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The End of Eternity?

Summary:
This brilliant banner was done by the amazing talent of Japanezegurl! What do you do when forever and ever could end? Bella is a happy girl; she has a great family and group of friends and she has also found the love of her life – the rarest luxury in the world; and she is about to spend eternity with him. But will everything turn out as the fairytale it seems? *None of the characters belong to me, they are all the amazing invention of Stephenie Meyer, I am just the usual crazed teen!*


Notes:
This is my version of Breaking Dawn... enjoy!


2. Mistakes

Rating 5/5   Word Count 1276   Review this Chapter

Edward's POV

I watched her carefully. I knew that she’d been thinking about her transformation and it’s ‘advantages’ when I’d ended our kiss, yet it still made me scowl at her when she spoke those words.

I can’t believe she was looking forward to becoming… a vampire. How could she possible want to become a monster? A soulless animal (not even that) that constantly lusted for blood! She tried to make me see that I was a beautiful creature who had a soul. I can understand what she means, and in some ways I do believe what she is saying, but then things happen to make me realise that it’s actually wrong. For example, when she came to save me in Italy, I thought that I had gone to heaven as there could not be any other place Bella could reside after death. For that brief second, I believed I was in heaven with Bella, that I did have a soul to enter. Then, when I ripped Victoria into pieces in front of Bella, I began to think otherwise. How could I do that? Just rip Victoria up in front of Bella, the love of my life, without a single word? What kind of person would ever do that?! Then again, I’m not a person am I? I don’t know what I am.

After she turned her head away from me with that luscious blush of hers illuminating her cheeks, I sensed that something had changed after a minute or two. She was still silent like she was when she first turned her head, but her body had become tense and I felt a cold tingle run through her. She was in pain, and I knew why. It was all because of that idiotic Jacob Black!

Ever since I came back to Forks, he’d been playing up. Acting weirdly towards Bella, and then never letting her see or talk to him. And it was entirely my fault.

That night we spent in the tent together; Bella, Jacob and I; was the hardest night in my life so far. Not only did I have to be within touching distance of the dog, but I had to watch him drape himself around my fiancée, thinking disgusting thoughts that made me want to kill him. The only reason why I didn’t ask him to step outside with me was because Bella would never forgive me, and I couldn’t deal with being apart from her, not again.

It was also my fault that I let them become friends. If I hadn’t left and made the biggest mistake of my… existence, I would’ve saved Bella so much heart ache. Why was I so stupid!!

I tightened my arms around her and held her close to me; I couldn’t stand to see Bella in pain. I nuzzled my face into her long brown hair, smelling the scent of her favourite strawberry shampoo. As much as I loved that smell, I couldn’t help but think that it masked her own personal scent. I took in a couple of deep breaths filled with her scent before I murmured comforting words in her ear. I think they helped, but with not being able to read her mind, so it wasn’t a definite.

“Bella? Bella, honey? Are you ok?” I didn’t say anymore. I knew that if she wanted to tell me she would, prying would just make it worse. I started to kiss her ear, planning on working my way to her jaw line and then to her lips, when she turned to me with tears in her eyes.

“Bella?! What’s wrong sweetheart!” I couldn’t help but pry now. That dog had made her cry. If I ever laid my hands on him…

“Nothing…nothing! I’m fine, honestly! I’m just being silly…” Although her words tried to convince me, her voice sold her out as it cracked twice whilst she spoke. Her tears also started to trickle down her face. How could he do this to her?!

Then again, I was one to talk. I left her in a worse state than this. I even abandoned her in the forest, how low is that? Even the mongrel wouldn’t do that.

Just as I was about to hug her close to me and tell her everything was ok, Alice burst into my room all smiles and sunshine; the last thing both Bella and I needed.

How could I have not heard her coming? I must have been too engrossed in Bella’s sadness to think about anything else. I looked at Alice enquiringly, so as not to alert Bella. Alice quickly flashed through her thoughts a vision of Bella crying. She then told both of us her reason for coming up to my room.

“Hey Bella! Good morning!” she skipped across my room to the bed where Bella lay in my arms, “What’s the matter honey? Why are you so sad? Oh well… it doesn’t matter! Just forget whatever it was because I’m going to make you happy!” A big impish grin spread across her face which made Bella groan. She could tell what was in store for her without having to read minds.

“We’re going SHOPPING!!” Alice squealed, almost out of Bella’s hearing range.

“Why Alice? I’ve already got enough clothes and stuff from the last time we went shopping.” Bella moaned, starting to sit up and wipe the tears from her cheeks. I refused to let go of her when she was still upset, I knew a bit of shopping would not do anything to lighten Bella’s mood.

Once we’d both sat up, I was still hugging Bella’s waist and nuzzling my face into her hair; willing Alice to go away. It was then that I heard Alice speak to me through her thoughts.

Edward? Edward? Can you hear me? Don’t let Bella know you can hear me!What now?!

It must’ve been important though, as when I tried to skim Alice’s thoughts, I found she had filled them with fashion magazines clips of dresses and shoes and God knows what else. I quickly gave up hope by coming to the answer that way. I sighed and lifted my face from Bella’s hair, kissing her cheek. I flashed a quick glance at Alice to let her know I was listening.

Good! Now, make Bella come shopping with me!! You’ve got to! It’s important!!

No. Bella was in a bad mood. There was no way I was going to let Alice haul her off to the mall when she was in this state. As if shopping wasn’t bad enough for Bella, she was going to be taken unwillingly to a mall with tear stains down her cheeks! Bella would be embarrassed beyond belief; I was not going to let that happen. I opened my mouth to protest when Alice flashed two words through her mind quickly.

Wedding Preparations

I still didn’t understand what it meant, but if it was for the wedding, then I guess I could allow it. No doubt Alice would clean Bella up before they went out. I moved my eyes from looking up to the ceiling and then down to the floor. This conversation took less then a minute. Bella never realised a thing, only that I was growing restless and agitated.

“Edward, I don’t have to go, do I?” Bella turned and looked at me then, her large brown eyes begging. There were still remnants of tears on her cheeks. I felt so evil making her go.

On one side I had my fiancée telling me to stop her from going, and my sister on the other side, screaming inside my head telling me not to let her down. I had to choose the option that was easier to live with.

“Bella, honey…”