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Resolution

Summary:
Sonfic from Jacob's POV. When he runs away after receiving the wedding announcement from Edward.


Notes:
When I was writing my other story "At the Beginning with You" I wrote the chapter on Jacob's return on the song Resolution by Nick Lachey. I love this song and thought it would be a perfect song that could be used from Jacob's POV.


1. Resolution

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My heart hurt! I couldn’t believe that bloodsucker sent me an invitation to his wedding. Did he seriously think that I want to see the woman of my dreams marry my mortal enemy? Seriously. I looked out over the water at First Beach.

Breathing in an open space

I tried to calm myself down. Leah was being her usual pushy self and right now anger was continuing to get the best of me. I looked to my left and saw… our bench.


Captured by a moment's grace… again

This was the one place where Bella and I would always exist. The place where we would be together. This was our little piece of Heaven. This is where we would sit, for hours and hours on end, before he returned. Tears began to well up in my eyes as I thought about my Bella. I always thought that she… I had to run.


There's so much I left behind

I ran as fast as I could. I left my family, friends and… Bella… behind. I couldn’t return home. I phased as I left. I could hear the thoughts of my friends in the background, begging me to let them go with me. Quil and Embry tried to follow…I begged for them to leave my head.


Even more that waits in time
Everything's so undefined

I'm standing on the edge of my fear
And I see it clear

I felt free when I ran. Bella had always loved me more as a dog. She made her choice. I fought the good fight. I tried my best to help her see the real me… the one that she truly loves. My love for her knows no definition. I love her more than I love being a werewolf, more than Billy, even more than I love my car…



Here's my resolution
I'm letting go
All I need to learn is along this road
And I just want to be the best man I can be
Breathe…

It's my resolution

I let go of everything. I let go of Bella, my father, my family, my pack. I let go of my humanity. I wanted to live my life as a wolf. I let the wolf senses take over. I didn’t hurt nearly as much when I was in this form. My wild side just sort of took over. I was more animal than man. I was free..


Living life without a plan
Finding solace where I stand
And learning how to love again

And all I want is something real
That I can feel

I wasn’t sure what I would do or where I would go. All I knew for certain was that I wanted to be alone. But then again, I wanted to find someone who would love me for me. I wanted… well truthfully… I wanted Bella. The very thought of her flooded my senses and caused the earth to blaze red beneath me. I wanted her to pick me over him. I wanted her to lie in my arms at night. I simply wanted her…


Here's my resolution
I'm letting go
All I need to learn is along this road
And I just wanna be the best man I can be

All too soon I realized that no matter what I wanted, she wanted something different. I knew that she loved me, but not nearly as much as she wanted him. She loved me, but not nearly as much as she had loved him. She wanted to be in my arms… once more, not nearly as much as she wanted his. I had to force her from my memory. I worked on it, allowing everything to disappear.


'Cause here's my resolution
I'm letting go
All I need to learn is along this road
And I just wanna be the best man I can be
Breathe…

It's my resolution

When I finished running I was in Canada. I had come to a lake to take a cooling sip of water. I looked at my reflection. I was what I resolved myself to be. I was what I needed to be. I was the lone wolf… I was… a Lobo.


My resolution