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The Animal Within

Jacob Black was not a man of many words, instead he filled his world with thoughts. Thoughts of Bella Swan who was soon to become a vampire. Little did he know that he still featured in her mind although her heart was the possession of another man. Will he ever free himself from the curse of loving Bella Swan, and if so: at what price?

Edward Cullen was an articulate man whose world revolved around Bella Swan. She filled his senses and completed him after years of roaming the world half-empty. He knew she loved another but held tightly onto the promise that she loved him more. Will his stars be re-aligned?

Inside us all is an animal raging to be free but you only know too late when it’s been set loose... And once it has, is there any chance of caging the beast?


3. Chapter 3: Love Kills

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We walked through the door and I fell onto the couch, Edward moved to the piano and Alice danced lightly into Jasper’s arms.

“Awh, you’re no fun! I wanted you ROUND,” Emmett joked.

“I feel round. And full, extremely full. I won’t need to eat for the next decade, at least!” This sent a nervous giggle around the Cullens and immediately I realised what I had said: of course I would need to eat, but a very different type of food. Jasper sensed my discomfort and I instantly relaxed, I smiled at him thankfully.

The rest of the evening was spent chatting until finally I went to sit with Edward, “Are you sure you really want this?”

I sighed, “Yes. I won’t be some wrinkly old woman in love with a seventeen-year-old boy. And not loving you just isn’t an option. When you… Well, when I thought you didn’t love me, I tried not to love you, but loving you is all I know how to do. Without it… Remember how you went to Italy when you thought…? Well, I don’t ever want to have to put you in that situation again. But more than that, I feel the same way about you. If somehow they sucked all the oxygen out of the atmosphere, but left you by my side, I’d find a way to survive, because I’d have all I needed to get on with it. Edward Cullen, I love you so much, you could never comprehend… What I’m giving up for eternity with you is a very small price to pay.”

His topaz eyes glittered in front of my face with a mixture of pain, love and understanding. “You don’t have to do-”

I put my fingers to his lips, “Shut up and kiss me.”

He gently muttered, “I love you” before taking me in his arms and kissing me at first with urgency and then tenderly, as if remembering that time was no longer an issue.

I tried to be strong and said, “Let’s get this over with…” but my voice cracked and faded.

Carlisle moved forwards and put his hand on my shoulder, “If you really want to go through with this then follow me. Edward will turn you, but not here. We’ve had to… prepare for this in another room.” I nodded gently and followed him up the stairs into Edward’s room. But what I saw wasn’t the room I was used to: instead it housed a bed with ropes and chains at the foot. I tried a joke, “A bit kinky, don’t you think?”

Edward winced, Carlisle smiled and Emmett chuckled. I could almost feel Rosalie rolling her eyes and I knew that Alice and Jasper would be tense. Esme was flitting around the room smoothing things out, refusing to stop or slow. Then with a nod from Carlisle they all filtered out.

Edward instantly held me in his arms, “I don’t know if I can do this.”

“Edward, you can and you will. Don’t think about my pain, think about a hundred years from now. Think about us, forever. This isn’t the end, don’t think of it that way. Think of this as a new beginning.” I looked up into his beautiful eyes, “No matter how many times I beg you to end it, don’t. No matter how many times I tell you that I regret it, don’t believe me. I say silly things when my body feels like its on fire.”

His lips lifted into a smile but it didn’t reach his eyes, “I love you Isabella Swan-Cullen… Masen. If this is really what you want, then I will give it to you.” I nodded. “Then sit over on the bed.”

I stumbled forwards with Edward’s hands clutched in mine. He lay down next to me and held me in his arms, “I’ll be waiting right here until it’s over. Right here.”

I nodded, fear had me in a stronghold and I couldn’t breathe never mind speak. I kissed him and he kissed back, but he didn’t restrain himself: he let himself go. His tongue slid into my mouth and found mine, his hands wandered over my body taking in everything. When the magic finally ended he looked into my eyes and searched my face, for what I did not know. With a sigh he moved towards my neck and resting his nose on my collarbone whispered, “I love you” before sinking his teeth in.

The walls were suddenly moving, rushing towards me as the room grew smaller and smaller. I could feel each particle of air as it fiercely pushed it’s way into my lungs and then flew out, scraping against my windpipe. My heart grew tired as it half-heartedly pumped blood around my body and I let out a scream to urge it onwards. Then I was set on fire, I felt it spreading through me like a forest fire chased by the wind. - It was the wind that cooled me whilst the fire heated, and the mixture left me feeling both hot and cold. I screamed again, but it felt as though I never stopped… And then everything went black.

Author’s Note: I didn’t want to cheat you guys of the actual change. I didn’t want to ‘beat about the bush’ so I thought I’d try and describe it. There is more of the change in the next chapter, so if you feel this wasn’t enough – don’t worry! I don’t know how I did so tell me what you think! This is going somewhere… I know it doesn’t seem like it now, but you’ll see, I hope. R&R! Thanks, - Chrys.