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Muddling Memory

Summary:
It's been 10 years since Bella changed and all she can remember is the pain, but someone is lurking in the shadows... Waiting for her memory to return.
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Notes:


4. The smell of a vampire

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Please note these characters do not belong to me. The were created by Stephenie Meyer (genius) and the story below is me going along with my (poor) imagination and making up a little something silly!

[From the Point of View of Jacob]

The smell is killing me, I feel so utterly repulsed. I can see her though, I know she is safe. She’s still alive. Edward has the right to know, but I want to keep him waiting. If he is going to steal her from me again, he’s going to have to suffer…

… Not that I want her anyway. Not now… That she has changed. That she’s become so… Empty. She’s emotionless and without meaning… Maybe she misses me… Or Edward. Damn him, he shouldn’t exist. She should be mine, then she’d be with me and we’d be happy. Charlie would have let her move in with me and Billy, we would be together…

… NO! YOU’VE BEEN HERE BEFORE! She’s chosen. You may not like her decision, but it’s done…

… But that was when she was human, when she was alive… Now that she is… changed… Maybe she’ll chose me.

She won’t, she loves him.

Damn you, Seth. Why are you in my head? I hated the lack of privacy. Being a wolf has many upsides, but I hate not being allowed a single thought that is entirely my own. Not only do I have to try and fight the loosing battle for privacy with my pack, but whenever Edward is around I’m exposed. Damn him, he shouldn’t exist!

Now, now. She loves him, if you love her you’ll respect her choice. You said you did. Edward is worried, he thinks that Jane might be onto our plan. – That maybe she remembers your smell from in the forest when we fought the newborns.

Seth was right, there was that possibility. I guess, but I’m being careful. I’m close but not too close, I haven’t tried contact. They know there is a wolf about, they have for many weeks. I think it’s nearly time for me to expose myself to her, to explain.

Suddenly I was alone, my head was clear and I breathed easily. Why Seth had changed I didn’t know, but I was sure he’d be back. I’d promised I wouldn’t go forward without their knowledge and over the years I’d learned to control myself better than I ever had when I’d known Bella well. The memory of Sam had helped, he was with me in my mind even when he was human. It wasn’t really him, it was my mind’s interpretation, but when you’re alone away from your pack you need a part of home with you. You need-

Jacob, not today. Wait. Edward says that Jane is on her way back to Italy, she needs to report. Apparently she’s preoccupied with problems elsewhere. Heidi has done a bit too much… ‘fishing’ and there are suspicions. She has gone to… sort out what people know, and dispose of those-

SETH! I GOT IT! Don’t plague me with their evil. Get to the point.

Right, well. Jane will be gone from tomorrow till early next week, roughly. Charles and Theodore are talking at the moment. Theodore thinks they should prompt Bella while Jane is gone, try and get her to remember. Alice says that Charles will give in tomorrow, and that they’ll try at six in the evening, after Jane has left. That’s when you go to the house. Appear as a wolf, then change into a man. Tell them you knew Bella as a human and that you can help to explain. Alice thinks they’ll welcome your help, but be wary. If it works you’ll have enough time to get her out, just.

Got it, I’ll report back later. With that I changed back into human form. I knew it was risky with bloodsuckers close, but I wanted some time on my own. Seth would get the message and change back… I think. Till then I’d wait and try not to think about tomorrow…

… About her and the way she used to smell, about her laugh and her smile that warmed my beating heart.

Bella, I love you… I’ll be waiting in the wings…