After Edward left, Bella was heartbroken. The only thing that helped her get through it was Jacob, her best friend. But Jacob wants to be more than just friends. But how can she give her heart to him when it's broken? And what happens when Edward and the rest of the Cullens come back?
1. Trying to fix the broken
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I know there's no place to hide
Stuck between the burning shade and the fading light
I was broken for a long time
But it's over now
But it's over now
-Robert Pattinson: Broken
"Please Jake, please don't leave me. I won't survive without you."..."What do you want? Anything. I'll give you anything to stay. Stay with me. Please," Bella begged in her room, a few steps away from Jacob. Charlie was still at work.
Jacob looked at her with agonized eyes. He didn't want to leave, but he couldn't do this anymore. He couldn't just be her friend when he craved for more, burned for more, ached for more. He was in love with her and he knew that if she would just try, she could fall in love with him too. He stepped closer to her and cupped her cheeks, wiping her tears away. He hated seeing her cry.
"Please Jacob," she said, her voice weak and raw from emotion. He shook his head and pulled her into his embrace. "I don't want to leave, he said softly in her hair. "But I can't do this anymore. I can't just be your friend Bella. I'm in love with you. If you could just try to love me back. No, not even that, just let me love you, then I could stay, but you can't expect me to stay when you keep pulling away from me." He pulled back so he could see her face.
She looked up at him with anguished eyes. "I don't know if I can," she whispered. He shook his head again. "No, you haven't tried Bella, you're still holding on to Edward," she cringed at his name but he ignored it, "You have to let him go. He's not coming back."
She looked down as she let out a cry and fresh new tears erupted.
"I'm sorry Bella, but you have to move on. It's not healthy. It's been over two years. I helped you in the beginning, I did my best to help mend you-," Bella cut him off, "You have Jake! You have helped mend me. I don't know where I'd be without you. Without you-," she tried to continue.
"But I didn't push you. I knew you weren't ready to move on, but Bella, I can't just keep forcing down my feelings. Please Bella, we could take it slow. We don't even have to do anything, I just need to know that you will try to let him go, try to let me in," Jacob begged.
Bella bit her bottom lip and kept her eyes on the floor as she thought. She knew that what she was doing was unfair to Jacob, but it was so hard to open herself up again. She knew that if she didn't try to get over Edward that she would lose Jacob. But Jacob didn't understand how much she loved Edward, how much she still loved Edward. But it wasn't fair to herself either to keep holding on to someone who didn't love her anymore.
She looked up and into Jacob's eyes and she could see herself being in love with him. She knew that if she let go of Edward that she would fall in love with Jacob, it would be easy. As easy as it sounds- falling, just let go and leave it to gravity.
But how to let go? Deep down, she knew that she could never fully let go of Edward, but maybe if she buried him real deep inside her then she could love Jacob.
But how could Jake want her? Two years and she was still broken. A whole lot better, but still broken. But Jacob was the one that made her a whole lot better. He had found her heart's broken pieces and started to solve their puzzle, started to put them back together, after all. All that was left now was to glue the pieces back together. Could Jacob do that? Well, she had to try.
"Okay Jake, I'll try."