Life is a Wheel of Fate
Disclaimer: I do not own any of the characters from Twilight. That all belongs to Stephenie Meyer. What if Bella answered the phone instead of Jacob when Edward called in New Moon
This is my first fan fiction.
3. HE DOESN'T LOVE ME!
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“Are you serious? He’s really coming back?” I couldn’t believe it. After all this time of aching pain filling my body, I had to make sure that this wasn’t just some sick joke.
“Yes! He’s coming back to Forks. I just had a vision. He’s really coming. This is great.” She screamed out.
Oh my god! She was serious. I can’t believe this. He is really coming back. This is so exciting. Then something popped into my mind that was hidden by this news. The thing that caused him to leave in the first place. HE DOESN’T LOVE ME! Oh god! Why? Why? Why? Why did he have to choose to come back? This is horrible! He’s coming back and what? What’s going to be different? He still won’t love me. This will just be worse. He’ll be here for me to see and hear and be around and I’ll have to live with the knowledge that he doesn‘t love me. That he isn’t mine. This news made the hole in my chest flare up as much as the day he said goodbye. Maybe even worse.
Alice must have seen the change in my expression on my face because then she asked “Bella, what’s wrong?”
“This is horrible! Oh my god! This is not good. It’s just plain horrible! Oh god!” The pain was too much to handle. I dropped onto my knees and clutched my chest.
“Bella! Are you okay? I don’t get how this is bad at all. Can you please explain it to me? Bella?”
“HE DOESN’T LOVE ME!” I screeched out. “He’s going to come back and still won’t want me. I’m going to see him and be around him and know he doesn’t love me.” I explained to her in a pained voice.
“Bella, Bella stop. You are worrying about lies. About things that are not real,” she said while lifting me off of the floor.
“What are you talking about? He said he didn’t love me when he left. What would change his mind now?” I questioned her.
“You believed him? You believed all that crap he told you the day he left?”
I wished she wouldn’t talk about it. It made me remember and caused the pain to flare up. “Yes. Why shouldn’t I? There was never any reason for him to love me. I’m just a normal human. And he’s…”
“Oh my god Bella. You are so absurd! You are not just a normal human. You are Bella Swan! You are an extraordinary girl! You are the love of Edward Cullen’s life! Why do you think he would suddenly decide to come back?”
I never thought about that last factor. And I realized I really didn’t have an explanation. “But if he really does love me, then why would he leave in the first place?” I couldn’t help but wonder.
“Seeing Jasper’s reaction at your birthday party last year made him realize he was putting you in danger every second he was around you. He didn’t want to risk getting you hurt, or killed like you were very close to being a few months ago and last year.”
I thought about that. My birthday seemed like centuries ago even though it was only a few months back. “If that is true, then why is coming back?”
“He missed you so much. You cannot imagine how much he missed you. He’s been a zombie since we left. He wouldn’t talk to anyone. I haven’t even seen him in a few months. No one has. He locked himself in his room and stared at the floor dazed. He wouldn’t even hunt on his own. We had to have Jasper and Emmett bring back animals to him and then lift him from the floor and force him to feed. After a few times of that we just gave up. I told him he was making a stupid choice, that it would never last, but he wouldn’t listen to me. He wouldn’t listen to anyone. He just said that he had to keep you safe. Then he became a zombie as soon as we left Washington. He needs you Bella.”
Oh my god. Edward had been a zombie? I could seriously not picture Edward as a zombie. I could picture him as a god, but definitely not a zombie. Was she really serious about all this “Are you telling me the truth? All of this is true?”
“Yes. All of it. Everything I just said is true. I would never lie to you Bella. Never. You are my best friend. I love you. Edward loves you. We all love you. Well, most of us. But Rosalie will come along.”
Ugh, Rosalie. I really did not want to think about her. “I love you, too.”
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