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Beat of my heart...

Stefania is going through some tough times...between feeling invisible and her first date turning into the worst...or the best day of her life. Depending on your outlook on it...


1. Chapter 1: Thoughts of more

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To the beat of my
To the beat of my
To the beat of my heart

I'm thinking about
Letting it out,
I wanna give in,
I wanna go out,
Been looking around,
I've finally found
The rhythm of love,
The feeling of sound
It's making a change,
The feeling is strange
It's coming right back,
Right back in my range
Not worried about,
Anything else
I'm waking up

To the beat of my
To the beat of my

To the beat of my heart
The beat of my heart
The beat of my heart
It tears us apart
The beat of my heart
The beat of my heart
The beat of my heart
Now I'm back to the start

To the beat of my
To the beat of my
To the beat of my heart

I'm up from my down
I turn it around
I'm making it back,
I'm not gonna drown
I'm taking a stance
I won't miss my chance
I want you to see,
I'm not scared to dance
The way that you feel,
Could never be real
I want you to know,
I finished the deal
So I'm saying to you,
I'll always be true
To the rhythm inside

-Hilary Duff

“Beat of my heart”

Chapter 1: Thoughts of More

Stefania’s POV: (I know, using my own name is stupid but I’m doing it anyway)

I am just an ordinary girl. Nothing special. I’ve got brown curly hair and stupid brown eyes. I hate the color of my eyes. They’re just so blah, boring. I like green and hazel eyes, they’re very interesting. My science teacher told us this year that green and hazel eyes are just mutated forms of blue and brown. It’s very interesting when you think about it. One of my best friends, Jason, has one green eye and one hazel eye.

I’ve liked Jason since the 2nd grade, and I’m in 10th now. Jason was never one of the coolest kids…until he hit puberty, and then he became a god! Now he’s Mr. Confident and I’m lucky if he ever acknowledges my existence anymore.

I see him in the halls a lot…but he doesn’t see me. It’s almost like I’m invisible sometimes. Like everything is just passing through me. Sometimes I wish I could really be invisible and see if anyone would care if I was gone, if anyone would even notice.

Jason doesn’t have a girlfriend, he has “girls”. Yes, I said ‘girls’ meaning plural. He dates girls, he doesn’t go out with them. I don’t know why I still like him…but I guess some habits end hard…this one still hasn’t ended yet.

Jason’s POV:

“Yo, dude!” I screamed as the football I threw made its way across the field. It was aiming right for some girl’s head. “Girl! Watch out!” She obviously didn’t hear me.

The football hit her in the head and she collapsed. I ran as fast as I could to make sure that she was okay.

When I got over there I saw Stefania.

“crap” I muttered to myself.

I checked her pulse and saw that she was still alive. She probably had a concussion though. If it was a minor or major one I couldn’t tell yet.

I kneeled down next to her, just looking at her. She changed a lot since we were younger, since I last really looked at her.

Her hair was a lighter shade of brown than it used to be. Her hair was straightened, and it was quite short. She didn’t have the cascading curls that I used to annoy her about before. I loved her curls though, I made fun of them, but I loved them.

I felt like I hadn’t seen her in the longest time…I think I had forgotten about her…

Stefania’s POV:

The last thing I remember before I blacked out was getting hit in the head with a football and hearing Jason’s voice. I am WAY too obsessed with him, I mean I hear his VOICE in my head. Is it possible to think while you’re unconscious…because I’m pretty sure I’m unconscious right now.

I tried to open one of my eyes, it took a while but I did it. When I did I saw that Jason was staring at me intently. I closed my eyes and moaned, because of both the pain and my luck. The one time I end up unconscious Jason ends up being there. Great!

“I’m dreaming, tell me I’m dreaming” I moaned.He laughed lightly “nope. You’re awake, Stefania.”

I bolted upright, that caught my attention. He remembered my name. I felt a sharp pain in my head and I screamed a little bit.

“whoa! Be careful there, Stef” Jason lay me back down slowly “you don’t want to hurt yourself even more.”

I mumbled something even I didn’t understand. I thought to myself, what do you care?! You’ve abandoned me for the past few years!

“I think I should take you to the nurse,” Jason said.“I’m capable of taking myself, thankyouverymuch,” I said with as much attitude as I could muster up in my condition. My head was pounding in my ears but I tried to ignore it, not sure whether it was because of the concussion or Jason.

He smirked, obviously amused “I see you’re still as stubborn.”

I crossed my arms over my chest and glared at him “how would you know? When was the last time you ever talked to me?!”

His voice grew louder “I don’t remember you walking up to me and saying ‘hi’ either!”

I didn’t say anything. He was right. I didn’t do anything either, it was both of our faults. “just take me to the stupid nurse, Mr. Big-shot.”

He took me to the nurse without another word. I just stared in front of me. I listened to my heart beat as I walked…and wondered if it’s ever beaten this fast before in my life…

Then, i also found myself wondering...in that one coner of my mind that knew of the future...if my heart would ever beat again at all.