How can this be possible? Me? A different vampire? These questions erupted from Bella after her talk with Alice in her room. She knew something is different from her. She knew that it is impossible for everything to settle down just that. And now, she face this new challenge in her life that might break her clutch to Edward and to the rest of the world.
I made this out of my head one day while reading New Moon and still continued to rack my brain after Eclipse. Hope you enjoy it.
6. Chapter 6: "Torment"
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I was lying on our bed. The bed that I had personally picked out for her...
It had been a year since she had disappeared, and I was starting to lose hope.
I wanted her back. Now.
"Isn't there anything we can do?" Alice asked, talking mostly to herself. I didn't care. “I can't believe not one of us can remember what happened that day."
“I know, Alice,” Carlisle replied. “I am willing to bet my existence that someone wiped our memories - someone powerful. Even those wolves cannot recall what happened that afternoon. I've been trying to remember why I was in such a rush to get home that day. It was something you told me on the phone - but I just can't recall..."
“I know,” Alice agreed. “I was running with Bella, but I can’t remember why and then suddenly, she was gone!”
They both grew silent.
But I really didn’t care what they were talking about. I had heard it for the nth time already - and noo one did ever remember what made Alice and Bella to run here to the house. But no matter how many times they tried to recall what happened that day, how many times they recall the same story that I heard again tonight, the fact that Bella disappeared would never change...
To live every minute without her was hard for me. She is my air, my reason for existence, my soul…
And to think about her every second - her scent, her smile, her look of disgust whenever I piss her off, her heartbeat, her eyes...
I winced in pain as I thought about her. I wanted….no, I needed her love now. Her kiss, her caress!
I didn't know what to do - I was insane already. My chest was so heavy, and my mind was so full of her. I wanted her, I needed her now!
Someone approached me, and I looked up to see Carlisle staring down at me.
He ignored me. “Edward, son, I am not here telling you to go hunting, or stop sulking, or anything like that. I am just here to remind you that whatever you’re doing right now, I am sure Bella wouldn't be happy- " He stopped as he saw my furious glare.
“How would you know if she felt like that?" I demanded, fuming. He met my stare and held it for a moment.
“She wouldn't want you to be unhappy..." he tried again, but anger erupted inside of me.
“You don't know what she thinks!” I shouted. “She's missing, Carlisle! She's missing and I don't know where to look for her!" I didn’t know why I was angry with him, I couldn't understand anything, let alone myself. It was just that I always thought he had a solution to everything. Him! From all the vampires I knew. He always knew what to do! But now…
He just looked down.
“Leave me alone, please,” I finally blurted out. “Edward, I-" He tried to speak but I interrupted him again. I didn't want a fight, but I was tired.
“Leave me alone….” I repeated. Carlisle looked at me hopefully, before sighing. He walked out the door and out of sight. I felt guilty after that. Poor Carlisle. I would make it up to him.
I sat down to the bed and sighed deeply. I decided that I’d go to our meadow the day after tomorrow. I knew that I am just making things harder for myself, but I just wanted to remember her. I wanted to cling to every memory I have of her. This was the only way I could live and I hoped that someday…Someday, she will come back to me, and we would again be in each other's arms.
The thought of her embrace only made me succumb to further pain. I missed her so much.TO BE CONTINUED
Special thanks to my Beta-reader, Moondancing Millie!
- Chapter 1: "Different"
- Chapter 2: "Makatah"
- Chapter 3: "Pain"
- Chapter 5: "Marcus"
- Chapter 6: "Torment"
- Chapter 7: "Lyka"
- Chapter 8: "Dream"
- Chapter 9: "Meadow"
- Chapter 10: "Deal"
- Chapter 12: "Warning"
- Chapter 13
- Chapter 14: "Truth"
- Chapter 15: "Whereabouts"
- Chapter 16: "Confrontation"
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