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The Animal Within

Summary:
Jacob Black was not a man of many words, instead he filled his world with thoughts. Thoughts of Bella Swan who was soon to become a vampire. Little did he know that he still featured in her mind although her heart was the possession of another man. Will he ever free himself from the curse of loving Bella Swan, and if so: at what price?

Edward Cullen was an articulate man whose world revolved around Bella Swan. She filled his senses and completed him after years of roaming the world half-empty. He knew she loved another but held tightly onto the promise that she loved him more. Will his stars be re-aligned?

Inside us all is an animal raging to be free but you only know too late when it’s been set loose... And once it has, is there any chance of caging the beast?


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7. Chapter 7: Final Fight

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I felt the roar rumble through the air and it hit me in the chest as I looked into his endlessly deep eyes. I started to fall into them and open my heart: I wanted nothing more than to embrace him, tell him I was sorry… I really was sorry for all the hurt that I had caused, I’d never wanted to lead him on and I knew I had. I led him right into the centre of my heart and I followed his curling finger right into the centre of his. We were stuck in checkmate… I wondered whose it was as I leapt out the way as he charged towards me.

The animal inside me took control and I laughed cruelly, “You’ll have to be so much faster than that Jacob.” I fought against myself, trying to find my way to the surface but I was drowning in the smell of his blood.

I heard him growl as he raised his front paws and standing on his back legs let out a scream that sounded so human. I instantly swam for my life and upon reaching the surface I pushed down the monster, “Jacob, oh Jacob!” I ran over to him, he’d phased and was lying bare for all to see. His muscles twitched and his body shook but I held him tight and whispered in his ear all the things I’d yearned to tell him. I told him about all my dreams hoping he would understand he wasn’t alone.

“I miss you Bella. Every time I thought I saw you I wandered over and I hugged you but you screamed… You ran… I chased you and then realised it wasn’t you! I couldn’t control myself. I was so angry that I had let you slip through my fingers… again… I-I… I think I killed them…”

“I know Jacob, I know. Sam told-”

“SAM?!” He jumped up. “He’s been in my head? I knew it. I knew it. Damn him. That’s my space, I need my privacy. HOW DARE HE…?! It’s not FAIR. I hate him. I wish I could kill him. I’m going to find him… I’m going to…” I recoiled from him and I could feel the horror that was etching into my face, I tried to compose myself but this wasn’t the boy that I knew. The boy that I thought I was in love with… His body shook more deeply and he turned to face me with rage brimming over his eyes and washing all over his body. I saw the rage edge out of his eyes as sadness tried to take over. “Bella, my Bella… You’re not really mine. You’re… his. That filthy bloodsuckerstole you from me! You were meant to be mine. Nature wanted you to be mine.”

I stood stock-still as memories flooded my mind. I thought of Edward and his embrace, I thought of our wedding day when he had not been able to take his eyes off me. I remembered seeing my face reflected in his eyes, so full of love. I wanted to be with Edward. I realised what Jacob was saying… We belonged together… In a different life. For the rest of my days... For every second of every minute I would be Edward’s, I promised. I nodded slowly, “Goodbye Jacob.” My voice was hoarse. I turned around and walked away disgusted that I would fall in love so easily with another man, I’m so sorry Edward, I love you.

I heard another growl building inside of Jacob and I turned to see him tremble. At first I didn’t catch it, but he was saying my name, “Bella… Bella… I love you… Bella… Be mine…” His trembling quickly progressed and he shook violently. He whispered, “I’m so sorry” as he phased again and bounded towards me howling.

I didn’t think: It was instinct. I was self-defence. As he charged towards me time slowed and I didn’t react until his face was right in front of mine. I kissed him gently between the eyes as I held his head in my hands and twisted. “I LOVE YOU JACOB,” I screamed before I heard the cracking of his neck. His blood stopped pumping and the pressure eased. I could smell him but it wasn’t as seductive: I didn’t want a broken toy.

I got down on my knees and starting sobbing but no tears would run down my face. It felt like a betrayal: did my body not feel what my heart did? “I love you Edward. I’m sorry. Edward, I’m so sorry. I love you. Edward… Forgive me… Edward…” I choked on my words as anger rushed through me, how could I be so stupid? This was all my fault.

I felt his cool embrace collect me off the floor and lift me into his arms but it didn’t calm me. The anger radiated from within me and bounced off his stone body finding its way back into my heart. I screamed trying to let it go, trying to leave Jacob behind… Trying to be with Edward the way that I was supposed to be.

Or was I? I looked at Jacob’s lifeless body and shook with mock-tears, I screamed. I glanced at Edward’s eyes but did not really see him. Not my Edward. I saw a scared little boy looking into the face of someone he thought he knew… but realised he didn’t.

What do you see in me? I thought bitterly suddenly realising that maybe this was one time to many… Maybe he didn’t see anything in me… Not anymore.

I cannot cage the animal that roars inside my soul, I thought as I fought against his hold. “DO YOU LOVE ME?” I screamed. I couldn’t take it any more. What have I done?

Edward studied my face, “Bella Cullen… I will… always love you. I just…” His voice faded.

I ran into the trees and I felt the earth shake as he fell to his knees. He mourned for the loss of the girl he loved as the monster within me took over. I cackled and screamed with delight. He would come after me; someday he would want to finish what he started. I’d be waiting.

There is definitely no cage fit to hold me,
I smiled and let out another squeal and the birds took flight. It was just like out of the movies. – Only this time it would be different. Who says the bad guys don’t get happy endings?

Author’s Note: So you’re probably wondering: where the hell did that come from? Well. I got the idea of Bella having a beast she could not tame from one of my favourite Movies: XMEN – The Last Stand. I was reminded a bit of Jean? You know the whole caught between two guys, and the end where the Phoenix fights to be free?

It fit nicely although it wasn’t my original plan. Originally I had Jacob refusing to eat and losing strength. Bella would go out to find him and she would fall for him but he would realise he no longer loved her… And so on & so forth.

However I sat down at my computer attempting to write that version but it just wouldn’t work. Instead this version tickled my fancy and I let myself be swept away. I wrote it all out in Scotland when I had no Internet connection and have been waiting to upload it ever since… It’s finally finished! I want to know what you all think, so please please please write reviews, and don’t forget to rate!

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