bear it in minimal noise. He had been in pain all of his human life. He was used to pain.
Then, he remembered Heidi’s transformation. Heidi’s screams were so horrible: the worst he had ever heard. They were still etched in his memory. She had lain in her bed for three and a half days- a long time for the change- writhing and turning. Eventually, she had to be restrained so that she did not hurt herself. Heidi had been changed as a lover for Marcus. He never took to her and her god-like beauty. He was still that much in love with his former mate: Llewlynn. Alec had never met her. She had been dead from the world for almost a thousand years. He himself was just a little over six hundred years old.
“How old are you, Alec?” Gia asked.
“I was changed when I was fourteen,” he solemnly answered. “And I was saved six-hundred and thirty-seven years ago.”
“Saved?” she asked, puzzled.
This time, Heidi saved Alec. “Alec and Jane had particularly harsh human lives. Aro interfered when they were going to be burned alive. They have been with the Volturi ever since,”
“So,” Gia turned in her seat to face Alec, “It didn’t hurt you because you were abused as a child-slash-human. But it hurt her- well, hurt her more at least, because she lived a normal life before she was changed?”
Alec nodded. Very preceptive. Very quick. And very realistic. The human grasped the fact of pain quickly.
“So, it will most likely hurt for me?” She sounded timid.
“Most likely,” Alec agreed.
“Great,” she sounded so sarcastic. Alec couldn’t help but give her a weak smile.
“Don’t worry,” he tried to be comforting. “It doesn’t take long,”
The human shrugged. “Whatever,”
Alec arched an eyebrow. She was putting on a brave face. But, he could hear her heart beat faintly- much faster than it had originally. “How old are you?” he asked, switching the topic of conversation slightly.
“Fifteen,” she answered, wrinkling her nose. “I just got my learner’s permit,”
“Learner’s permit?” he repeated.
“That’s what they call it on the base,” she stated factually.
“As in a military base?” Alec clarified, just to be sure.
Gia nodded. “Yeah.”
“You speak flawlessly,” he commented.
She shrugged again. “I’ve lived here for the last nine years. I should,”
“Where are you from originally?”
“Memphis,” she replied.
“Where is that,”
Gia gave him a dubious look. Her beautiful eyes sparkled. “You’ve got to be kidding me?” Her pink lips turned into a sarcastic smirk. Mirth glistened across her face. She thought he was stupid Alec realized with a flash of anger.
“No, I’m not,” he curtly responded.
“You know: All the Way From Memphis? Home of Elvis Presley as well as his grave? Where Martin Luther King, Jr. was assassinated? Birthplace of the blues?” She rolled her eyes at his look on his face. “Memphis, Tennessee. America.” She clarified.
Oh. He felt like an idiot. But, he did not bother himself with trivial human things like instant celebrities and what not. Gia seemed to have guess that. She gave him a slightly caustic grin.
“Whatever.” He slumped back in the seat. His arms were folded across his chest. The gray Armani suit he wore groaned in protest at the swift movement. Alec did not care. Clothing could always be replaced.
Gia cocked her head to the side. “Why do you wear that?”
Alec glared at her. She was not content to let him wallow in silence. Silence that he liked so much. “Wear what?” he snarled.
“Your suits. They make you look more than just a little pretentious.”
“I like them,” he snapped.
“Why? They look so… uncomfortable,” she grimaced at the thought.
“They’re not,” he defended, venom in his words.
Gia backed up. “I just said they looked like it,” she said in a penitent tone, “Sheesh,”
Heidi looked back at Alec. He shrunk away from the calculating gaze the younger vampire fixed him with. She seemed to be thinking and Alec knew he would not like her conclusion. Gia gripped the seat in fear. Her mouth was agape in terror as she looked at Heide, who paid no heed to the road. The human’s breathing was short and irregular; her heart beat even faster than before.
“Heidi, watch where you are going,” Alec chastised. Heidi gave him a look. He jerked his head over to the terrified human. Heidi’s eyes widened in understanding. She returned to her correct driving position.
“You know, Alec. Gia is right. You do dress like a stuffed-shirt,” she said.
“Just drive, Heidi,” he snapped.
“No.” She pulled over to the side of the highway. Alec then noticed that they had gone out of Volterra. He wondered just exactly where Heidi was planning on taking the human to shop. The vampire turned to look the other in the eyes. “While we are here, we might as well get you some normal clothes,”
Alec looked down. “What I wear is normal,”
“Yeah, for a fifty year old billionaire.” Heidi rolled her contact-colored eyes. “You need some clothes for the modern day teenager.”
“I am not, nor will I ever be, a modern day teenager,” Alec pointed out the obvious.
“Well, I know that,” Heidi snapped decisively. “But you could at least try to blend in, you know.”
“I rarely leave the castle,” Alec pointed out, thinking he gained the upper hand by doing so.
“If you looked more normal, perhaps you could leave it more often. Go see a film and what not,” Heidi ventured.
Alec scowled. He returned to his sulking, his thoughts aflame. Should he leave the sanctuary he had adored for so long? He had no particular reason to- nor did he have a reason to stay secluded in the vast underground passages and the thick-walled rooms that he frequently visited. He supposed that he did not leave because he did not want to draw attention to himself. Heidi vanished as soon as the sun was gone from sight and often returned barely in time to avoid its rays. She had always loved the rain because of it. Even Jane would leave the castle from time to time.
Yes. Perhaps Heidi and the human were correct. Perhaps he should leave the confines of the Volturi every so often.
Just to see what they kept going on about.
Only to shut them up, he promised to himself. Out loud, he found himself saying that they could be right. Then, he realized that that statement meant that he would have to actively participate in their shopping. He shuddered in fear.
- Chapter 1
- Chapter 2
- Chapter 3
- Chapter 4
- Chapter 5
- Chapter 6
- Chapter 7
- Chapter 8
- Chapter 9
- Chapter 10
- Chapter 11 - A Penny for Your Thoughts
- Chapter 12 - A Picture so it Lasts?
- Chapter 13 - Let's Knock Down the Walls of Immortality
- Chapter 14- Your Fingers on My Skin
- Chapter 15 - Only You Can Heal My Fear
- Chapter 16 - I See Forever With You Near
- Chapter 17 - It's Never Enough
- Chapter 18- No Matter How Many Times I Try to Tell You This is Love
- Epilogue - 50 Reasons They Mean Everything to Each Other
- Chapter 20
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