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Strained Emotions

Summary:
This is Jasper's point of view of everything that happened it Forks. Bella's arrived and none of the Cullens know how to react. Jasper is by far one of the most intriguing characters to write in their POV. It's so much fun. I hope you enjoy reading it as much as I enjoy writing it!!


Notes:
So I've decided that I should probably change the rating of this to teen purely because of language. Of course it isn't that bad, I just want to warn some people. :D


7. Edward's Coming Home?

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Esme's grief was overwhelming. I put a hand on her shoulder, hoping to clam her down. She smiled softly up at me, but the pain was still in her eyes. I tried to smile encouragingly. Everything would be okay.

“I'm not sure Esme,” Alice told her quietly. “It looks like he's going to leave and stay in Denali for a while.” Alice looked at the floor. Her grief was just as bad as Esme's but she had it more under control.

Esme was hit with a new wave of pain. “Mom,” I quickly cried out as I hugged her. “Don't worry. He won't be gone for long, right Alice?” I looked at Alice hoping she'd understand to lie for her.

“Yeah,” Alice caught on. “He won't be gone for long.”

Esme smiled slightly, knowing what we were doing. She nodded and turned to sit on the couch. Her worry was still very strong though.

I followed her, just slightly behind her and sat next to her on the couch. I put my arm around her shoulders, knowing that emotions could be manipulated much easier when I was actually touching someone. I tried to calm her as much as I could without overdoing it. “Really Esme. It will all be okay,” she only smiled a little at this. “And I'll be here with you the whole time he's gone.” I gave her a reassuring smile.

She smiled back at me slightly comforted by this. She sighed and turned on the TV. We watched numerous old videos, but as soon as they reminded her of Edward she would run and change it.

I watched this with anger. Anger that Edward would do this to all of us. Did he not think of everything this would do to our family? All we had done to stay together, and he didn't stay to fight for it. He didn't even come to say goodbye to Esme. I tried my hardest to not let Esme feel my anger. She felt no anger at all; all she felt was grief and fear. I wanted it to stay that way. It wasn't in her nature to hate someone for something that they had done.

After Esme had changed the movie for the twentieth time, she turned to me and said, “Jasper honey, you need to get ready for school. The others will be down any minute now.”

I was shocked. I told her I would stay here with her. I didn't want to go to school, knowing that she would be here by herself, suffering.

She read my expression and laughed lightly. “Don't worry about me. I'll be fine,” I didn't believe her. As if she could tell, she said, “Besides I won't be alone. Carlisle is taking a holiday from the hospital until Edward comes home. So please, don't worry and just go to school.”

I sighed. I couldn't argue with my mother. “Fine, but if you need me just call.” I smiled at her and ran to get ready.

Two days passed like this. I would stay all night with her keeping track of her emotions. She was at the verge of breaking down many times. In the morning I would argue with her saying that she needed me there, but in the end she would win and I would go to school.

After the third day of this growing more familiar routine, Alice came down the stairs in a flash. I felt her excitement and wondered what had happened. The way she was bouncing up and down made it clear that she had seen a vision, but what would make her this happy?

“Edward's coming home!” She yelled.

Esme beside me gasped. Her fears dissolved into pure joy. “When?”

Alice shook her head, “I'm not entirely sure, but it looks like tonight or tomorrow. It all depends on how fast he drives.” Alice laughed excitedly.

I shook my head as Emmett walked in. “Did I hear that right? Edward's coming home?” At Alice's nod he grinned. “Good. I'm gonna kill him.”

Esme looked shocked. “Emmett you will do no such thing!” His face fell slightly as Esme scolded him. “He's just coming home and we have to be nice to him. I'm sure you know what it's like to feel like you're not strong enough.”

Emmett sighed. He knew that he had lost that battle. He's anger was still very strong though.

Behind Esme's back I grinned at him and winked. He understood. I would take care of it.

He cheered slightly at this thought, but hid it from everyone else. He went back upstairs to Rosalie.

Alice smiled at me and went upstairs to our room. I wanted to follow, but I had to make sure Esme was okay first.

I looked down at her and she grinned at me. I could tell that there was no need for me to be there. She wasn't going to go to pieces any time soon. I smiled at her and said, “Well, it feels like you're okay now. I'm going upstairs. If you need me just call.”

She grinned at me. She was barely able to contain her excitement that Edward was coming home.

I laughed as I ran up the stairs. I had to look happy that Edward was coming home if I wanted to get away with what I was about to do. I don't think anyone has actually attacked anyone else in the family.

I put on a happy face as I walked into mine and Alice's room. I looked over to see her sitting on the end of our bed.

“It won't work Jasper.” She almost growled.

Damn. She saw what I was going to do. I need to start not actually making decisions until the last possible moment.

“I saw what you're going to do and it won't make a difference. You're still going to get into trouble.”

I sighed. “I don't care about getting into trouble. I just want Edward to feel the pain that Esme, and I, through her, had to feel. He should know that his careless mistakes could lead to hurting our family.”

She shook her head and I knew what she was thinking. “I know. I can't point fingers. I know that I've messed up a lot, but I felt everyone else's pain. I knew what they were feeling.”

Alice opened her mouth to argue.

“No,” I said before she could start. “I felt that. Yes, Edward knows what we're thinking but that is different then knowing that the pain eating away at Esme is you're fault. I just can't let him off easy.”

She sighed. “If you think it's for the best.”

I nodded.

“Well,” she said softly. “Here's your chance to hurt him, because he's about to pull up into the drive.”

Sure enough a few seconds later I could here the sounds of a car pulling up to the house. I ran downstairs and stopped at the platform with the piano. Esme was standing near the door in anticipation for when Edward came in. Emmett came and stood near me and Alice went to stand next to Esme. Carlisle was still not home from the hospital yet. Rosalie walked in on the phone.

“Yeah dad. He just came home. Get here as soon as you can.” Then she hung up.

We all waited for what felt like en eternity. Edward, you better hurry up.