This is a sequel to A CHANGE IN MONSTERS, so I would suggest reading that first. Bella/Sam
Remember, No Emily.
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I paced around my room and watched the sun set. It was beautiful. More beautiful than it had been in awhile.
Once the sun had disappeared under the horizon, I went back to thinking.
Sam had left right after I had finished probing him for answers. He had refused to tell me anything of what he was talking to Carlisle about. That’s what was forcing me to keep moving. It was making me twitchy and jittery that there was something that Sam was keeping from me. Something that he did not want me to know.
I threw my head back in distress. This was too much for me to handle. I stomped down the stairs and headed for the front door. I opened the door, and there was Alice.
“Where do you think you are going?” she asked suspiciously.
“Out,” I answered quickly.
“Does it really matter to you, Alice? It is my business, right?” She nodded, but I could tell that I was not off the hook yet.
“Just tell me where. I am practically your sister, Bella. I deserve to know where you think that you are going.”
“Alice,” I sighed, but then I gave into her glare and answered. “I am thirsty, Alice. I need a drink.”
This seemed to make her angrier. “Isabella! You know damn well that you are not allowed to go hunting by yourself! You also know damn well that you could kill a human if someone is not there with you. Bella! If you keep sneaking off to go feed by yourself you will kill someone. Do you want that?”
I frowned and glanced down at the ground. “Alice—”
“Don’t you Alice me! I hate that you think you can just sneak off. You are still new to this sort of thing, Bella! You can’t control yourself! You know that!”
“I know, Alice. I just wanted to see for once, if I could pull myself away.”
“You were going to risk a human’s life to see if you could pull away in time. To see if you had it in you to not kill them when you were by yourself! Bella, that is just awful!”
“Then why the hell were you going to go and do it?”
I would be blushing if I were a human. But I think that the point is, that I’m not human, and I never will be again. I can’t keep telling myself that I would be crying or blushing if I were a human. I have to get used to the fact that I am not a human. I. Am. A. Monster.
“Alice,” I said slowly. “I need to drink. Now.” I felt like I was getting thirstier and thirstier by the second. I knew that I could not last too much longer. I knew that I needed to find someone to drink from. Soon.
“Fine,” she said. “But, I am coming with you.” I frowned, but nodded slowly.
If they never let me go on my own, I would never be able to learn how to handle myself. I would always rely on them to be there if ever I got out of control. I was not a baby. I could definitely handle myself. Couldn’t I?
I sighed as I dashed past Alice, using my superhuman strength to run. I could feel her a couple of feet behind me. Whenever I went hunting, they always stayed at least twenty feet away… just for precautions.
If I went out of control, there was a possibility that I could bite them. But, that was the risk that they took whenever they came with me. I tried to stop them, just incase I could not do it right, and then went out of control.
My senses took over. I used my nose to sniff out the sweet scent of human blood. I caught the sweet scent quickly, and sprinted over. I did not care if the human were male or female, only if they had the sweetest tasting blood I could find.
I saw the person that I had been sniffing out and crept up behind them. I did a silent and quick 360. I could see the blur of Alice, but there was no one else. A smirk played across my lips as I turned back toward the man.
I did not feel sorry as I bit him on the neck. I was not going to kill him or anything. I was just going to take a pint or two of blood and then he would wake up in the morning and not remember anything.
After a couple of seconds of pure ecstasy, I took my mouth away from the man’s neck. I let him drop the cold, hard cement and heard the soft thump as his body hit the ground.
Yes, he might be a little dizzy when he woke up, but that was the cost to keep me alive. And, yes, I know that I am sounding completely selfish, but that’s what keeps me alive.
I wiped the sleeve of my shirt across my mouth and then quickly turned back toward Alice.
“Ready?” I asked. She nodded, not saying anything. Alice was probably the one that had the hardest time coping with the idea that I had to drink human blood. She did not like that one bit. She thought that I should just try to live off animal blood. Even though, everyone in the house had tried to convince her that I would die.
I knew how Alice was feeling. She was upset, and I would be, too. Carlisle had taught their family that drinking human blood was bad. And then I come along and he encourages me to drink human blood. I understood how that might upset Alice.
When we got to the house, Alice ran up the steps and I heard the door of her and Jasper’s room shut loudly. I sighed and then noticed Jasper and Emmett standing there.
Rosalie was having the same issues that Alice was having, but she was less blunt about them. She at least tried to seem like she was fine with it.
“Is she still having problems with you drinking human blood?” Jasper asked as he and Emmett took a couple steps closer so that they were in front of me.
I nodded and said, “Yeah.”
“Rosalie is, too,” Emmett murmured. “I have been trying to reason with her, but she does not seem to want to listen to me.”
“Alice, too,” Jasper agreed. I nodded again and moved to sit on the couch. Emmett and Jasper came and sat on either side of me.
“I am sorry that I am causing so much distress between you and your wives,” I apologized.
“Bella,” Jasper started, “It’s not you and our wives having a fight, it’s us and our wives having the fight. You don’t need to worry about anything, Bella. We just wanted to talk to you. See what’s up?”
“Thought we just might ask about that, though,” Emmett said. “So, what’s up?”
“Nothing?” I stated it as a question, not sure what they wanted to know. “What happened?” I was suspicious.
“Nothing,” Jasper said quickly. “We just wanted to see how your life was going. We have not talked in awhile, and, to tell you the truth, Emmett and I miss you.”
“Ooooookay,” I dragged out. “What do you want to know?” I said, finally giving in. They were just being their stupid, playful selves.
“What’s up with you and Sam?” Emmett said playfully.
“None of your business,” I muttered.
“Is he really that bad? I thought, being a werewolf and all, that he would be able to give you a lot of pleasure,” he said. I slapped him playfully on his shoulder.
“That’s real funny. You are such a comedian.”
“Alice,” Jasper began, “was saying something yesterday about Sam. Is something wrong with you two?”
I shook my head no. “There is not anything wrong with us, it is just that I never thought about how he will start growing old soon. I will be left alone while he grows old. I do not think that I can deal with that.”
“Awh, Bells,” Emmett said, wrapping me in a hug. Jaspers joined in on it. “You have us here to take care of you if anything bad happens. You do not have to worry about anything while we are here.”
I sighed and wrapped an arm around each of their waists. “Thanks, guys,” I muttered. “You two are so sweet.”
“Hey,” Jasper said. “If that thing with Sam actually does happen, we will figure something out, Bella. You can bet on that. You got it?” I nodded and gave each of them a big kiss on their cheeks.
They let me out of their hug, and I walked up the steps, closing the door to my room softly, and dropping down on the floor.
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