Nessie has graduated High School and looking forward to her new life at Yale. With Jacob by her side and Edward and Bella's encouragment, Nessie faces life, adventure, and possible threats to her family as she finds herself.
I do not own these characters...just borrowing them from Stephenie Meyer.
1. Chapter 1 - Changes
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Rain drizzled on the window of the little stone cottage in the woods. It rains every day in Forks, well, it seems like it rains every day. I thought as she looked out the window; waiting, wondering. Staring at my rain streaked reflection in the window, I can’t help but to think about my life. I have always had whatever I wanted, I’ve never wished for something that wasn’t given to me. With a father like mine, I don’t even have to say a word when comes to my needs and wants, he reads my thoughts like an open book. So what is missing from my life? I bit my lip, contemplating my life. I am glad that I have the house to myself. The ability to be able to think whatever I wish and not have to worry about the sad look in dad’s eyes when I think of something unhappy is a welcome change from the façade I keep of constant happiness.
Sometimes I believe the façade; I have no reason not to be happy. I have pretty much everything. A perfect Mom and Dad, Aunts and Uncles who would do anything for me, Grandparents who love nothing more then just being with me. And I have my Jacob. I feel a smile spread across my face as I think about Jacob. My Jacob. I feel so ungrateful and selfish that I would ever think that I am missing something. Mom and Dad have done everything they could to make sure I have a normal life, well as normal as a 4 year old teenager could have. Maybe I am feeling this way because we are leaving so soon. Since I graduated high school two weeks ago, it feels like I don’t know what I am doing. Mom and Dad assure me that I will be happy at our new home, and Jacob will be coming too. But Connecticut is so far away from Forks. I’ll be so far away from the rest of the pack, and Grandpa Charlie. Even though everyone promises to visit, the thought of leaving everything I love so much breaks my heart.
I turn away from the window and the rain that I have come to love and go to the kitchen. I’m not really hungry, I hunted with Alice this morning, but the pint of Ben & Jerry’s in the freezer is calling to me. And Jacob will be over soon, and there should be some food for him since he always likes to eat. “Jacob”, I sighed aloud as I dug my spoon into the Mint Chocolate Cookie ice cream. Things have been changing between us too. I have always felt like Jacob was mine and that we have a bond that is so unexplainable, it has to be magic. Jacob said we needed to talk today, and he said it in that serious voice he uses sometimes. I feel like it’s going to be something big. Horror struck me. What if Jacob isn’t coming to Connecticut? Maybe that’s why Mom and Dad left, so that they don’t have to be around to hear my heart break. So Dad doesn’t have see and feel the pain in my mind. I glance at the clock on the wall, its 2 o’clock now, so Jacob will be here in an hour. I walk to my room to look in the mirror, pint in hand. I stare at my reflection. Maybe if I looked extra pretty today, Jacob couldn’t tell me he’s not coming with us. Maybe he would have to stay. Everyone always tells me how beautiful I am, how stunning. As I look in the mirror, I can see what they mean. I have my mother’s chocolate brown eyes, at least, the eyes she used to have, my dad’s hair color. Maybe Alice would come over to help get ready, help me look extra special. Can Alice make me look un-leavable?
I contemplate my options as I put away the half eaten pint of ice cream. Maybe Alice would tell me what will happen tonight, though she has been avoiding me lately, probably because she has already seen what Jacob is going to do. I decide to call her to have her come over, and that second my phone buzzes awake. I smile to myself thinking how awesome my relatives are.
“Hey Alice, I was just wondering if you wanted to come over to hang out, maybe try a new make-up look or something?”
“What’s up Nessie?”
“Don’t play dumb Alice, isn’t doesn’t really work for you.”
“Yeah, I know. I’ll come over, but really, you don’t need to do anything to look stunning, and you know it…however, I did see you wearing the most incredible emerald green cocktail dress, so you know I had to buy it, so I’ll bring it over, see you in a second!”
I snapped my phone shut. So Alice has seen what is going to happen tonight, and I was wearing a cocktail dress. That is a little odd; I am usually pretty casual when it comes to hanging out with Jacob. Before I could think more about it, Alice was sitting on the couch.
“Jeez, what took you so long?” I joked. Of all the talents I inherited from my parents, the speed was not one of them, though I am grateful that I am at least faster then the average human.
“Well, let’s get to it”, Alice chirped. “Not like there is a lot we have to do for you, but Jacob is going to be early and I want to be out of here before then. I saw that Alice was trying to suppress a smile. Maybe what she saw wasn’t so bad, or maybe I had mistaken that expression and she wasn’t suppressing a smile, but weakly trying to fake one. Alice worked her magic in no time, just as she always did. She really was an amazing aunt, and I think she was happy that I didn’t quite inherit my mothers sense of fashion…I have always been Alice’s dress up doll, so I don’t think it would be possible not to love clothes like she did. Alice gave me a quick peck on the cheek and gave me that same suppressed/weak smile. Good luck she whispered as she danced out of sight.
I looked over myself in the mirror. Examining the details of the dress Alice had got for me. It truly was beautiful, and I wondered how Jacob could ever think to leave me. I could never leave My Jacob. Just as I felt tears welling in my eyes, I heard Jacobs knock. Really it was a lock of knock with a quick Hello while he was walking in. I could smell Jacob as he walked through the door. He didn’t have the same sweet smell that my family had, but it was an intense woodsy smell that filled the air. Aunt Rose hated it, but I think it is great, it reminded me of so many great memories I have with Jacob.
I walked down the short hall and turned into the kitchen where I knew Jacob would be rummaging through the fridge.
“Hi there” I murmured, slightly nervous that he would sense the tears that were fighting to come out.
“Hey Nes” He was distracted, trying to find something that was appealing. As he shut the door and looked at me, I could see the smile in his eyes.
“Jeez Nes, you look pretty dressed up for the afternoon.” Jacob said, half laughing.
“Yeah, I know, it’s Alice” I said, slightly embarrassed by my thought of trying to look un-leavable.
“Hey, I’m not complaining. As long as you don’t mind standing next to me.” Jacob teased. I could tell Jacob came in his car, his clothes were all intact, and his hair was pulled back. He looked just as good as I could ever hope for.
“So, what’s the big deal today? Are we going anywhere, or should I just go put some jeans on?” I asked. Half of me hoped we were going out; Jacob couldn’t do anything to hurt me in public, right? He would never do that. But then again if we stayed home, my desperate pleading for him to stay might not look so pathetic.
“We’re going somewhere, and you should keep the dress, I like it…but you’ll need a jacket or something.” Jacob said, looking at me over his plate of food. I left Jacob to finish eating, looking for a coat. On my bed there was a beautiful Ivory brocade coat that matched the style of the dress perfectly. Alice left a little note almost forgot! Her dainty and perfect handwriting written on a post it note. She must have snuck back in here after she left. I grabbed my coat and looked myself over one more time in the mirror, just to make sure my reflection didn’t show the total wreck I was inside. Everything looked perfect, too perfect. Maybe Jacob was tired of having other guys eye me everywhere we went; maybe he was tired of defending me. I couldn’t dwell on those thoughts. I wouldn’t allow myself, not when he was so close.
I walked back out to the living room where Jacob was now waiting for me, he had just finished eating. He held the door open for me, and as we walked out, I notice the rain had cleared up and the sun was peaking through the rain clouds. As we walked to Jacob’s car, I couldn’t turn my thoughts off; I never felt like this around Jacob, there was never tension between us. I couldn’t understand what was wrong with me. Jacob noticed how quite and distant I was, though he didn’t say anything. Was it because he knew how much he was going to hurt me. He held the door open for me as I climbed into the dark SUV. Windows were always dark for my family, at least the windows we face in public. I was lucky that my skin held only the slightest shimmer in the sun while Mom and Dad and the rest of the family sparkled in the sun.
“So, where are we going?” I asked Jacob as we drove on a small path through the forest.
“Not too far” Jacob smiled as he tapped the steering wheel to the music.
I took a deep breath, realizing that tonight could be the beginning of a new life. A new life, without my Jacob. The panic pressed on my heart from all side, and a think lump in my throat swelled. I swallowed hard and tried to keep my composure. I didn’t want to make anything harder for Jacob. I wouldn’t let him know how much this hurt, because that would make him sad, and I didn’t want Jacob to feel any pain in his life. So I sat there, composed myself, and looked forward through the windshield, wishing this car ride never had
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