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Airports, Emotios, and Anger

Summary:
"Do you mind?" The question was quite and hesitant. I looked down to see wide brown eyes staring up at me and I realized she was gesturing towards the lady's room. "I'll only be a moment" Jasper's POV when Bella escapes in Phoenix. From before she asks to use the bathroom till after Edward arrives.


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1. Gone

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Airports, Emotions, and Anger

Part One- "Gone"

"I'm proud of you" Alice murmured, so low only I could hear her. I met her eyes and she grinned "You're doing great"

I smiled softly back. How I wish I had the never ending confidence she seemed to have in me.

We were currently sitting in a crowded airport waiting for Edward and the others to arrive.

And the place was packed with bustling humans.

The warmth and smell that scorched my throat and pooled my mouth with venom filled every particle in the air, taunting me, testing me.

There was no relief, no corner I could run to, no window to open, nothing to help push back the agonizing never-ending temptations that made up who I was... what I was.

I had to admit though, I was also a bit proud of myself. It seemed I had been doing better in these last couple of days than I had the whole school year.

However, I also knew this wasn't so much due to the fact that I had improved in my self control as I had much more important things to be paying attention to.

The main core of this was currently sitting next to me.

I was confused when Edward had brought Bella Swan into our lives. I didn't quite understand what it was about this girl that seemed to draw his attention.

I could somewhat understand his thirst, Bella did seem to have a slightly different smell than the other human girls I have come across, but it's so slight to me I wouldn't have really noticed if I wasn't looking for it. If I were to put a name to it I would say it seemed to be sweeter some how, floral maybe.

That first day she had been brought to our home, besides being shocked that the girl was still alive because I did in fact place my own bet on the issue of their "date", I was surprised to see Edward so carefree, excited even.

He was so different from the Edward I had met over 50 years ago. And it all seemed to happen over night.

I have always been slightly fascinated with Edward because it was almost a relief to tune into him instead of the others. Most of the time I would get nothing from him. Like he was numb and just existing through everyday life. I would get the small things that were an everyday occurrence, but nothing strong and clear like I was use to.

It was almost like my ability couldn't work on him properly. The only time anything really strong came through was when he was angry, those were the times I avoided him.

His anger, no matter how small, when pushed was nearly over whelming. It didn't happen often but when it did it made up for all the other times he held back.

But everything had changed when Bella Swan moved to the rainy town of Forks. The Edward I knew, the composed serious Edward, was now gone. Replaced with a crazed, century old hormonal teenager.

The confused jumbled of emotions that radiated off him these days was nearly too much for me to handle. The range and level changed so rapidly at times it left me disoriented and beyond irritated.

It was like this human girl next to me had hit his well structured wall so fiercely it all crashed down and everything he had been suppressing through the years flooded through him all at once.

And me being who and what I was, unfortunately, felt every second of it when he was around.

When Alice and I had walked into Edward's room that first day, the emotion that hit me was unbelievable. It even over powered the excruciating pain and thirst that radiated from him at having Bella on his lap.

It was Like nothing I had ever felt before. And that was saying something, for I had felt a lot of love in my new life.

The love between Carlisle and Esme, Rosalie and Emmet, and then of course my beautiful Alice, they all were strong and potent, but what I felt coming off, not only Edward but Bella as well, was different.

It was just as strong as what I've felt before but there was something unique about it, I couldn't really explain it to myself; it seemed pure... raw almost.

It had taken me by complete surprise and it was scary to think about, especially for Edward. Seeing him so open and free for the first time. I knew that if something were to happen to this human...well it was hard to think of.

Later on that same day, while we were getting ready for our game, I had spoken to Alice about it, expressed my slight fear. Because even though the feeling I had felt pouring off Edward was Love, very strong love, I knew it could easily turn to a pain just as powerful, especially when said love rested in the life of such a fragile being.

Alice of course just gave me her soft knowing smile and reminded me of what she had seen, and though Edward was still dead set against it, her vision "remained clear as day". Alice had then shrugged her shoulders and said simply "They were meant for each other Jasper, trust me"

A soft ‘tap tap tap' pulled me from my thoughts. I frowned and looked down at the very girl that had changed it all, changed my new brother and family so Irrevocably.

Bella's small foot had begun to bounce up and down on the ground and as I felt the anxiety rise up in her yet again I exchanged a quick glance with Alice.

I knew this girl had been on an emotional rollercoaster the last few days, but I had hoped that the news of Edward coming back would help to calm her wild emotions. But it seemed the closer Edward's plane came to arriving the worse they got...

They were currently running through her like fire, I couldn't pin point just one. I tried to concentrate on an emotion that seemed the strongest so I would now what to spread towards her....

Worry...

Fear...

Restlessness...

Affection...

And...guilt?

I was pulled from my focus as she leaned forward, her scent hitting me full force. I swallowed and once again pushed down my never ending urges.

With a slight shake of her hand Bella placed a white envelope on Alice's bag. "My letter" she said quietly.

Yes, there defiantly was guilt there, and something else... regret maybe?

I shook my head slightly, what was it that was making her feel such things?

I decided to leave it be, I didn't want to send some kind of emotion towards her and create an even bigger mess. Edward would be here soon and it would get better. Of that at least, I was sure of.

We continued to sit in silence and after a while I began to feel Bella's anxiety grow. Then suddenly a huge wave of it washed over me, mixed with fear. I looked at her to see if anything was wrong but she had turned towards Alice speaking fast "I think I'll eat now"

Alice stood up "I'll come with you"

"Do you mind if Jasper comes instead?"

That one surprised me. I would think she would feel more comfortable with Alice. Then she added "I'm feeling a little..." She didn't finish. I couldn't blame her. Hell, I couldn't even figure out what she was feeling.

Alice looked at me, and reading her eyes I gave a slight nod of my head, silently telling her it was okay and that I could in fact handle it alone.

Staying close to Bella, we made our way through the crowds. I tried to keep my eyes peeled for any kind of danger but the smells rushing towards me were like a punch in the gut. Every time a person rushed by it was another blow.

I placed my hand on her back, not only making sure she didn't get tugged away from me in the crowd, but also to keep myself clear headed. To remind me of what it was I was doing and why.

"Do you mind?" The question was quite and hesitant. I looked down to see wide brown eyes staring up at me and I realized she was gesturing towards the lady's room. "I'll only be a moment"

I nearly hesitated. Alice's words echoed in my ears from that morning ‘Whatever we do we can't let her out of our sight Jasper. I don't know how he's going to get to her but that vision is still there, it hasn't changed'

But how could James possibly get to her in a bathroom? After all he would have to go through me first.

"I'll be right here"

And she was gone the door swinging close behind her.

I waited.

Two minutes

Five minutes

How long did it take a human girl to take care of her business? It had been way too long since I had been human so I honestly couldn't remember.

Ten minutes

I was getting a bit edgy now; surely it didn't take this long.

Unless maybe she was getting sick, that really wouldn't surprise me, everything was bound to catch up to her sooner or later. The human mind could only take so much at one time.

I debated on rather or not to check in on her, it was a ladies room after all.

At that moment however an elderly women walked in.

Sighing to myself I continued to wait

It had now been a little over Fifteen minutes and the other person had already left.

Feeling more and more uneasy I made up my mind and walked towards the door. Just as I was about to push it open I heard someone yell my name.

"Jasper...Jasper!" spinning around I saw Alice running towards me, smoothly dodging the crowd that seemed to be moving in the opposite direction.

"Where is she?" she asked frantically coming to a stop in front of me.

"She had to..." I pointed to the bathroom but before I could finish she had moved towards the door and threw it open.

Her next reaction made me freeze with dread.

Alice moaned and leaned against the wall before she buried her face in her hands, one hand holding a crumpled piece of paper.

This show of, what seemed to be weakness, coming from my Alice, shook me to the core. And then as I looked through the now open door I saw the red exit sign over yet another door in the same bathroom.

"She's gone" It was all I could say.

Three very long seconds ticked by in which neither of us moved, but it felt much longer. I was about to ask her if she could see anything else but before I could speak, Alice straightened up quickly.

"Edward!"

At first I thought she was crying his name in realization that Edward would in fact be here any minute and we would have to explain why Bella wasn't with us. But as I took in her horrified expression, her wide eyes locked over my shoulder, I knew as I turned around whom I would see.

But turn around I did, what else was there to do?

And that's when I saw them walking towards us. Carlisle, Emmet, and Edward, the last of whom seemed to be searching for a face I knew he would not find.

This was going to get ugly.