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Edward leaves Bella. The Volturi find a human aware of them, and come for her. Thirteen years later, Bella is a trained member of the guard, loyal, important, enslaved… Readers- I’m moving accounts. This was a shared account with someone who doesn’t really like me anymore. So I’ll post this to all the stories I wrote (I’ll only continue some) then you can read them. Continuing: Complications, Goneandnevercomingback., Marionette, mynewLife, and SpilledMascara. If what you read wasn’t listed and you want it continued, tell me through the “contactauthors” button on the “elainamorrigan” account why I should continue. -elle/Twizzler

Twisler Terrier All these characters (with the exception of Azuria named after my beautiful cat) belong to Stephenie Meyer.

7. What have I done?

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“I loved a James, not you. I keep telling you, I’m not your Bella.” I told Edward, “Again, I’m sorry,”

He clenched his teeth, “No, Isabella-”

That was the snap, I don’t know why he was changing his game up, but I’d had enough. I got right up in his face, “You listen to me, Edward Cullen. I don’t know if you’re trying to trick me, or if you’re really that thick, but I’ve had enough of this charade. You can stop the act; I’ve already shown you that I didn’t know you. I assume you didn’t have an irrational obsession with a worthless human like James. Either way, I am not Bella. I am not Isabella. And I most certainly was not your girlfriend! So shut up and listen to me or stop it and leave me the hell alone!

“Stop it Bella,” he yelled back, “You were human when you loved me, what changed?”

“No, you stop, I don’t care if you left her, she’s probably better off with out a stupid, crazy, vampire like you! She probably didn’t need death breathing down her neck everyday!” I screeched.

He backed away, “Give me a minute,” I guess I hit the mark, I was smug.

I continued to glare; he turned on his heel and left the house.

Edward’s Point Of View

I wasn’t expecting her to be so harsh. I almost laughed at that. I left her, weak, vulnerable, of course she’d get over it and build a wall. It was what I’d wanted, for her to get over it and lead a normal life.

But this Bella, I certainly didn’t want. I wanted her to be happy and healthy, human. I wanted her to have a human husband and a human child. I always blamed myself. I wanted her and I took her. I never thought about how any of my actions would affect her that much.

She’d been through more than I could have dreamed of. I flinched, remembering it. She showed me the torture Azuria put her through. I felt the pain she felt. I felt the sting. I felt the burn. It took every ounce of my strength to not start screaming myself. If I hadn’t been leaning against the wall, I would have been on the ground.

I also felt the torture I gave her. I felt the hollow, sinking feeling. I felt the ripping at my stomach. When I was there, to her, it was like I was her life raft. Then I disappeared out from under her and she sunk. I was nowhere to be found. I caused her more pain than Azuria could dream of.

What was worse for me was knowing that she’d been through that. From day one I’ve wanted, needed to protect her. Even when I wanted to kill her, I subconsciously knew I needed to keep her safe. I feel like I failed the one job given to me. I saved her life more than once, I’ve told her I loved her more than once.

But that is exactly what broke her. I loved her, I kissed her, I left her, I broke her. I didn’t think she had actually loved me as much as I had loved her. I didn’t think I would hurt her, break her. I didn’t think I would cause her so much pain. I didn’t think the pain and sadness I saw on her face the day I left would stay. I didn’t think. I didn’t think. I didn’t think.

I was a monster. I am a monster. What have I done?

I called Carlisle out; I needed to talk to him.

“Edward,” he asked, “what’s wrong?”

“Why is she like that Carlisle? It was only a few years, surely she couldn’t forget and create an entirely new person in a few years.”

“Edward, I’m going to be completely honest with you.” he said.

I waited.

“You’re a blind fool. She’s a vampire, Edward, we’re distracted easily. Strong emotions can alter us in permanent ways. Think of the things you left her with: pain, sadness, betrayal, low self esteem. Now put that together with what the Volturi gave her: pain, anger, torture, they took away who she was. If those can’t alter someone, then I don’t know what will. Anyone will eventually cave under torture. Face it Edward, she’s forgotten. Your Bella has disappeared, and I really doubt she’ll come back.”

I was shocked. I couldn’t speak, I couldn’t move, I couldn’t breath. When the shock faded away, it was replaced with nothing, emptiness.

“Thank you, Carlisle,” I told him mechanically.

He nodded and walked inside. I followed.

Bella’s Point Of View

He finally came back in.

“Which is it?” I asked him.


I took a deep, annoyed breath.

After Azuria was made my master, the thirst was too painful. I needed to eat. It felt like my throat was torched. Aro had Heidi bring me a few humans, mostly children. I wanted to resist at first, I don’t remember why. But as soon as I could smell them, I needed them. The blood was so soothing on my throat. The burning stopped altogether.

His head snapped up, “You ate humans?!” I had no idea why he was shocked, my eyes were red. I was a member of the guard. We don’t like to live off crap like them.

I smiled, showing him the little girl I killed before we came. I showed him many other humans I killed too. I even was lucky enough to have a singer on the way here, that’s a rare treat.

He gagged, I smirked.

I think the singer’s name was Amber…

He looked horrified.

You don’t know what you’re missing out on.

“Yes,” he said, “I do.”

“You had a singer?” I asked skeptically.

He nodded, “It was you.”

I rolled my eyes, I wasn’t dead, well, not like that anyway.

He looked like he was about to argue, but I interrupted, “Are you going to shut up and listen or what?”

He sighed and stood still.

Felix was nice to me my whole life, even when I’d yell at him with accusations. He endured them and kept his promise. Eventually I was molded into the loyal, important guard member I am today-

Out of nowhere Edward growled.

“What?” I said.

“Felix is coming to see you,” He hissed.

I smiled and ran out, he was waiting for me at the edge of the forest.

He scooped me up and kissed me. “Hey, how are you?” He asked.


He smiled, “You know what I mean,”

“Well they won’t leave me alone,” I sighed, “But no, I’m not hurt. And you?”

“Bored, Jasper has this calm thing about him, it’s weird and annoying. But you can’t be upset until later.” He grimaced.

I laughed, “Trade you! I’m stuck in a house with a mind reader and a physic, gag.”

He smiled. “It’s hard to be away from you, I have this urge to come and protect you.”

“This make you feel better?” I kissed him again, he laughed and nodded.

His phone rang, “Alright!” he yelled, “Jeez!”

I looked at him questioningly.

“Jane,” he said. I sighed and let him go. He waved and left.

When I got back in the house, Edward was standing there, his hands clenched in fists. I rolled my eyes.

“I could kill him for what he thought about you,” He hissed.

“Oh my god! I’m his mate for gods sake! Get over it! It’s not a big-”

“I will make you remember, one way or another, I will.” He swore.

“I don’t have anything to-”

My words were cut short.

Edward ran over and kissed me.