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My Salvation

Summary:
This is about Jennifer, Quil and Claire's only daughter. She and her family move back to La Push after being away for years. What happens when Jenny meets Jacob? Read and Find out. Chapter Six is up. Chapter Seven in validation! I am terrible at summaries!!!**disclaimer**I own nothing but the characters that come out of my own mind Go check out the sequel. 'Mi Vida' when you finish reading this one.


Notes:
sorry for how short this is. the first chapter is mainly just to get it started and the rest will be longer with main points of view. sorry


2. Scars

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Chapter Two-Scars

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And my scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

I'm Drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
I'm pissed 'cause you came around
Why don't you just go home
Cause you channeled all your pain
And I can't help you fix yourself
Your making me insane
All I can say is

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
And my weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

I tried to help you once
Against my own advice
I saw you going down
But you never realized
That your drowning in the water
So I offered you my hand
Compassion's in my nature
Tonight is our last stand

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
And my weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

I'm drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
You should've never come around
Why don't you just go home?
Cause your drowning in the water
And I tried to grab your hand
I left my heart open
But you didn't understand
[But you didn't understand]
Go
Fix
Yourself

I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life
I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
And my weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
And my weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

Jennifer’s POV

“Yeah.” He said sitting down next to me without a word of explanation. “Now how ‘bout we even some things up?”

“Ok.” I said warily, thoroughly confused.

“For every question I ask you, you get to ask one in return.” He leaned back against a tree behind us. “I believe its ladies first.”

I grimaced. I knew that if I asked a question I would be forced to answer his, but I was curious. “Why are you still phasing?” That’s what always confused me. Why would he bother phasing if he wanted to die?

“I was waiting for you.” He said simply. I felt my face get hot and I was glad my dark complexion hid the blush. “Now who is Josh?” He asked staring straight at me.

“An ex-boyfriend.” I answered truthfully enough though I knew that’s not what he meant.

“That’s not what I me—” He started, but I cut him off.

“You asked who he was and I told you.” I paused to think of how to word my question. “Who caused the pain that I can see flicker across your face every now and then?”

“Bella Swan, well I suppose its Bella Cullen now.” He said quietly looking down. Without thinking I put my hand on top of his.

“Your turn.” I said grudgingly.

“What did Josh do to you to make you hate men?”

I snarled my answer. “Every deceitful thing you can think of. He lied, he cheated, and he used me. I hate him. I hope he ends up in hell.” I used my anger to keep from crying again. Jacob wrapped his arms around me and pulled me into his lap, forcing me to lean back against his chest.

“You know I would never hurt you.” He said into my hair.

“I just can’t believe that.” I said sadly. “What did Bella do to you?”

“I guess I should tell you the whole story.” He said pausing for a moment. “Bella moved to Forks to live with her father Charlie. She met Edward Cullen, a vampire, and fell in love with him. He left her ‘for her own good’, or so he claims. She spent most of her time with me while he was gone. I put her back together again after he left her broken. I managed to fall in love with her and it was the stupidest thing I’ve ever done.

“Then she went cliff diving by herself and Cullen’s little physic friend only saw her jump and didn’t see me rescue her. So of course the physic thought she had died. Her sister or whatever told Cullen that Bella was dead and he went of to Italy to get himself killed. Bella went to save him and then went right back into his arms even though he left.

“She got engaged to him and they got married. I suppose they went along with their plan and turned her into one of them.” He finished with a sigh.

I thought about everything that he’d said and tried to take it all in. “Now why did you run from me before?” He asked pulling me out of my thoughts.

“Because I knew you imprinted on me, but I couldn’t stand it if my heart got broken again.” I said simply. I didn’t realize how true the words were until I said them. “I was scared.”

“You don’t have to be afraid of me.” He said quietly in my ear. I shivered and changed the subject.

“I only have one more question. Are you going to leave me if Bella comes back?” It was my strongest fear at the moment that I wouldn’t be good enough for him if Bella ever came back.

“No, I could never leave you! You are my soul mate, my other half. You are my life now, my salvation.” He said forcefully. “Bella didn’t mean half to me what you do. When I saw you I forgot about Bella, I almost forgot my own name.” He chuckled and I felt his chest vibrate with the sound. “Now my question for you is, what happened with Josh? And I mean the full story.”

I sighed. “We were living in Maryland at the time. Josh and I both went to Northwood High School. I was the quiet kid in my class so I didn’t have many friends. One day Josh walked up to me and started talking to me. He was always so nice and we started going out. We were really close and almost inseperable. Anabel, one of his friends, took pity on me and told me about the bet. Apparently he had taken up a bet with some of his friends on how long it would take him to get me in bed with him.

“Quil almost ripped them to shreds when he found out. That was the day before we moved and here I am now.” I said quietly. I don’t know when, but at some point his hands had started shaking. I placed my hand on top of his and the shaking stopped instantly. “What is it?”

“I want to rip the bastard into pieces for what he did to you. Hell is to good for him.” He growled.

“I could say the same for Bella and Edward.” I said quietly.

I sat in his arms for a long time. We talked about random subjects. Favorite colors, foods, music, sports. Things like that. Before I knew it the sun was setting. “I should probably be getting home.” I said finally.

“Probably. I wouldn’t want Quil mad at me.” He said as we both stood up. He took my hand and we started back in the direction of my house.

Jacob’s POV

When we reached Jenny’s house I walked with her to the door. She rang the bell and Claire opened the door immediately. “Well come on you two don’t just stand there.” She said pulling us into the kitchen.

“Quil went out to talk to Embry for a while and catch up with all the gossip. I swear those two always gossiped more than us women.” She said as she set a plate of lasagna in front of each of us. Mine was easily twice as big as Jenny’s and I saw Jenny shake her head in disbelief as I finished it easily and had seconds.

“Boys.” She and Claire said at the same time. They both broke into giggles and Jenny leaned over to whisper in my ear.

“You have tomato sauce on your nose.” I was sure that even with my dark skin my face was still bright red as I wiped my nose with a napkin.

After the impromptu dinner I saw Jenny yawn and I figured it was probably time fore me to go. “I’ll walk you to the door.” She said when I announced this.

She did and then kissed me quickly on my lips before shutting the door and leaving me standing in shock on the front porch.