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Perspective

Summary:
Edward told Bella he had talked with his father and brothers regarding their wedding night. This is my version of that missing moment from between Eclipse and Breaking Dawn and includes what Edward and Bella do to prepare for their first night together as husband and wife.


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19. Chapter 19

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The first rays of daylight were appearing on the horizon when I heard Charlie start to move around. He followed his normal routine while getting ready and began to head downstairs. After the first step he paused and turned around.

I only had seconds to remove myself from Bella’s embrace and hide under her bed. Without the aid of my vampire speed I would not have made it out of sight before Charlie opened Bella’s door.

Motionless, I lay beneath her. Charlie walked to stand beside Bella’s sleeping form. I could see from his thoughts that she was lying half on her stomach with her arm outstretched over the space where I had been only moments before.

Charlie just stood watching her. His thoughts were filled with love and sadness. Somehow he knew I was taking her from him and not just in the normal way that occurs when one’s child marries. Bella was very perceptive and I’d learned she inherited that trait from her father. My love was much more direct than her father with her perceptions, but that didn’t make Charlie’s less. He was just subtle about it.

Finally, he turned back toward the hall and shut her door once more. I waited until he was downstairs before moving to the rocking chair. I spent the next few hours watching my love sleep. After all this time I was still fascinated.

~

Both Bella and I were ready to get out of the house for the day. Since going to my home was still not an option according to Bella, I convinced her to spend the day in Port Angeles. I’d checked with Alice and it would be overcast the entire day, giving us the perfect opportunity to be out together.

Bella’s bleeding was lessening so I was hoping a trip to my house tomorrow would be possible. Alice was getting restless. The fact she was going to spend all day Saturday with Bella seemed to make no difference.

We arrived in Port Angeles just before noon. I found a place to park only a block from the new bookstore. Bella was so excited; she was out of the car before I could reach her. I gave her a slightly disapproving look and she smiled sheepishly back. “Sorry,” she said biting her lip.

I sighed. “Shall we go find some books?”

Her smile was radiant. “Yes, please.”

I loved her excitement and entwined my fingers with hers giving them a small squeeze. She didn’t waist any time as she pulled on my arm leading us to the bookstore.

A bell rang as we entered. The shopkeeper looked up and smiled. I’m not sure Bella even acknowledged his presence as she headed toward the stacks.

She released my hand and began pulling books from the shelf one by one, reading the backs of each. We were there for almost an hour before she turned to me and blushed. “Sorry.”

I came up behind her, wrapping my arms around her waist and burring my face in her hair. “Why are you sorry, love?”

Her checks flamed redder as her blush deepened. “I got distracted. It’s been a while since I’ve been to a bookstore. I didn’t mean to ignore you,” she said, turning in my arms.

She held her latest perusal in her hands between us. I brushed a dark curl behind her ear and placed a soft kiss on her still flushed forehead. “I like when you’re distracted,” I whispered. “And I never tire of watching you, Bella. Your entire being lights up when you find a book that interests you.”

My fingers continued to brush the side of her face. “I would stand forever in this one spot if it meant it would be you I’d see.”

Her heartbeat pulsed faster and her body leaned into me. Her breathing deepened as our eyes held each other’s gaze. Bella’s lips parted just enough to release a rush of her intoxicating scent to my nostrils.

My hand cupped her chin, angling it up. Her eyes drifted closed in anticipation. Cold, hard lips, met soft, warm ones. It was supposed to be a chaste kiss, a simple show of affection between us, but it was not meant to be. We had too much emotion flowing to allow for something so simple.

Bella’s hands released their hold on the book and wrapped around my neck, pulling me closer to her. I tightened my own hold on her and decided to test my newly learned knowledge from the day before. From her chin, I brushed my fingertips along her jaw and slid my hand into her hair at the base of her neck. With this simple move, Bella pressed against me.

With that encouragement I began slowly running my fingers lightly along her scalp, just as I had yesterday, slowly increasing the pressure. I felt Bella’s body react. First her breathing accelerated. I could feel the hot puffs against my cheek, then her heartbeat. If I wasn’t so used to her reactions, I would have been concerned. Instead I was elated.

Bella pushed herself closer, molding her body to mine. I could feel every inch of her, as I knew she could of me. And I could smell the beginnings of her arousal. I knew we needed to stop. We were in the middle of a bookstore!

She shifted against me and the beginning of my need for her began to make itself known. A deep moan escaped her throat and I knew we had to stop. I had to stop this.

With the hard earned discipline of the last year and a half I stepped back, holding her at arms length. We were both panting, trying to regain our composure. “Maybe you should continue looking,” I said, my breathing still not completely normal. “I’ll wait for you in the coffee shop.”

She gave me a slight nod, her face flushed, and I headed toward the tiny area in the back of the store where they sold a small assortment of coffee and pastries. I ordered a coffee and sat down at a table to wait.

There weren’t many other people in the store, five others besides Bella and myself. I watched a little girl and her mother make their way up to the counter to check out. The girl was trying to remember details of the book she had in her hand. The woman was running through the list of things she still had to do today.

She looked nothing like Bella. The woman was four inches taller with sandy blond hair and blue eyes. Seeing her with her the little girl, who was clearly her daughter, sent a pang of guilt washing through me. I forced it away. This was Bella’s choice.

Closing my eyes I found another mind nearby to focus on. This one was skimming one of the new romance books. I chuckled to myself as the woman began attempting to picture the man described in her head trying to gage if she found him appealing. I moved on.

The bell rang again as two more patrons entered. It was two males this time. One took a turn toward the magazine rack, the other for the books. Both seemed to have a single minded purpose.

I was about to move on when the one who had headed into the books changed his focus. To Bella. I saw her in his mind. She hadn’t noticed him yet. He was behind her. Moving so he could see her in profile, his thoughts turned to ways he could approach her.

Leaving my untouched coffee, I quickly stood. Weaving through the shelves as quickly as I could while remaining at a human pace, I found Bella. The boy was only a few feet away from her when I rounded the corner and moving closer. I brushed past him, purposefully bumping into him lightly. “Sorry,” I mumbled.

Bella heard my voice, looked up and smiled. I gave her a full smile back in response. “It’s getting late, love,” I said, coming to stand beside her and pulling her against my side. “I thought we could get something to eat before we head home.”

She looked at me with a bit of suspicion in her eyes. The man behind me shifted his weight and she finally noticed him. When she looked at me again, it was with a knowing smile. “Sure,” she said, still amused. “Let me just pay for these and we can go.”

Walking toward the registers I stayed close to her side. The boy’s thoughts were one of disappointment. That’s right; mine.

I didn’t realize the wickedness of the smile on my face until the store clerk jumped slightly when we approached the counter. Forcing myself to cover my teeth, I waited silently while she paid.

We stopped at a small diner on the edge of town so Bella could have a late lunch. She told me about the books she’d bought. The variety she enjoyed amazed me. She’d managed to pick a mystery, a classic, a romance, and even a biography.

After finishing with her burger and fries and a bit of pouting when I insisted on paying for her meal, we headed back to Forks. It was still early and not being in a hurry I maintained a slower speed, keeping the odometer just under one hundred.

Bella was still excited about her purchases. Books stacked in her lap, she flipped through the pages. The new book smell added to the variety of scents already in the car.

Suddenly she closed her book and turned to look at me.

“What?” I asked.

Her cheeks flushed with embarrassment. I was about to repeat the question when she reached out and laid a hand on my arm. “I never asked how your weekend went. I’m sorry.”

I chuckled. “Neither did I, Bella. It’s okay though.” I reached for her hand and brought it up to my lips, placing a kiss on her palm. “My weekend was fine. I missed you though.”

She smiled. “Me too.”

I didn’t release her though. Instead I brought both our hands down to rest between us, sliding my fingers in between hers. “Did you have fun with Alice then?”

Bella groaned and laid her head back on the seat. I laughed. It didn’t take a mind reader to know their time together had been filled with wedding details. “Only two more weeks, love.”

She groaned again. “Not helping.”

I just smiled and gave her hand a squeeze.

~

Charlie was just getting home when we arrived at Bella’s house. “Hi, Bells.”

“Hi, dad,” she said as we made our way to the door.

“Edward,” Charlie acknowledged.

“Good evening, Charlie.”

Charlie wanted to order pizza but Bella insisted there were enough leftovers. In fifteen minutes she had dinner on the table and I disappeared into the living room to wait. Turning the television on I flipped through several channels before deciding there wasn’t anything worth watching.

Bella was sharing our day with Charlie so I sat back to listen. I had been there with her, so I didn’t feel so bad about eavesdropping. Her father listened attentively as she gave the highlights of our day together. Since the announcement of our engagement, Charlie had taken a more active interest in Bella’s daily accounts.

At the end of dinner, Charlie took his seat in the living room and scrolled through the channels until he located the game he was looking for. I excused myself and went to the kitchen to find Bella. Charlie’s eyes followed me into the kitchen, his mind remembering the position he’d caught us in just the night before.

Bella was still clearing the table as I entered. Seeing me, she smiled. I helped her finish removing the dishes and placed them on the counter for her. I stood a couple of feet away as she washed. I’d offered to help her in the past, but she insisted I was too much of a distraction for her and at that rate the dishes would never get done.

I waited until she finished the last dish and the water was flowing quickly down the drain. She wiped her hands and looked at the clock. It was only seven thirty. I took her hands in mine and pulled her closer to me. There was still some distance between us, but I could feel her heat. “I will need to leave a little early tonight. I am going out with Jasper for a bit but I will be back before you wake in the morning,” I said softly so Charlie couldn’t hear.

The look of disappointment on her face was clear. “When do you have to go?”

“We have another hour yet. Is there something you would like to do?”

“How about a walk?”

I smiled. “Sure.”

Bella told her father where we were going. Charlie’s response was his usual, “Okay, Bells. Be careful.”

We came around the back of the house and started down the old path. I could tell she was thinking by the way her brow was furrowed. I waited for as long as I could, which I admit wasn’t long. “What are you thinking?”

She glanced up at me and then down to the ground. We were holding hands as we walked, but she pulled hers from me and crossed her arms protectively across her chest. Taking a deep breath she looked straight ahead. “You don’t have to tell me if you don’t want to but…” she paused. “but why are you going out with Jasper tonight when you both just got back from hunting this weekend?”

She stopped but still didn’t face me. “Your not thirsty,” she said in a quieter tone.

I placed my hands on her shoulders and turned her to face me. “Bella. You can ask me anything.” It was my turn to pause. I sighed and reminded myself she had a right to know what I was doing. This affected her too. “Jasper has agreed to help me.”

The look of confusion was clear. I closed my eyes as the next words left my mouth. “He is going to help me with his gift. Help me prepare for our night together so I won’t be overwhelmed by feelings I’ve never experienced before.”

Bella was silent for a few minutes as what I said registered. Her eyes opened as I watched her. At last her face rose and she searched my features as if seeking confirmation of her thoughts. She must have found it. “Oh,” she said. “So he’s…he’s going to make you feel like your…we’re…”

She was clearly as uncomfortable with this conversation as I.

“Yes,” I sighed.

Bella didn’t say anything else for the rest of our walk. We emerged from the woods just before nine o’clock and she walked me toward my Volvo. I placed my hands on the side of her face so that I could look into eyes. “Bella. If you’re not okay with this, I will not go through with it.”

She shook her head. “No, it’s…it’s alright. I just…I never thought…” her voice trailed off.

“Bella…”

Her shoulders straightened and her face showed resolve. “Edward, if it will help you then you should do it,” her voice softened. “I know this is hard for you and if something can make it less difficult then…”

I nodded and leaned down to place a chaste kiss on her lips. “I love you, Bella. I’ll be back before morning.”

Stepping back I got into my Volvo. She remained outside the house while I drove away. Now it was time to face my next challenge and I had no idea if I could.