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Fighting Dusk

Summary:
When Edward dies suddenly in a freak accident Bella is force to try and live without him. After four months of comfort from the Cullen's she decides to kill herself. Someone turns her and she runs away from being discovered by the Cullen's. Now 12 years later Bella is living in Chicago in Edward's old house under the name Isabella Masen. What happens when the Cullen's find Bella and the truth about Edward's death unfolds? Why does Bella feel Edward is alive and in pain? IMPORTANT AUTHOR"S NOTE!!! FINAL CHAPTER!!!!!!!!! READ!


Notes:


1. Preface

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Life is cruel and completely unfair.

Ever wonder how in a split second your life can completely change? Mine did. I'd been perfectly happy and in love with my perfect man (who just happened to be a vampire) his name was Edward. Edward Cullen. He was 107 but frozen forever at 17.

One day we'd been in our meadow the day before our wedding. He promised to make me into a vampire if I married him which really wasn't much of a problem considering I wanted to be with him forever. A massive rock slide occurred. Apparently there was enough force or weight to kill the supposedly indestructible Edward. That didn't exactly go well with me. He'd left me once for my safety and I went into a zombie mode and a hole in my chest ripped open every time anything reminded me of him or someone said something. This incident put me into a mode where it was all I could do to survive. I had his family to help me try to live but that almost made it worse because each of them had their soul mates with them and mine was dead. It just wasn't fair.

Usually when a vampire is killed you burn their dead body. I refused to let anyone. Instead we buried him in our meadow at twilight his favorite time of day. We did have a service where I was supposed to give his eulogy (where someone talks about how great the person who died was and stuff like that.). I said "Edward was my soul mate and perfect match in every w-w-w-way" before I broke down crying and had his sister Alice say it for me. The wake was terrible. Seeing him there colder than usual, lifeless, motionless, and deprived of any emotion just about killed me.

His last words were "I love you Bella." I only had time to say "I love you too." Had I known that was the last thing I would ever say to him I would have told him how words cannot describe how I feel about him. I tried before to try to find word to describe how I feel about him but the most I got was "I love you more than everything in this world."

Every single night when I would close my eyes I would see the scene over and over again until I would wake up screaming and crying. It kills me and brings back the hole in my chest that had healed oh so long ago only now the hole is three million times bigger. I cried 24-7, barely slept, screamed in my sleep, and at the slightest mention or reminder of him which is just about everything I would break down crying and that hole in my chest got bigger and bigger. My father (Charlie) was afraid to say anything that would send me into a sobbing episode so he only spoke to me when necessary.

If I learned anything from the experience I learned that fate had a plan for me and Edward dying and something important was hiding in the background that I had overlooked. As had Alice the psychic, everyone had.

And it's a sad picture, the final blow hits you
Somebody else gets what you wanted again and
You know it's all the same, another time and place
Repeating history and you're getting sick of it
But I believe in whatever you do
And I'll do anything to see it through

Because these things will change
Can you feel it now?
These walls that they put up to
hold us back will fall down
This revolution, the time will come
For us to finally win
And we'll sing hallelujah, we'll sing hallelujah

So we've been outnumbered
Raided and now cornered
It's hard to fight when the fight ain't fair
We're getting stronger now
Find things they never found
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They might be bigger
But we're faster and never scared
You can walk away, say we don't need this
But there's something in your eyes
Says we can beat this

Because these things will change
Can you feel it now?
These walls that they put up to
hold us back will fall down
This revolution, the time will come
For us to finally win
And we'll sing hallelujah, well sing hallelujah

Tonight we stand, get off our knees
Fight for what we've worked for all these years
And the battle was long, it's the fight of our lives
But we'll stand up champions tonight

It was the night things changed
Can you see it now?
These walls that they put up to
hold us back fell down
It's a revolution, throw your hands up
Cause we never gave in
And we sang hallelujah, we sang hallelujah Hallelujah

Wonder why I chose that song for my story? Keep reading trust me nothing is as it seems. Everything has a way of working out eventually. Trust me!