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Random thoughts

Summary:
I put my mind in Bella's and i thougth for a while and just typed really fast. I know it doesn't sound exactly like Bella, because it is me thinking, but use your imagination.


Notes:
It may be slightly confusing, but don't give up. It is meant to bring up points for YOU to think about yourself.


1. Thoughts #1-5

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Thought #1

Now, this is me, Bella. I am just thinking, thinking to myself. I do babble a lot you know. Do you think that it is possible that I am truly meant to be with, and love for eternity, Jacob Black? I don’t know, I was just thinking. But, you have to put into consideration that Edward Cullen and the rest of his abnormal vampire family is just that, abnormal. I don’t think that they were meant to still be here, alive and on earth. So, if fate had gone correctly, Edward would not be here, and I would have no doubt in my mind that Jacob was for me. But, now that Edward is here, he is my love, and Jacob . . . well Jacob is the one who gets hurt. Confusing, isn’t it?

Thought #2

Now, I am thinking again. I love Edward, and I love him with every ounce of my soul, and I am sure he loves me the same. Well, that would depend on whether he had a soul or not, but I believe he does. That is not the issue though. I truly and totally believe that I will spend the rest of my life with Edward. After my life is over though, that is another controversial issue, which I will not go into right now. But I am wondering if Jacob will be alright. I mean, will he find someone else he loves, and will he ever be happy again? I love Jacob too much to let him live the rest of his life alone and miserable.

Thought #3

I am beginning to think that when I think, I am thinking to hard and making everything more difficult than it should be, and there for putting my well being and my mental health in danger. Wait, what?

Thought #4

Love is a funny word. I don’t fully understand it, or what it is supposed to be, but I do know it is what I feel when I am with Edward. But I know it is also what I feel when I am with Charlie, and also with Jacob. So, there are obviously different layers and parts of love, but is there and supreme love. Is the greatest love the love a parent gives to a child or the comfort a friend gives to a friend? Or maybe it is the burst of passion and the feeling of loyalty you get from a lover. Or is love a myth, and is what I am feeling now with Edward all going to fade away? I hope not, because . . . well, I love him.

Thought #5

I know I am going to become a vampire. The thoughts about love, and life, and more thoughts about love, it just kind of makes me want to be a vampire more. I don’t want to die eventually and leave him behind. What kind if happiness could you possibly have, even if there is a heaven, if you don’t have the one you have spent your whole life with and love the most right by your side. I think too much.