Dead and Gone
Edward dies trying to protect Bella. Even though Bella would rather die, the Cullens change her when Alice finds out the Volturi are on their way. The story takes place after her change (with a little flashback in the beginning explaining everything). I'm sure there are other stories to do with Edward dying out there, so I did not attempt to copy them if my story sounds like them. Oh, and the title was inspired by the song "Dead and Gone" by T.I. featuring Justin Timberlake (it has nothing to do with this story, it just seemed to fit).
I was going to wait to post this until after I had a few chapters, like I do with my other stories, but I liked this first chapter a lot, and I wanted to know what you all thought.
1. Chapter 1
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You have no idea how much I love you, how much I’m going to suffer now that you’re gone. I refuse to use the word death. I don’t want to come to terms with that yet.
I love you so much, and you risked your life for me. I’m the reason that you’re dead now. I don’t think I’ll ever forgive myself for that, but living with the memory of watching that happen to you that will be my punishment.
I don’t want to be changed now, although I’m sure your family won’t let me die. They’ll want me to stay with them. I don’t know why, when I’m the reason you’re gone.
I know you don’t believe that you have a soul, but I do. I know right now, you’re probably somewhere in heaven, for that’s the only place for someone as good as you, looking down at me, watching over me, protecting me from the danger I can’t seem to avoid.
One day I’ll find away to join you, though as I mentioned before I’m sure your family will never allow it. I’ve already tried jumping out my window several times. Alice was there every time to stop me though.
I’ll never get over you, how much I love you. I don’t think there’s even the smallest chance that I might move on. But I must say goodbye, for now. I’ll never think this is final, but I don’t think I’ll ever be able to return to Forks, not with all the memories that are here for me.
I love you, so much,
BellaI slowly walked into the forest where Alice waited. She smiled sadly before sweeping me off my feet and running me to the car. From there we went to Charlie’s. As we pulled in I noticed another car in the driveway. Jacob’s rabbit. I nodded at Alice and she got out of the car and went into my room through the window to start packing for me, while I trudged through the front door. “Bella? Is that you?” Charlie peeked his head around the corner of the living room. “Jacob’s here, he came to see you.” He watched my face for even the teeniest change, but there was none; it was partly the pack’s fault to. “Hey Bella!” Jake exclaimed. He came forward to hug me but stopped when he saw my face. “Is everything alright?” I looked at Charlie. “I didn’t tell him, I’ll um leave you alone to talk.” Charlie went into the kitchen, and I turned towards the front door, motioning for Jacob to fallow, I didn’t want Charlie to overhear our conversation. “What’s wrong Bella?” Jake asked once we were outside. “Think about it.” I stated clearly. “Did he leave you again? Then why is his sister’s car here?” His arms began to shake. “He did leave me Jake, but not the sense you think.” I wiped a stray tear away from my eye as realization dawned on his face. “Oh my gosh Bella, I’m so sorry I didn’t know.” He stepped towards me to give me a hug but I backed away. “No, you didn’t because you weren’t there. This may be mainly my fault, but it’s also your and your pack’s fault.” I snapped a little. “What do you mean?” Jacob asked confused. “You know exactly what I mean. If you had agreed to help then the Cullens wouldn’t have had to fight several newborns each at the same time. And he wouldn’t have been distracted fighting Victoria to notice that one newborn had disappeared. And then that newborn wouldn’t have gotten on his back and-and ripped his head… and Victoria wouldn’t have been able to hold me and MAKE me watch as they burned him…” I broke off sobbing. “Oh my gosh Bella, I-I’m really sorry. What can I do to make it up to you?” “Nothing… but you can start by not attacking the Cullens.” “Why?” he asked. “Because, the Volturi are on their way here, and if I’m not changed into a vampire then they’ll kill me, and the Cullens won’t listen to me when I say I’d rather die.” Even though my vision was blurry I could tell that Jake was shaking. “Yea, fine, you have my permission.” “Thanks Jake, I love you.” “I love you to Bella.” And with that he got in his car and drove away. I walked inside slowly. Alice was waiting for me in the front hall with all my things. She told me she would be waiting in the car and then breezed by me to the car. “Dad, I have something to tell you.” I walked into the kitchen. “Yea sure, what is it?” he looked up from the newspaper he was reading. “Well, I’m moving in with the Cullens until college.” It would be better to just get it all out there at once. “What?” he asked surprised. “Yea, um, Alice, Emmett and Rosalie are all going to the University of Alaska to, and Carlisle and Esme are moving up there to, they don’t want to be away from their family after… anyway they asked if I would. They’re concerned for me Dad. They know how much I loved him and they don’t want me to be alone.” “Alright, I guess that’s okay then.” Charlie stood up and kissed the top of my head while pulling me into a tight hug. “I’ll miss you Bella.” “I’ll miss you to. Um, I think Alice already got all of my stuff so I guess I’ll be going. I love you.” I kissed him on the cheek before turning and going out the door. As I shut the door I heard him mumble “I love you to.”