“Do you know them?” She asked looking up at me.
“Y-yes. I do.” I managed to say, I was still frozen in place.
“Would you like me to call one of them down?” She seemed oblivious to the emotions raging through me. “Let’s see, I could call Alice, or Jasper, oh, or maybe Edward, such a nice boy.”
“No.” She was reaching for the announcement system. The hole in my chest was getting bigger by the second. “That’s fine, I’ll find them later.” She nodded and handed me my packet. I stumbled out of the main office and to my first class.
None of them
were in any of my first classes so I relaxed. I met a rather nice girl named Emily who reminded me a lot of Angela. She said she didn’t really have that many friends and she gladly accepted when I asked if she wanted to eat lunch with my cousins and me.
Lunch. That wasn’t something I was looking forward to. I would most definitely see them
there, and I wasn’t sure of what I expected. Sure I could handle hearing the name without breaking into tears this morning, but how would I react to seeing them? There was only one way to find out.
I entered the cafeteria, and one swift glance showed that they
weren’t there yet. Maybe, just maybe, I thought to myself, they aren’t here today. I noticed Emily sitting at a table near the back and I quickly bought some food and went to sit across from her. Lilia and Elsbeth hadn’t shown up yet, so I was watching the door for them when they
The five of them got in line and filled their trays with food and then sat at the table right in front of the door. They all looked the same, and that did it. I knew that at any second I would break down in tears. I had
to get out of there, but they were right next to the door. Well, they’d see me eventually, so it didn’t matter. I just had to walk by quickly.
“Bella? Is everything okay?” Emily was looking at me with concern.
“I h-have to g-go.” I stammered. I stood up and walked towards the door. Tears were starting to well up in my eyes. Just hold it in until they can’t see you.
I thought to myself.
But then I tripped. I fell a foot away from their table, and I felt all their eyes stare at me. I got up quickly; the tears were building up faster. I knew I had planned to hold it in until they couldn’t see me, but I couldn’t. As soon as I was out the cafeteria door, I started running, grabbing my sides trying to hold myself together. I felt their eyes on me through the glass cafeteria doors. I tripped again because my eyes were so full of tears I couldn’t see right.
I pulled myself up and out the school doors. I ran around the corner of the school, where I fell again. Just like when he
had said goodbye, I stayed on the ground, only this time I curled up into a ball and started crying.
I knew Emily would follow me. And that’s how she found me, in a ball, sobbing my heart out.
“Bella?” She sat down hesitantly next to me. “Do you want to talk about it?”
“They left. He left.” I mumbled.
“Who?” Emily asked confused.
“The Cullens. Edward.” I wrapped my arms tighter around me as the hole was torn open again.
“Was he your boyfriend?” she asked, the sympathy was strong in her voice.
“Y-yes. He said he didn’t want me. He didn’t love me. But I loved him. I still love him.” Emily didn’t say anything more, but she pulled me into her arms and let me cry. But soon the tears stopped coming and we sat staring into the forest. I saw a flash of orange in the trees. It looked familiar somehow, kind of like fire.
“Did you see that?” I asked Emily.
“See what?” She looked at me confused.
“Um, nothing, I thought I saw something in the forest, must have been my imagination.” I was probably just delirious from crying so much. Emily looked like she was going to ask me something when the end of lunch bell rang. We stood and she brushed me off and fixed my hair.
I had science as my next class, so I walked up to the second floor and found my classroom. I went up to the teacher and showed him my schedule.
“Well welcome to my class then.” He scanned the room over my head quickly, “you can take that empty seat in the back.”
I turned to search for my seat, and then froze. Sitting at the lab table next to the empty seat was him
. This day just kept getting better and better for me.
I took a deep breath and then walked back to the seat, setting my stuff down and then stared at the front of the room trying to hold back the tears that threatened to start. Suddenly I felt happy, Jasper, I thought. I looked around the room, and sure enough there he was. I glared at him, and he smiled sheepishly for a second, but the happiness receded.
I immediately took back what I had just done; the tears were creeping up on me. I whispered, to low for humans, but loud enough that both Jasper and him
heard it, a calming spell and a spell to stop me from crying then. I knew I didn’t have to say it out loud, but that always helped me calm down. Jasper looked at me confused by the change of my mood after I had said the two spells, which sounded like poems to him.
I stared straight ahead, careful to avoid looking at either of them. Luckily the bell rang then, unluckily the teacher announced that we were watching a movie.
With the lights off, it reminded me of the day around a year ago when we had watched a movie in Mr. Banner’s room, and the electricity had flown between us. I clutched at my sides. This entire day had been like a rerun of my life in Forks.