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The Inevitable

Summary:
-Eclipse in Edward's Point if View- ~*~"It's more Inevitable than the sun rising in the East." -Alice Cullen Midnight Sun~*~


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17. Curious Uncertainties

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Chapter 16

“Curious Uncertainties”

For once I didn’t drive too far over the speed limit; being in no hurry to reach our destination. We sat in silence, Bella staring peacefully out the window. More than anything I wished I could share in that peace. Instead the storm was brewing inside me.

One would think the second time facing a particular challenge would be easier, that knowing what it felt like and what to expect would make it slightly more bearable. Not for me. I couldn’t hold back the mixture of fear, panic, and jealously that twisted in my stomach anymore than I had the first time I had let her go.

I didn’t want to let her go, but I would…just like last time.

Wanting to hear her voice before she left me I began to speak, forcing a distraction to the front of my mind.

“So how do you feel you did on your exams?”

I saw her shrug in my peripheral vision, but she didn’t look away from the windshield. “History was easy, but I don’t know about Calculus. It seemed like it was making sense, so that probably means I failed.”

My chest loosened as the laughter escaped my mouth. “I’m sure you did fine” I glanced over to see her smiling. “Or, if you’re worried….” I went on “….I could bribe Mr. Varner to give you an A.”

She looked at me then, her eyes reading my expression, probably trying to figure out if I was serious or not.

“Er…thanks, but no thanks” I laughed again and she grinned back at me. I had no need to look at the road and why would I want to if I had those brown eyes to stare into instead?

What is taking so long?’

The laughter died on my lips as Jacob’s impatient thoughts reached me. Reflexively my head snapped back out the window and I saw Bella do the same, obviously reacting to my sudden mood change.

It was not the few words I had picked up on that had me frozen in my seat, it was something else. There was something more to Jacob’s childish mind than usual. Nothing was distinct, but the tenor of his thoughts were fast and demanding.

As my car rounded the last bend of trees, revealing the invisible line, the same exact place as last time, and the dog’s thought cleared.

My hands clenched the steering wheel as I pulled to a stop.

Finally…’ Jacob’s eyes focused over the distance, zeroing in on Bella’s face as she smiled eagerly out the windshield. ‘I can do this….I can do this….this is Bella… she won’t be angry with me….I have to let her know….today….everything before it’s too late…before….’ His eyes slowly moved from Bella and focused on me. ‘I wonder if he…?’

I saw my own face through his mind….it was emotionless and hard.

His eyes narrowed at the same time mine did.

He knew I could hear him from this distance,

He knew that I knew what he had planned today,

And he also knew there was nothing I could do to stop it.

That’s when the shouting began.

I’m not giving up!.....I’m tired of this, tired of just waiting on the side lines!...I hope you can hear me…I’m telling her the truth today….Everything….I’ll make her see what’s she’s too stubborn to realize, no matter what it takes!’

I rumbling sigh slipped out between my clenched teeth before I could stop it.

“What’s wrong?” Bella asked in alarm, looking back at me, her hand frozen on the door handle.

I wondered briefly how angry she would be with me if I suddenly hit the lock button and spun around….raced away from this place and the person that was gradually giving me a headache.

I shook my head slowly, not looking away from Jacob’s eyes. His mind had yet to shut up.

“Nothing” I murmured softly.

I’ll fight….she hasn’t given up so neither am I.’ My eyes narrowed again at his words, at the absolute belief he had in those words. ‘No matter what it takes’ he repeated.

“You’re not listening to Jacob are you?” Bella’s voice cut through the invisible cloud of tension and my teeth clenched tighter at the accusation.

“It’s not easy to ignore someone when he’s shouting”

“Oh”

I turned and met Bella’s wide eyes. She leaned closer to me, whispering her words. “What’s he shouting?”

I grimaced slightly at the continuous rant only I could hear. “I’m absolutely positive he’ll mention it himself” before either one of us could speak again two sharp honks filled the air and Bella flinched slightly, looking back towards the red car.

Could she move a little faster I don’t have all day’

The growl finally rolled up my chest as my anger peaked. “That’s impolite” I said through my teeth.

I heard Bella sigh and turned back to see she had grabbed the door handle again. “That’s Jacob” she mumbled, the tension in her voice very clear.

Before I hand time say anything or even reach out towards her, Bella was already out the car and closing the door behind her. Pain filled my chest at her fast departure. I had been so wrapped up in Jacob’s thoughts and my own anger that I hadn’t given her a proper farewell. Hadn’t kissed that beautiful face one more time.

As I watched her cross the line the pain intensified, mixing with the anger and panic, twisting my insides into knots.

She was on the other side now.

It was too late.

When Bella reached Jacob’s car her hand hesitated on the handle. She turned back towards me her face anxious. Her brow was furrowed and even across the distance I could see the strain in her brown eyes, see the tension: anger, frustration, sadness, longing, guilt….I could see and comprehend those emotions. But there was something underneath all of that, something completely different. It was some deep drawn emotion I didn’t understand, couldn’t place.

I had never seen it before in her eyes. She seemed to be debating something and yet resigned at the same time.

And then the door was open and she was inside his car.

Hey Bells”

I swallowed and took a deep breath before I put the car into reverse. I spun around and pressed the pedal to the floor, speeding away from that place as fast as possible. All the while the hollowness of her absence grew in my chest as each mile added to our separation.

I drove straight home trying to push Jacob’s repeated thoughts from my mind. The seat next to me was so…empty. It seemed to spread out and swallow me in a weak echo of a much stronger pain…a pain my mind and body instinctively shied away from.

Leaving Bella to go hunting was always hard to deal with, especially after last winter. I always felt empty without her next to me whether it was for a few hours or a couple of days. But why was that emptiness so different when I left her at La Push? It was so much stronger…physically painful in a way I couldn’t grasp. It was as if a large part of me had been ripped, taken away with her…. and the little of what was left to me was exposed and bleeding.

When I pulled up in front of the house Alice was sitting on the top step of the porch. I could tell from her face that she was still pouting. The fact that Bella wanted to spend the day with a werewolf instead of her had Alice especially upset.

“I’ve decided to go with you” she mumbled as I approached the house. “Jasper and Emmet are still staying though; they’re wrapped up in a video game right now”

I nodded vaguely, still trying to push away the painful part of myself that ached to be put together again. “Alright”

At the sound of my voice Alice’s head shot up, her dark gold eyes scrutinizing my face.

Are you okay?’

“I’m fine”

No you’re not’

I sighed, running a hand through my hair. “I have to be” I murmured, looking everywhere except at her face. She continued to stare, after a few moments I gave in and glanced down at her. I tried to give a small smile but through her eyes it seemed to be more of a grimace. I sighed “It’s nothing…. Jacob was just….especially irritating today is all”

Alice stood up to stand next to me and wrapped her skinny arm through mine. “Well, I guess we can mope together today.” she said lightly throwing me a wide grin. Against my will I felt my lips turn up into a real smile. It felt wrong and out of place but if there was anyone that could raise the action out of me when I felt this way it was Alice.

One mountain lion and two large bucks later I found myself sitting on the edge of a huge boulder listening to the steady roar of the river beneath me. I had hunted quickly wanting this day to be done with sooner. The others were still spread out in the forest behind me, on their own routes and were far enough away that I wasn’t disturbed by their thoughts. My mind was my own, well as my own as it ever was, there was still the light buzzing that existed no matter where I was.

But it was as close to peace as I could ever get, and I usually cherished the rare moments when I did have them. Of course my mind was far from peaceful at the moment because there was no blocking or pushing away my own thoughts. They dominated me so completely I was barley aware of the things around me.

The only things I seemed to be able to concentrate on were Jacob’s intention and Bella’s torn face before she had climbed into his car.

She hasn’t given up yet and neither am I’

What did he mean by that?

Bella hadn’t given up on what? I knew she hadn’t given up on our disagreement to go to the reservation which was the only reason she was there now, and I knew she hadn’t given up on the friendship she had clung to for so long now. But neither of those things seemed fit for what he had meant.

Jacob was so sure of his thoughts as he shouted them across the distance, so confident in his plan. There was something about Bella that he knew, a part of her that he believed in…a part he was determined to make her see today.

I wasn’t even sure Bella was aware of it.

But what if Jacob was right and he succeeded today and Bella did become aware of it.

I growled softly and squeezed my eyes shut for a moment.

Enough was enough.

When I opened them back up I made myself focus more clearly on the things around me. I made my eyes focus on the river beneath me, made them follow the current of bluish grey water as it surged steadily on its course.

My gaze then fell on a large boulder set in the center of the riverbed, strong and unmoving against the current. The water that flowed together so perfectly was inevitably ripped apart. It crashed into the obstruction angrily, throwing ripples and white foam around its middle…. And in its destruction two separate paths formed.

Jacob.

My mind unwilling went back to the subject that never really left. I don’t even know why I tried to distract myself.

So the dog was finally going to tell Bella the truth…tell her he loved her and that he wanted her to choose him instead of me…make her see that she did indeed have a choice.

The possessive tenor of his mind today had made me more furious than his verbal thoughts. Because I didn’t care how selfish it sounded, how wrong it was, or how much further it damned me…. but Isabella Swan wasmine. She belonged to me, just as I belonged totally and irreversibly to her.

Jacob would learn that today though. He had to see the love between us, unless he was completely blind. No matter what the dog planned to say today I had no doubt that…

My mind came to a lurching stop as the lie I had been momentarily feeding myself crashed into me.

I did have doubt.

I had been feeling it not even thirty seconds ago….I could feel it now, feel it growing as the endless space of time that Bella was away from me dragged on. Feel it swallow me as I watched the water below be ripped fiercely apart.

What if?’ my masochistic mind asked me, before I could silence it. ‘What if?’

I knew Bella loved me, my doubt did not stem from that undeniable truth. I had never been more sure of anything else in my entire existence. I loved Bella and Bella loved me.

But then there was Jacob Black, the unmovable rock in the path of our future together.

He loved Bella too. It didn’t come close to the level of love I felt for her, he was too young and immature to grasp that type of devotion. But it was still there and very strong in his human mind. Though Bella had never voiced it, a part of me believed she knew this fact too, and that she has known of Jacob’s true feelings for a long time now.

Well it wasn’t like the dog tried to hide anything, it was always there in his face…written in his eyes. Bella wasn’t blind. She had to of seen it on more than one occasion.

As far as I knew however, Jacob had never fully exposed himself to her, never made the vulnerable move of saying the truth out loud in so many words.

A part of his silence came from his very well laid out plan, his plan of having Bella slowly come to that realization herself and in time learn to feel the same, and the other part was fear. He had kept silent for all this time in the fear that he would be turned away and in the process not only lose his chance, but also lose his friend.

The uncertainty of Bella’s reaction when Jacob finally stepped up ate at my insides. She was so sweet and loving, she cared for the ones she loved so very much. And in some cases too much. I had seen firsthand the things she would do to protect her loved ones, to protect them from any kind of pain. But there was something in Jacob’s pain that was slightly different, something that always hit her hard.

The torn look in Bella’s eyes when she glanced back at me today flashed into my mind again and it formed a realization I had never acknowledged before. But I did now, and there was no stopping it. Despite the fresh, warm blood coursing through me, my body suddenly felt very cold.

Because in spite of Jacob’s lineage and unnatural way life he was still human. He still possessed something I didn’t have…a beating heart. He could give Bella things I would never be able to. Jacob and I were both a danger in her life, but I knew which one of us posed the most danger and as much as I didn’t want to admit it, especially to myself, Jacob would be the healthier choice.

The thought was like pure acid, searing its way through my body.

But it was unstoppable.

I could not deny the truth.

If Bella were to choose him, to choose Jacob, she would be better off.

I felt my fists clench at me sides, the rock grumbling slightly around my knuckles.

She could have the normal, happy life she deserved. She could keep her family and friends. She could go to college vigorous and full of life. She could have the beautiful children my existence was stealing from her.…those precious souls that never had a chance because of me.

And more so than that, she would always be protected. Always have that someone there to stand between her and the dangers she seemed to always attract.

Hadn’t that been my main excuse from the very beginning? During my first struggle of right and wrong?

That first night in Bella’s room, when I heard her speak my name for the very first time in her sleep, hadn’t keeping her safe been my only justification? Despite her half whispered plea for me to stay I should have left that night, I should have removed myself completely from her life before it was too late, But I had convinced myself that I had that very small reason… her safety… and I had stayed.

I didn’t have that anymore.

My being with Bella, of wanting and needing her, was nothing more than selfishness now.

I had no justifications.

No small reasons.

I had nothing.

By choosing my enemy Bella could have every single thing I had ever wanted for her….every single thing I could never give.

I tore my eyes away from the pointless boulder in the meaningless river and buried my face in my hands. My silent heart seemed to be crushing in on itself, making me pull my knees towards my chest in a vain attempt to hold myself together.

“You’re much better at this moping thing than I am”

Alice’s tinkling voice cut through my self-made despair. The insane part of me actually felt like laughing. It had been the fourth time in the last couple of weeks that I had been taken off guard by somebody.

Maybe I was losing my touch as well as my sanity.

Alice was approaching me from the thick trees, and though I still hadn’t moved from my position to look towards her, I could see my own form hunched in on itself through her eyes. The scene itself was pathetic but feeling the pity in my sister’s mind made it even worse.

I forced my back to straighten and took a deep breath. At the same time Alice sat down gracefully next to me. I glanced sideways at her and bit back another growl of frustration. She was sitting cross-legged, her chin propped up in her small hands, with her whole body facing -not the river- but me.

“What Alice?” I asked flatly, turning away.

“Nothing” she said lightly “I’m just done hunting”

I rolled my eyes “Yes I can see that…what I meant was what are you doing here?”

Her mind was curious and oddly expectant as she continued to stare at the side of my face. I saw her shrug in my peripheral vision. “Well, actually I was under the impression you wanted to ask me something”

I raised an eyebrow “And what might that be?” I asked dryly.

“I’m not sure” ‘I don’t think you’re consciously aware of it just yet’

I snorted without humor and decided to ignore her for the time being, I wasn’t really in the mood at the moment. Of course I knew it was a wasted effort. Alice wasn’t the type to be ignored…at least not for long.

My eyes slid back the river…back to the damn rock that aggravated the hell out of me for some demented reason.

And then it hit me.

I told you, you had something ask’ Alice thought smugly. She knew what was on my mind…or would know. I had no need to voice the question now. She focused, it only took her a second but when she picked it up she groaned loudly. “Oh come on Edward you can’t be serious”

I didn’t look at her, but she continued to look at me, and then after a moment she shook her head sadly. ‘Haven’t you learned anything yet?’

“I could ask you the same question” I mumbled under my breath.

Bella was meant for you….she can’t live without you anymore than you can without her’

“Jacob’s going to talk to her toady” I murmured quietly, as if I had not heard her thoughts and then whispered even lower. “He’s going to keep fighting”

Did he ever really stop?’

My head shook mechanically, “Does it really matter?” I asked in the same soft mummer “Regardless I have no way of knowing Bella’s reaction….of what her response will be when he finally….” My voice lowered to a whisper and then trailed off.

“I never thought I’d say this to you Edward” Alice said, leaning closer to me. “But for someone so smart and confident you can be very ignorant at times”

I finally turned to glare at her, ready to snap and release some of the pent up anger. But as I locked eyes with my sister it all melted away and I saw my face crumple through her eyes. “What if?” I breathed, voicing the burning question for the first time. “What if choosing Jacob is the better option for her? What if I’m just holding her back from what she really wants…what she really needs?”

What she really needs is you Edward…I’ve seen it’

My head was shaking again, when I realized this I stopped. I couldn’t look in her eyes any longer, couldn’t continue to see the absolute belief she had in her thoughts. I dropped my face back into my hands. “Just look Alice” I mumbled between my fingers. “Would she be better off?...Please, I can’t handle anything right now except the truth, I need to know”

She sighed “I can’t do that Edward and you know it. Right now all I see is black….she’s with the dogs right now…..” ‘And even if I could I wouldn’t, because I have no need to’

I growled into my hands, but to my ears it sounded more like a groan.

You look Edward” Alice said sharply. “If you don’t want to take my word for it or even Jasper’s then maybe you’ll listen to Charlie”

I took a deep breath and locked my hands together on my knees, pressing my forehead into my fists. I had no idea what she was talking about, but I would let her go on, this was Alice so it wasn’t like I could stop her…tell her to shut up and leave me alone like I would have done with someone else.

So I stared at the granite between my knees, looked at the different colors and facets in the stone…. waiting for her to go on.

“When I came back last spring I talked to Charlie…” She said softly “....he told me some things and I think you need hear them.”

She opened her mind and having no other choice I watched and listened.

----

Alice was sitting at the small old table watching Charlie shuffle around the kitchen.“How bad was it Charlie?” she asked softly.

Charlie froze in the process of opening a cabinet and sighed. “Real bad”

Tell me about it. I want to know exactly what happened when we left”

Charlie nodded and closed the cabinet. He walked heavily towards the stove and cut on a burner. “I’ve never felt so helpless….” His shoulders slumped as he turned around to face Alice, his was face drawn and very tired.

I didn’t know what to do.” He said in a fast whisper. “That first week—I thought I was going to have to hospitalize her. She wouldn’t eat or drink, she wouldn’t move. Dr. Gerandy was throwing around words like ‘catatonic’, but I didn’t let him up to see her, afraid it would frighten her.”

She snapped out of though?” Alice asked her thoughts pained and full of guilt as she watched Charlie’s desperate face...

He shook his head slowly, his eyes unfocused, seeing something that Alice couldn’t. “I had Renee come to take her to Florida. I just didn’t want to be the one…if she had to go to a hospital or something. I hoped being with her mother would help.”

He shuddered slightly and seemed to pull back, his eyes focusing on Alice’s face again. “But when we started packing her clothes she woke up with a vengeance. I’ve never seen Bella throw a fit like that. She was never one for tantrums, but boy, did she fly into a fury. She threw her clothes everywhere and screamed that we couldn’t make her leave—and then… she finally started crying. I thought that would be the turning point. I didn’t argue when she insisted on staying here…and she did seem to get better at first…’ Charlie’s voice trailed off, his eyes glazing over again.

But?’ Alice prompted softly.

He shrugged “She went back to school and work, she ate and slept and did her homework. She answered when someone asked her a direct question. But she was…empty. Her eyes were blank. There were lots of little things—she wouldn’t listen to music anymore; I found a bunch of CD’s broken in the trash. She didn’t read; she wouldn’t be in the same room when the T.V. was on, not that she watched it so much before….I finally figured it out—she was avoiding everything that might remind her of…him.”

He rubbed a hand over his tired face and sighed deeply before he went on “We could hardly talk; I was so worried about saying something that would upset her—the littlest things would make her flinch—and she never volunteered anything. She would just answer if I asked her something.

She was alone all the time. She didn’t call her friends back, and after a while, they stopped calling…It was like the night of the living dead around here.”

Charlie shuddered again, this time more clearly and his face paled as his eyes unfocused again, gazing at something just above Alice’s head. When he spoke again his voice was quite and strained with the effort of holding back suppressed emotion. “I still hear her screaming in her sleep…”

Moisture filled the familiar brown eyes and Alice swallowed, pushing back her own emotion “I’m so sorry Charlie” She whispered thickly. He looked back at her, quickly blinking back the tears before they could spill over. When he focused again his eyes were hard and full of fury.

It’s not your fault”

She seems better now though” Alice murmured, though it seemed to be more of a question than a statement...

Yeah.” Charlie gave a small smile then “Ever since she stared hanging out with Jacob Black, I’ve noticed a real improvement. She has some color in her cheeks when she comes home, some light in her eyes, she’s happier”

He paused and his face became thoughtful, his voice changed to something close to hope, almost like he was trying to convince himself. “He’s a year or so younger than her, and I know she used to think of him as a friend, but I think maybe it’s something more now ,or headed in that direction anyway.”

“Alice!” Her name hissed through my clenched teeth. My hands were two separate fists on my knees now, digging into my closed eyes. “If this is your idea of helping it’s a bad one” I growled.

I knew everything she was showing me. I had seen it so many times, heard it from so many different people. But hearing it voiced from Charlie, seeing what I had put, not only Bella through, but Charlie as well was not helping….it was doing the complete opposite. It was only enforcing what I had realized on my own….my mind was torturing enough when left to its own devices, I didn’t need any help.

“You’re not letting me finish” Alice answered quietly. “There’s more…”

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He’s a good-looking kid, too—takes after his mom’s side. He’s good for Bella, you know,”

Alice nodded, “Then it’s good she had him”

Charlie stared at Alice’s sincere face for a moment and then his face fell again, a loud sigh escaping his mouth before he spoke. “Okay, so I guess that’s over stating things. I don’t know…even with Jacob, now and then I see something in her eyes, and I wonder if I’ve ever grasped how much pain she’s really in.” He shook his head. “It’s not normal, Alice, and it…it frightens me. Not normal at all, not like someone…left her, but like someone died.”

His voice carked on the last word. “I don’t know if she’s going to get over it—I’m not sure if it’s in her nature to heal from something like this. She’s always been such a constant little thing. She doesn’t get past things, change her mind”

Alice gave a small smile that didn’t even come close to reaching her eyes. “She’s one of a kind”

----

“See?” Alice whispered softly. “There was a time when all Bella had was Jacob and it still wasn’t enough….even Charlie saw that and you know better than me who he wants his daughter to be with. But more than that he wants her to be happy….I think it’s only fear of her being hurt again that makes him hate you so much, because he can’t deny how healthy and happy Bella is now.”

I didn’t speak or move. I wasn’t sure if Alice’s memories had made me feel better or worse. It was clear what her intention had been…she wanted to prove to me that though Bella is happy being with Jacob now, it was only because I was here when she returned. It proved that Bella could only be truly happy with me in her life…that Jacob alone wasn’t enough.

But what about when it was only me in her life again….would I be enough? What was going to happen the day Bella had to say goodbye to her friend forever?

She had lived without me before, and I knew the consequences of that. But she had yet to live without Jacob. In fact she had fought desperately, went behind my back and tricked Alice more than once to keep him in her life.

What was it going to be like once the day came when she could no longer see him?

Would the pain be worse with his absence than it was with mine?….which one of us would it hurt her most to lose?

Which one could she not live without? Because she could not have us both….not for forever.

Alice sighed loudly. “Okay I don’t get it…why are you still all mopey?” She scooted closer to me and nudged my shoulder. “Come on, you’ll be able to pick Bella up in a few hours and you’ll see for yourself that nothing the dog says will change her mind”

“That still doesn’t answer my question though” I said raising my head back up. “And since you can’t see anything how can I know for sure?”

Alice looked at me for a second, raising one thin eyebrow. “Okay, so you want me to look and…”

I shook my head “No… I know that was a stupid request, I know better than that. I was just pointing out the fact that you don’t know what Bella’s response will be anymore than I do”

“Mm” Alice murmured. “I disagree; I think I know a little more than you think”

“Oh really?”

She nodded. “I have no doubt in Bella, because once again, I know the dog’s words will do nothing to change her choice”

“But you can’t see that” I pointed out again, the frustration was building up and I tried to rein it in. Alice was only trying to make me feel better. I knew this but I wished she would just let it go, leave me alone for a little while longer.

“I could continue to tell you this, but maybe it will do better if you just look”

I looked at Alice in surprise, but she had closed her eyes in concentration. She wasn’t showing me a memory, she was…looking. I watched her curiously as she sifted through the future. The images were fast and indistinct. A small crease formed between her eyes as she pushed more force into her mind. I wasn’t use to seeing Alice take so long on pulling up a vision.

After few more seconds though, something broke through and came into focus.

The image was very blurred, like I was looking at it from under water. I could only make out two formless figures, their surroundings were black, but as the vision closed in I realized it was myself and…Bella.

It wasn’t clear but I could pinpoint that face anywhere.

There was something different about it though. Bella’s features were sharper, radiating a beauty that was hard to look at despite the cloudiness. The only thing that stood out was her bright red irises. However, despite their violent and alien color, the eyes were soft and held a gentleness that was very familiar.

Her hand reached up and cupped my face. And then she spoke in a fierce whisper. “I love you”

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I didn’t speak or move and I don’t know how long I sat there. I was ….confused. It was the only way I could describe the mayhem inside my own head.

“You see” Alice whispered. “I may not be seeing as much as I should these days but that….it is still there.” She chuckled softly. “By all means I shouldn’t be able to see even that blurred flash right now, not while she’s with the dogs. But I do. Doesn’t that tell you anything?”

I still didn’t say anything. All I could see was Bella’s beautiful red-eyesd face….however blurred it was. Sure I had seen Alice’s visions of this future outcome many times….more times than I liked to remember. But the look in my angel’s eyes….that was new to me. This particular vision was new.

And it made me agonizingly happy. Completely blissful and completely torn apart at the exact same time and on exactly the same level.

“Alright that’s what I’m talking about” Alice’s tinkling laugh pulled me from my confusion. And it was only then that I realized my mouth was curved up ever so slightly. Who would have ever thought seeing those red eyes on my angel would make me smile, however small.

“My work here is finished” Alice sang jumping lightly to her feet. She leaned down and kissed the top of my head. “You just have to face the facts Edward….Bella’s mind was made up a long time ago and she’s a very constant little thing.”

“She’s one of a kind” I whispered.

My better mood was pushed back down slightly when I reached my car. There on the passenger side floor board was a small silver phone.

I reached over and picked it up with a deep sigh. Not only did I make Bella leave without a goodbye, but she also left her phone. Her way of contacting me.

The edge of panic that was always there kicked up a notch. Bella being who she was she would probably pick this particular trip to the reservation to get hurt, because it was the one time she left her phone.

“Perfect” I mumbled as I started the engine.

I had waited long enough and if she didn’t use Jacob’s phone to call me than Jacob would probably be driving her home.

Either way I would be there waiting.

I was less than a mile from Charlie’s house when the phone in my pocket began to vibrate.