Text Size Large SizeMedium SizeSmall Size    Color Scheme Black SchemeWhite SchemeGrey SchemePaper Scheme        

The Animal Within

Summary:
Jacob Black was not a man of many words, instead he filled his world with thoughts. Thoughts of Bella Swan who was soon to become a vampire. Little did he know that he still featured in her mind although her heart was the possession of another man. Will he ever free himself from the curse of loving Bella Swan, and if so: at what price?

Edward Cullen was an articulate man whose world revolved around Bella Swan. She filled his senses and completed him after years of roaming the world half-empty. He knew she loved another but held tightly onto the promise that she loved him more. Will his stars be re-aligned?

Inside us all is an animal raging to be free but you only know too late when it’s been set loose... And once it has, is there any chance of caging the beast?


Notes:


6. Chapter 6: Vacillating Vampire

Rating 0/5   Word Count 1016   Review this Chapter

I could see images flashing through my mind and I tried not to focus on Jacob ripping my limbs apart. I could feel my tense body starting to ease into the rhythm of running and I was glad to be able to focus on something else: I turned my attention to each muscle in my body and concentrated on how and when it moved.

After running for hours the sky darkened and all around me there were shadows. I stopped and sniffed glad that I was unable to pick up anything alive. I feared for the safety of anything that crossed my path. I thought of Edward and how worried he must be. I wondered if he was following my trail… This is something I have to do on my own, I screamed in my thoughts, hoping he could hear me… I knew it was pointless. I knew he would come for me.

I stood up and fidgeted. I had never done this before, how was I meant to cover my tracks? I turned to my senses and searched for a river, a lake… something wet. In the movies they’d always trudged through the water to lose their scent and I hoped it would work. I tried to filter out all the smells that clogged my nose in search for what a fish used to smell like to me, but I couldn’t find any. I was getting frustrated, why was this so hard? I tried again focusing this time on the sound of water.

I could hear every damn thing but not water. I tried harder, letting myself go and feeling myself move instantaneously in multiple directions. I could faintly hear water running. I collected myself and then set off immediately for the water, weaving in and out of the trees, turning around and then coming back, trying desperately to complicate my tracks. I found some mud and rolled in it. I then scraped it off and flung it in different directions. I gathered up the biggest leaves I could find and wrapped my shoes in them. I felt like an idiot, but I wasn’t going to let any part of me touch the forest and leave a mark. I covered myself in more mud trying to block out the scent I knew was sliding off me and then I moved once again towards the water.

I giggled as I looked into the river: I was a huge brown blob with leaf-feet. I felt my defences cracking and I let the laughter tumble from inside. For what felt like hours I stood there shaking with laughter oblivious to the sounds of the forest. I snapped out of it and eased myself into the icy water, the cold did not register as I carefully set about unwinding the leaves and letting them float downstream in the current. I watched them go thinking of the help I was leaving behind and swam in the opposite direction. Edward, forgive me…

As I felt the mud loosen its grip on my skin I thought of what I was going to do next and realised I hadn’t a clue. If Jacob tried to kill me, would I kill him to save myself? If I had to choose between Edward’s happiness and Jacob’s life, which would I choose?

I lost myself in thought as I fell into a rhythm once again trying to block out the pain but failing as I realised it was inevitable.

I finally stopped when I could no longer concentrate on my muscles and instead moved back into my marsh of thoughts. I was bogged down no matter which way I thought about it.

I could turn back now, find Edward and we could fight this together, as a team. As husband and wife against an outsider, the one who wanted to shatter our happiness. I knew he was worrying and it almost broke my heart to think of him like that. No Bella, he has nothing to do with this. This is your fight. I knew I was right, I couldn’t stand hurting Edward but I wouldn’t be able to live with myself after knowingly bringing him into danger.

You have to do this alone. I knew I would have to fight Jacob if he attacked me and I thought back to the days when Edward had left me. Jacob was my sun, he had filled up my life… Could I really attack him? Would I be able to hurt him?

“Oh Jacob. What have you done?” I sighed, still deciding what I would and wouldn’t be able to do. If Jacob attacked me fighting back would be self-defence I argued. – But I was stronger than he was, he stood no chance… But he was more experienced!

“Oh god, Edward… I love you.” I repeated the words over and over in my head hoping that, somehow, he would hear me. Then I stood up and spread my scent around the clearing. I wanted to be found.

The monster inside me raised its angry head and growled as I realised I was hungrier than I’d ever been. Day one of being a newborn and I had yet to taste the wonders of blood. As I sat on a rock, waiting, I wondered if I’d be able to stop myself from drinking Jacob dry.

No, he’ll be tasty. I can just imagine.
I shuddered with both disgust and anticipation at the thought of Jacob’s blood slowly slithering down my throat. I growled and tried to think of something else but his blood consumed me and I was sent into a dream.

I hardly heard him approach and with a deafening roar, the fight began.

Author’s Note: I know, I’m so mean! Sorry I was planning to include the fight in this but I just got caught up in describing everything… I don’t want to continue on with that here… It’ll get too long! This was supposed to be the end! Hehe (: Now you’ll just have to wait. R&R! Tell me what you think is going to happen!!