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Strained Emotions

This is Jasper's point of view of everything that happened it Forks. Bella's arrived and none of the Cullens know how to react. Jasper is by far one of the most intriguing characters to write in their POV. It's so much fun. I hope you enjoy reading it as much as I enjoy writing it!!

So I've decided that I should probably change the rating of this to teen purely because of language. Of course it isn't that bad, I just want to warn some people. :D

13. One of the Worst

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“What the hell were you thinking, Edward?!” Rosalie shrieked as she stormed out of the car. She turned to glare at him standing just where we could all see the look of fury on her face.

The rest of us got out of the car and watched as Rosalie was the first to attack.

“What were you thinking? Do you want to expose us to everyone? Do you want us to have to go into hiding again?”

I cringed at that last part. It was my fault the last time we had to go into hiding. I had accidentally attacked a girl during the night. We had to disappear off the face of the earth. Esme wasn’t too happy. She loved that house.

The anger coming from Rosalie was intense. She had lost it and under all her anger was fear. I knew why she was scared. It was the same reason the rest of us were scared. We didn’t want to be exposed. It’s hard having secrets from everyone except your family. Rosalie had the hardest time with it, but the rest of us were just as nervous. Edward was nervous, annoyed, and seemed slightly smug about something.

Rosalie continued her tirade, “Edward! You are not the only one who could be hurt because of your carelessness! You are leaving us in the wake of your mistakes. We’re the ones who will have to clean up your mess! I can’t believe you’re doing this to us!”

Rosalie looked like she wanted to keep yelling, but had run out of things to say. Edward hung his head and answered quietly, “I took care of it. Nothing will happen.”

I was shocked. What did he mean nothing will happen? “What did you do?” I asked. How could he have taken care of it?

Edward looked at me. I could tell he was relieved because I hadn’t yelled at him, but that doesn’t mean I wasn’t angry. I know I had no place to tell him he was wrong, but now he had messed up and expected us to let him handle it. To just sit back and hope he didn’t mess up.

“I talked to her,” Edward said calmly, but I knew he was anything but calm. His emotions were going everywhere. Some of them confused me, but I just ignored them. It wasn’t the most pressing issue right now.

Alice finally spoke up, “What did you say?”

“Yeah. What did you say? I can’t believe you talked to her. It’s bad enough that she knew you were on the other side of the parking lot,” I added.

Edward’s head snapped up to look at me. “What? How did you know that she knew?”

I shrugged. “I saw her looking at you as the van came towards her, which if you ask me is a little weird, but whatever.”

Edward shook his hear. “She’s more observant than most humans,” he sighed.

Rosalie looked like she was going to burst again and start yelling. Emmett was holding her to his side, trying to clam he by rubbing her arm. She was silently building up a fight. I knew that at any second she would burst.

Edward looked at everyone, most likely reading their thoughts, when he looked at me, he continued. “She saw that I was no where near her. She tried to trick me into telling her how I was able to lift a car off or her.” He smiled a just a little. “I acted like she was crazy for thinking I did that, but I could tell she wasn’t buying it. I tried to tell her that I was standing right next to her the whole time,” he paused, probably thinking of Bella’s reaction to that. “She wouldn’t let it go. She kept saying that she saw me by my Volvo.”

“Oh yes Edward! That sounds like you really took care of it!” Rosalie snapped, the sarcasm dripping from her voice. I personally agreed. If that was Edward’s way of taking care of things, we needed to have a little talk.

Edward shook his head. “Just wait Rosalie. I told you I took care of it and I did. Just wait.”

Rosalie glared and was about to say something but Esme walked up at that time.

“Stop,” Esme quickly ordered. I almost laughed at Rosalie’s anger. It was getting outrageous. “Edward,” she hesitated and Edward looked at her quizzically. Then he nodded quickly and set off for the house.

Emmett turned to Esme. “What? He wasn’t done with his story! Esme,” he whined, “Where is he going?”

Esme shook her head slowly as if that could get rid of her annoying children that fight too much. “I suggested we take this discussion inside. I heard yelling when you came home so I listened. I heard everything. I think this would be better with us all sitting down in the house.”

I nodded, agreeing. I could control the emotional atmosphere better if we were inside. Of course, inside someone might “accidentally” break something. Edward had a history of that.

We all walked silently to the house. Well almost silently. Rosalie kept murmuring a string of curse words under her breath and Esme kept telling her off.

This fight is going to be interesting, but where was Carlisle. He’s usually here whenever anything dramatic happens. And of course we couldn’t really decide what to do until he gets here, so where is he?

I was thinking this as we sat in the various chairs and couches in the house. We sat in awkward silence until Esme softly prompted Edward, “So honey, what did she do yet?”

Edward sighed and continued his story. “She pulled me aside asking if she could talk to me. She then asked me why I was lying to her. I was shocked. Well, not really shocked, just annoyed that she wouldn’t eat my lie and let it go. When I asked her why she wanted to know, she said that she didn’t like lying. She said that she wasn’t going to tell anyone, but she wanted a good excuse to lie. I refused to tell her, naturally, and she got upset, yet never said that she’d tell anyone.” He finished and turned to Rosalie. “So you see? I took care of it. She’s not going to tell anyone.”

Rosalie huffed and murmured, “That’s not really taking care of it. What if she decided to look closer?
Alice said, “She won’t.”

That was the first think Alice had to say about this and everyone turned to stare at her.

Emmett spoke for us, “What you do mean, she won’t?”

Alice grinned, “She won’t look deeper. I promise.”

I understood her power a little bit better than everyone else and said, “Wait. You mean she hasn’t decided to look farther yet, but what if she changes her mind?”

Edward then spoke softly. His voice laced with pain. I didn’t understand. “She won’t change her mind. This is one of Alice’s more detailed visions, meaning that it’s almost guaranteed.”

We all looked confused at Alice, except Rosalie who said, “Well I vote we leave before that could ever happen!” Alice stared at her incredulously. She continued, “I don’t care how clear the vision was! There’s still a chance she might change her mind. What would we do then? Kill her and move on? I’d rather not, so I vote we leave while we can.”

Edward cringed at the part about killing Bella and I tried to decipher what he was feeling. It was a strange mix of guilt, affection, and fear. I didn’t really understand.

Alice was angry now. “NO! I want to stay!” She yelled at Rosalie. “I want to see what happens. And none of it will be bad, okay? I don’t see why you wouldn’t trust me on this. You trust me on much more shifty matters. Nothing but good will come out of us staying here.”

Rosalie just glared at her, daring her to say anything else.

Alice turned to Edward ignoring Rosalie and said, “Edward, what do you want to do?”

Esme nodded. “Yes Edward. What do you want to do? I think you should have more say in this, as this is all about you.”

I shook my head. For once I agreed with Rosalie and not Alice. It isn’t all about Edward. It has to do with all of us. We all have to move if something goes wrong. We all have to hide our secret. If one of us slips, it affects all the others. This is not all about Edward!

Edward turned to me and said, “I agree Jasper. It’s not all about me. I don’t want it to be, but I want to stay,” Edward turned to Esme then. “Forks is a perfect place for us to pretend to be normal. We should try to stay here as long as possible. I’ll just try to stay away from her. It shouldn’t be that hard. I only have one class with her.”

At that moment Carlisle walked in and took in the scene before him. “I take you are talking about what happened today,” he said calmly. At everyone’s nod he continued. “So? What is our decision?”

I was shocked. He didn’t tell us what we were going to do? He’s the one that makes things finally? He just made it sound like he had no say in the matter?

Carlisle smiled at the confused faces around him. He sat down next to Esme and pulled her close to his side. “I think we should do whatever is necessary to keep us together as a family, as to what will achieve that is up to you.”

Rosalie sneered, “I think we should leave and prevent anything from happening, but Alice and Edward seem to think it’s better for us to stay. I don’t understand why. It seems to me that we’re falling apart all for a pathetic human.’

Edward growled at her. “I can handle it. Everything will work out fine.”

I shook my head, “But that’s not guaranteed Edward.”

Emmett nodded his head, “I agree, yet…” He hesitated pulling his thoughts together. Rosalie glared at him, almost daring him to disagree with her. “I think we should stay as long as possible. Alice should be able to see something before it happens…” He thought for a second then added, “Of course we should consider the other options. We could leave now and prevent anything from happening, but where would we go?”

“To Denali.” Rosalie said like it was the most obvious thing.

Alice shook her head, “You have to remember why we left there in the first place. We were too big of a group. We stood out too much.”

Rosalie glared, yet nodded realizing that Alice was right. I looked around at everyone and quietly asked, “So what are we going to do?”

Edward said, “I think we should stay for as long as possible. I understand that we might have to leave eventually, but I would like to avoid it as long as possible.”

Carlisle nodded, “That seems reasonable. If anyone finds a reason to leave, they should come tell me immediately. Until something threatens to destroy our way of life, we’ll stay.”

“Fine!” huffed Rosalie as she got up and stormed to her room.

Emmett sighed and followed her up.

Alice grabbed my hand and pulled me to her room. When we entered the room she turned on me, “What was that?”

I looked at her confused, “What was what?”

“That! You! Why didn’t you believe me?”

I sighed. “Alice. I always believe you, I just was thinking about it in the logical sense. I was merely seeing all sides of the problem.”

Alice shook her head. “Whatever.” She turned and walked to her closet and began searching for some clothes.

I could feel her annoyance and disappointment and I hated it. I walked behind her and snaked my arms around her “I love you,” I whispered in her ear. She relaxed in my arms and I felt love come from her. I sighed relieved. “Thank you,” I whispered.

She giggled, “You’re very welcome,” and then she turned in my arms and pulled my face down to hers to kiss me.