Breaking the habit

Memories consume
Like opening the wound
I'm picking me apart again
You all assume
I'm safe here in my room
Unless I try to start again

The memories flood my mind.

The pain rips me in two

I sit in my room

With the blade tomy wrist

Trying to make the pain go away.

I don't want to be the one
The battles always choose
'Cause inside I realize
That I'm the one confused

I don’t want to be the one in the middle anymore

The one who has to choose

I’m already confused

I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I don't know why I instigate
And say what I don't mean
I don't know how I got this way
I know it's not alright
So I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit
Tonight

What should I fight fo r

Why should I scream

I don’t want to start a figh t

I want to be left alone

I don’t know how I got this way

It happened so fast

I can feel myself breaking

Clutching my cure
I tightly lock the door
I try to catch my breath again
I hurt much more
Than anytime before
I had no options left again

I can feel the hole getting bigger

As I quickly lock my door

My breath quickens as my chest throbs painfully

I reach for the blade again

Sighing as it sears my skin

I dont want to be the one
The battles always choose
'Cause inside I realize
That I'm the one confused

I don’t want to be the one in the middle anymore

The one who has to choose

I’m already confused

I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I don't know why I instigate
And say what I don't mean
I don't know how I got this way
I'll never be alright
So, I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit
Tonight

What should I fight for

Why should I scream

I don’t want to start a fight

I want to be left alone

I don’t know how I got this way

It happened so fast

I can feel myself breaking

I'll paint it on the walls
'Cause I'm the one at fault
I'll never fight again
And this is how it ends

I smear the walls

To let you all know

That I will never fight again

This is how its going to end

I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
But now I have some clarity
to show you what I mean
I don't know how I got this way
I'll never be alright
So, I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit
I’m breaking the habit
Tonight

What should I fight for

Why should I scream

At least I understand now

How to make you understand

I don’t know how I got this way

I will never be the same again

I’m breaking on the inside

My chest in splitting in two

I want to break the habit

And forget about you.