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I will haunt you

Summary:
I didn’t mean to kill myself. I honestly didn’t. Was my jump intentional? I don’t know. Was my jump recreational? I don’t know. I remember that I hardly thought at all. Bella's jump off that cliff was a bit more fatal than she had thought it would be. Now she is a ghost, and no one can see her. Will Bella save Edward from the Volturi? More importantly can she? And what will happen to her afterwards? Chapter 12, last chapter is up!Alternate ending is up!


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12. Chapter 12: I will haunt you

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Edward sat with his head cradled in his hands. He sat on his black leather couch in his room. He appeared to be in deep thought, or in deep sadness. His hair was messy, as it always was. But still beautiful. Always beautiful. He still resembled an angel, celestial, heavenly, nearly unattainable. A sad angel.

Alice slowly walked into the room. “I can’t believe you feel bad about this. You need to let go of your guilt.” She said sadly while shaking her head.

“She didn’t want me to bite her, what was I thinking? Who knows, she might have stayed a ghost.” He said with self-loathing, not even bothering to look up.

“But, Edward—“

“No, I shouldn’t have. Alice, is she…?”

Alice shook her head in bewilderment. “Edward, you idiot, she’s—“

He cried out. “She’s mad?” He wailed.

“Edward-“Alice began soothingly.

I decided to walk into the room. I walked in quietly, trying not to attract attention.

“I’m not mad, Edward.” I said softly.

Both Alice’s and Edward’s head snapped up. Alice smiled.

“Bella.” He breathed and walked up towards me as if to take me in his arms. He suddenly stopped and his arms fell down to his sides, he looked at me as if he were still afraid that I was mad at him. Silly Edward.

I closed the distance between us and hugged him really tight. I felt his arms snake around my waist and hug me back. I pressed my face against his shoulder.

“Edward, how can I be mad at you? You gave me a chance to live.” I said softly in his ear.

“You could have moved on…I—I was going to let you. But when I saw you, disappearing, I…couldn’t. I just couldn’t. I thought I was strong enough, but I’m not.” He said with self-loathing.

“Why? You know I’ve always wanted this. You know that if you didn’t…then you might never see me again.”

There was a long, dreadful pause. I pulled away, and stood back a few steps. “Do you not love me anymore?” I asked, near tears.

He immediately looked alarmed, and jumped forward and grabbed me. “NO! No. Bella, Bella listen to me. I love you.”

Only a little bit of my fear dissolved. “I know, but…”

He grabbed me roughly and kissed me. I had never experienced a kiss like this from him before. It was wild, crazy, careless. There were no boundaries.

Suddenly a loud hoot came from behind us. We sprang apart, and I saw the whole family behind us. Emmett’s grinning face alerted me to the fact that it was him who hooted at us.

“FINALLY!” He yelled, pronouncing every syllable with exasperation. The whole family smiled and wrapped an arm around their husband or wife. Edward smiled back and did the same. I, however, was a bit embarrassed by the whole situation. I wanted to dig a hole and hide in it. I wanted to disappear.

Suddenly Edward’s arm flopped to his side and everyone gasped. I looked around, searching for the source of their surprise. I found no reason. “Bella?!” Edward said in alarm.

“Yes?” “Bella! Where are you?” He cried again, and everyone in the room began swinging their arms around searching for me. As if I was still a ghost.

Then it clicked. I must have disappeared. How odd. I remembered the things I was feeling when I disappeared. Embarrassment, the want to disappear. So…if I wanted to APPEAR, would that work? I concentrated on wanting to appear. I want to appear. I want to appear. I want to appear. Nothing.

Meanwhile, the family was still searching around frantically. “Bella! Bella! Where’d she go?” Emmett said.

“She’s gone!” Edward wailed.

“No, she’s not. I can feel her emotions!” Jasper said breathlessly.

I couldn’t handle seeing him so sad. See me, please see me.

A rushing feeling overcame me, one I was familiar with.

“Bella!” Edward cried as he ran over and gathered me into his arms.

“That was weird.” Emmett said.

“Well I think we found your talent, Bella.” Carlisle smiled.

How fitting that my power should be to disappear. I felt a laugh bubble up in my throat, but Edward seemed to be still freaked out.

“Can you control it?” He asked frantically. “It was hard,” I said. “But I think with practice I can perfect it.” He just shook his head.

“Cool power!” said Emmett.

It was confusing though, and I could see it on everyone’s faces. How did this all happen? How can a flimsy ghost become a solid vampire? How can that vampire disappear? You can’t make something out of nothing. As if voicing my thoughts, Jasper asked: “How can this all even happen?”

This truly stumped everyone, even Carlisle. No one said anything. The silence was overwhelmingly vast, full of thought and confusion. No one knew how to answer. Truly, I didn’t either. And then it hit me.

“I… I think some things can’t be explained. Some things are just meant to be, and you aren’t allowed to question it.” I said, my voice quiet.

Of course everyone heard me, thanks to super vampire hearing. They just nodded, accepting it without a word.

For there were truly no explanations to what had happened to me. It defied laws of matter, physics, and things that no one has ever heard of.

But who’s every heard of ghosts? Or vampires for that matter? It was all a little Alice in Wonderland-y, but who cares?

“Well, are we ready?” Carlisle said, breaking me out of our reverie.

The Cullens and I were leaving Forks. Now that I was visible, it was too conspicuous if we stayed here. I felt bad about leaving my father and Jacob…but this was how it would have been if I hadn’t become a vampire. I would have had to leave them either way. “Let’s go.” I said, and Edward wrapped his arm around my waist.

~

We were walking to the cars, ready to embark on a new chapter in our lives. One of which I hoped I was included in. I had my reservations, my fears… but things finally felt right. It felt right to be a vampire.

Suddenly a bit of color flashed at the corner of my eyes. I turned and nearly screamed. There, standing next to Rosalie’s convertible, was a hideously mutilated woman.

Her long, matted red hair was shaggy in some parts, and bald in others. Half of her face was completely bruised, a vivid purple. On her temple was a jagged cut, ridiculously making her look like Harry Potter. She wore hardly any clothes, which suggested to me the brutality of her death, and I looked away when I saw that her lower limbs were brutally mutilated.

She stared at me balefully, and I felt afraid. My steps faltered and finally stopped. Edward stopped too.

“Bella, what’s wrong?” He asked concernedly.

I said nothing, only stared back at the woman as she stared at me. Then she let out a horrible, painful wail. My heart nearly broke at it. She screeched again and then stared hatefully at me.

Edward noticed the direction I was looking at, and strained to see what I was seeing. By now, the whole family had stopped and was looking at us.

“Bella, what is it?” Edward asked quietly.

I didn’t turn to him. “You can’t see her?” I said quietly.

“Who?” He said and looked around. And then it hit me. She must be dead.

She was a ghost.

I whipped around and threw myself into Edward’s arms, sobbing tearlessly. He held me tight and fearfully.

“Bella, what is it?”

“She’s—she’s a ghost!” He held me tighter.

It was then that I realized that becoming a vampire was both a blessing and a curse. I would have my eternity with Edward, but that eternity would be haunted by ghosts.

This is what I wanted, right? Eternity? Well I had gotten it.

“Bella, come on.” Edward said gently while guiding me to the car.

I looked back at the woman once more and shuddered. She stared at me so hatefully, as if I were the one that killed her.

I stepped into the car next to Edward. He rubbed my back in soothing circles for half an hour. I could feel the guilt radiating off of him, but I didn’t blame him in the least.

Eventually, I calmed down and sat back with a sigh. I realized that my past would always haunt me. But it was a burden I’d be willing to bear if it meant an eternity with Edward.

"Are you okay?" Edward said gently, waking me from my reverie.

"Yeah." I said, because I was.

He smiled.

"Oh, and Edward?"

"Yeah?"

"I love you too."