Cries of a Dead Heart
She lost her meaning for life.
Everything has gone so wrong in her life, lately.
When she meets the Cullens can they help her find a meaning to live, and even a family?
Or will she find love in all the wrong places? I have a majority of this story writtenthe more reviews I get the faster the next chapters will go up :]
“Edward, what did Alice see?” she asked, like she didn’t even want to know the answer.
I don’t think I really wanted to know either.
The whole room, including me went into shock at the sound of one word.
“Wolves” he whispered.
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I was stopped abruptly when I slammed into what felt like a boulder. I looked up confused, Edward was standing in front of me. I keep forgetting his talent. He must have heard my thoughts and put two and two together, knowing what it was leading to. He grabbed my hand and pulled me from the floor.
“I‘m sorry C.J. you can‘t attack him” he said it almost as if he wished he could say otherwise. I lifted my eyebrow questioning him. The look on his face told me that this discussion was over.
“Jakey, it’s ok” Nessa comforted him, hugging him tightly.
I quickly took my eyes off of the murderer before I looked back at Edward. He motioned for me to sit, so I did.
“Now who is this Jared, that you think Jacob killed” he asked looking into my eyes. I looked away quickly. Jared….only the core of my being, the reason for my existence, the love of my life and the center of my world…but not anymore. Edward’s expression grew pained. He quickly wrapped me in a hug. I threw my arms around him and sobbing dry tears. Life was so unfair, and it seemed like it was the end for me, but I had a feeling that this family would help me live through the worst of all pains. Edward pulled away and looked at me.
“We will definitely try our best” He whispered. To anyone passerby this conversation would have looked a little more than just a comforting, but I was comfortable. Edward felt somewhat of a shelter for me to harbor in.
“Edward, what‘s going on?” the blonde woman across the room asked. I looked over quickly. She was very beautiful much like the rest of her family. She looked like a supermodel. I was taken back when I realized I hadn’t really looked at anyone in the room.
“It‘s ok Rosalie” He confirmed her worries, but she looked at me skeptically, almost as if waiting for me to jump up and fly out of the room “Ok look put yourself in her shoes. What would you do if you lost Emmett?”. Just as soon as those words slipped out of his mouth, her expression changed drastically. Her face fell and she looked like she was about to start crying. Emmett crossed the room in two steps, and grabbed her in his arms.
“It’s ok Rose” he whispered in her ear, but still loud enough for us to hear “I’m right here, and I always will be”. She sighed and hugged him. Edward looked back at me.
“So C.J.” he resumed his steady attitude “why do you think Jacob killed Jared?” My expression, and total train of thought shifted to fury and I changed my position to face Jacob.
“I KNOW HE DID” I screamed, every face averted to me. Edward grabbed my arms, and brought them around behind my back, so to make sure I didn’t repeat my earlier stunt. Jacob looked at me and smiled, like all of my pain an fury did nothing but amuse him. That made me so much angrier.
I could feel Edward’s strong grasp on me tighten, and his arm wrap around my torso. I hadn’t noticed how hard I was pulling, until I felt Edward shift, and grip me tighter. All I cared about at the moment was ripping that creature’s neck out of his body.
“JASPER!” Edward screamed behind me “I’m not going to be able to hold her if she gets any angrier, do something”. Why would he ask Jasper, the smaller blonde to help, when Emmett was easily the strongest. Suddenly I felt myself slowly calm down. So that must be some power of his. I guess if I wasn’t momentarily distracted by the choice in help, it might not have worked. They are clever. I settled back down into the couch, and started to breathe heavily. I didn’t need to breathe, but this seemed to be helping me get control over my mind, all the while Jasper was calming me down. I sighed and closed my eyes. They all knew I wasn’t asleep, but they left me like that so I could pull myself together. When I opened my eyes they were all still sitting there, including Jacob. He noticed me looking around and turned his glare back on me. Bella noticed and hit him in the back of the head.
“Jacob you will not be rude to our guest” She said it so formally. I snickered, and everyone looked at me surprised. Jasper leaned over to the small girl with black pixie-like hair, and whispered something I distinctly heard as “Maybe she is loosing it”. Edward stood, and looked down at me.
“We will finish the conversation about your…..erm….story” he managed to get the words out “But it wouldn’t feel right if you didn‘t know the family, since you keep having thoughts about the fact”. I looked down sheepishly, at my feet. Apparently he was keeping tabs on my thoughts. They went around the room and each one introduced themselves. I learned that the woman I thought to be the mother figure was indeed the mother, Esme, that the small pixie-girl was Alice, and she could see what was going to happen in the future, and what not. Also that the smell I had smelt earlier at school really was half-vampire/half-human.
“How?” I whispered.
“Well” He smiled “Bella and I, our story is similar to yours”. What did that mean? He was still alive, and they were friends with wolves for crying out loud. Edward chuckled.
“No” he said mid-laugh “I mean we fell in love when she was human”. Oh that made sense now. It really wasn’t everyday when a vampire falls in love at all, much less with a human. And she had baby, with a vampire? I’d dig more into that on later, but right now I need to get on with this. I need to finish my story. Maybe then it would clarify that the monster sitting in this very room with me, is a murderer and they will let me kill him. Edward chuckled under his breath and shook his head.
“Just go on” he motioned with his hand. I slumped back into the couch and started were I left off.
“On my nineteenth birthday he brought me back here to Washington, so I could say goodbye to my family. Not in those exact words, but one last visit with them before he took me away. He gave me a week with them which I was very grateful for, but I hated that he left me. When he came back to pick me up he…he..proposed” I held out my hand for them to see, with the ring still planted on my left hand. There were a number of gasps around the room, but I just kept going “He wanted to do it in front of my family. I was in a state of shock, and had to slap myself to make sure I wasn’t imagining this. When I realized that he was real, and serious I quickly agreed. My mother wasn‘t too pleased, but I was just relieved that it was one conversation out of the way. I was dreading telling my dad. But then he told me that when I was here spending time with my mother, he had gone to Oregon just to get my father‘s permission. He was very skeptical about it at first, but something about Jared made him agree
“I let my mother plan the wedding. She went all out. I didn’t want something that huge, but I was just relieved that she had finally come around, and started calling Jared ‘son’, and treating him like part of the family. The day of our wedding was the happiest day of my life. I still remember the music that was played, and I cried like a baby. For our honeymoon we went to a beautiful cabin deep in the forest, I later learned he had built. It had everything we needed. He changed me that night. It was the most painful thing I remember ever happening to me. I held in my screams as best as I could because I knew it was hurting him, but I wasn’t strong enough to keep from crying out. When I woke, I was a different person. My senses were heightened, and I felt so powerful. My eyes were bright red, which confused me. He told me that it was my own blood still inside me and that once I started hunting animals, in a about a year it would be the same as his. I was so happy with him. He was the prince from all of my dreams just with a little more twist. The hardest thing was convincing my parents I was dead. The story the police told them was that we were mauled by bears, while hiking. They had a funeral, but the caskets were closed, so nobody noticed that they were empty. We moved to Everett into this beautiful house. I loved that house so much. We had waited two years after my change for me to come out in public. We lived there for a while, even enrolling in school. But….one day” I stopped short. Edward motioned for me to continue.
"One day, we went hunting, and we came upon these massive beasts. Some that just so happen to smell like your little friend. He thought that they wouldn‘t harm us because we were different. He knew what they were, but I didn’t. Werewolves. He told me to just go. I told him I wasn’t leaving him, and he said that they might not be safe, and he just want to make sure. Just then one growled, and the others took lead, and started too. One of them jumped out at me, and Jared grabbed him throwing him into a tree knocking him out cold. The others quickly took defense. We turned and ran. I just kept running until I saw the familiar path of our home, and he came behind me. We had lost them, luckily. Jared said that it wasn’t safe for me to be there any longer, and that we were to move immediately. It annoyed me how he always did that though. He was in danger also, but all he cared was that I was threatened. We went far away, but not so far that they couldn’t find us apparently.
“He bought us this beautiful house in Forks. I was so content living here with him. It was great. I didn’t go to school, but I was going to start school in a few weeks. He wasn’t pleased with the idea of me going without him, but he had taken a job. We went out one Saturday night. He had arranged this kind of picnic minus the food. He took me out into the middle of the forest, and we danced. He was so graceful, and perfect. He had everything, the candles, the music, even a blanket. We were dressed for a special occasion, me in the only little black cocktail dress I owned and he was in what he called his nice attire. We stopped suddenly when we heard a sound. It was coming from within the trees. They had hunted us down all the way to Forks. I was shocked, and Jared turned immediately angry, I assumed because they had ruined our special evening. He grabbed my arm and threw me behind him, when the biggest one growled. I told him that we needed to just run, but he was too furious to hear me. We were outnumbered, and he turned to me and told me to run. I again, told him I was not leaving him.
“He finally gave in and we ran together. I didn’t hear him, but I assumed he was behind me like last time. I ran for several minutes, and stopped to wait for either him to show up or the beasts, and that’s when I heard it. The worst sound I’ve ever heard in my entire life. My Jared scream out in pain, and the sound of screeching metal. I ran back, and found our picnic site trashed, and no Jared. I searched through the forest all week, hoping I would find him instead of running back into those things again. But nothing. I called for him, and he never came. I knew they had killed him. He never did anything to anybody. He was always so …..so perfect.
“I went home, and stayed there. I didn‘t want to move. I hated life, and everyone in it. I hated any life that I had to live without Jared. I soon began forcefully pulling myself out of my depression, knowing that he wouldn’t want me to live my life this way. I wasn‘t happy anymore. Nothing made me smile. I was like a lifeless body just floating around. When school came around I didn‘t feel like going, but finally convinced myself it would be healthier to get out, and think about other things.
“But-” Edward cut me off. I averted my eyes from the ground to him. His expression looked overly pained. I felt so bad that I was throwing all of my depressing life story on them.
“If you are going to feel bad” he whispered “Feel bad for Jasper. He just went through every emotion you just went through” I looked up at Jasper. His eyes were closed, and he was shaking. Alice was by his side trying to comfort him, for pain that wasn’t even his own.
“I‘m so sorry Jasper” I whispered, but I knew he heard me. Jasper opened his eyes slowly and looked at me.
“How can anyone live through so much?” Jasper asked, shocked. Everyone in the room looked at me. I suddenly felt extremely self-conscious. Edward shook his head. I sighed and looked down. I missed Jared so much, but there wasn’t anything I could do. But I have these people, this wonderful family, who offered to take me in, when I had nobody. I love them so much already for that. I sighed in relief at the thought. My new family.
I felt a wave of comfort sweep over me.
Edward averted his focus to Carlisle.
“So Carlisle” he paused to look back at me briefly “What do you want to do?”
“Edward the only thing I see as a problem” he sighed “is that we need to go speak to the pack about this”. Jacob shot up.
“You mean to tell me that if the pack even did kill him” he yelled “that you’re going to blame them for doing their job”. Everyone looked at him shocked. Maybe they were finally seeing the monster come out in him.
“Jacob” Carlisle seemed to be trying to prevent the inevitable from happening
“It‘s plain and simple. Did they or did they not kill an innocent vampire?” He spoke slowly
Jacob looked straight at me.
“No” Jacob smiled.
“YOU’RE A LIAR!” I screamed. Edward grabbed me, but it was of no use. I wasn’t trying to get to him. I buried my face in Edward’s shirt, and heavy sobs shook my entire body. He let go and wrapped his arms around me. I could tell that me and him were going to be close. Best friends, like brother and sister. I was so emotional today from letting out everything I had bottled up inside of me for months out. I was extremely grateful that Edward didn’t seem to mind being my shoulder to cry on.
“How do we know she isn‘t lying” Jacob sneered. I jerked my head up ready to defend myself, but was shocked that Jasper beat me to it.
“The greatest actor in the world could not have faked that level and intensity of pain” He practically shouted. I was extremely grateful I had one on my side angry at the mongrel. He has no right to call me a liar. I don’t even have the imagination to come up with something off the top of my head. Part of me actually wished I was lying, but I couldn’t bring myself to regret meeting him, and loving him. Suddenly Edward shot a confused look at me. Did I think of something strange? I sifted through my previous thoughts I had, but didn’t find anything that would make him look at me so strangely.
“Do you have a talent?” he asked suddenly. I shook my head.
“No I don’t” I sighed. I wished I had a power. It would make being a vampire a little more interesting. He looked at Carlisle.
“Carlisle, I can‘t hear her” He said shocked. Every face turned shocked including my own. Carlisle eyed me skeptically.
“I wonder why that is” Carlisle murmured. He turned back to Jacob “You should leave, and I will be speaking to Sam Uley very soon” Jacob glared at me and stomped out the door. Nessa rose in defense.
“Grandpa, Jacob isn‘t even in the pack anymore” she groaned. Just like a teenager “It isn’t his fault”.
“That may be true Nessa” He spoke softly to her “But we need to know the details in who it was. And you need to go to bed”. She nodded and sulked up the stairs. I suppose I shouldn’t be surprised that she can sleep. I’ve never heard of anything like her, so who am I to question what she can and can’t do,even if it is different. But I couldn’t hide the questioning look on my face.
“She is part human” Edward spoke beside me “So she is quite different” He averted his eyes to look at Carlisle. “It was only for a few minutes, she has to have some kind of power”. So he did hear what I was thinking about Carlisle looked around pondering for a moment. Then the voices came in. I screamed and grasped the sides of my head. What the hell was going on? I felt Edward grab me. After a few seconds of being shaken, I finally opened my eyes. Everyone was standing around me. Some staring at me like I had lost my mind, some looks were scared, others were concerned. I could hear them, but nobody was speaking.
‘What the hell is going on?’
‘I think she has lost it”
‘Maybe her power is screaming, cause that’s gonna kill my hearing for while’
‘I really hope she’s ok’ then they stopped.
I looked around. Well I sure felt like and idiot, but in my defense I was taken by surprise. It’s not everyday you hear voices in your head, at least not for me. They really think I’m psycho. That’s just wonderful, I thought to myself.
I’m gonna be kicked out of this house.
“No we don‘t think you are psycho” It was Edward that finally broke the intense silence. He switched his focus on Carlisle.
“She‘s used both Bella‘s talent, and yours too Edward” Carlisle said “So it seems she has an unusual power, but definitely a power”. Everyone turned to Carlisle.
“Wait” Bella pointed to herself “She used my power?” Carlisle nodded. I shot a confused glance at Bella.
“I‘m a shield” She explained “My mind is the only one that Edward can‘t hear” she paused “Unless I want him to”. Wait what? I had heard of some pretty strange powers, like Jane’s when Jared explained all of that to me, but…
“I have a power?” I asked looking back at Carlisle. He looked at me intensely.
“It would seem so” He raised his hand to place on his head “Did he….ummm have a power?” Apparently they were trying to spare my emotional state by not mentioning his name. I wouldn’t tell them that it hurt all the same. I shook my head. He had never told me of a power. If he did have one he would have told me. Wouldn’t he
“Wait, Carlisle, Bella and I were the only ones to touch her” he paused to look back at me “could that have anything to do with it?” Carlisle nodded.
“That could indeed be her power” They all snatched their heads out of focus on Carlisle, to look back at me. God I freaking hate attention.
“She‘s an absorber” Edward said mostly to himself. Carlisle nodded. An absorber? Did that mean I I used other’s powers, like a sponge or something? That’s creepy.
“It would seem so” Edward said, answering my thoughts.
Annoying Edward, I thought staring straight at him. He smiled. I don’t think I will ever get use to his power. It’s so amazingly annoying. Once I got control over whatever power I had, I’m going to shield my mind. Hopefully Bella won’t mind me borrowing her power. Edward glared at me.
“She won‘t, but I will” Ha he heard that didn’t he.
“If it‘s the only way to keep you out of my head then, I‘m doing it” I switched my focus to Bella “You wouldn’t mind would you? If I used your power to keep Edward out of my head?” They all burst out laughing, all except one. One bitter little Edward. He was still glaring. It was apparent the he didn’t want to be pushed out of my head. Too bad.
“Of course not” Edward turned his glare to her, she took immediate offense to that.
“Edward Anthony Masen Cullen, you do not need to be in everybody‘s head”. Thank you Bella. They were all still amused by the look still set in Edward’s features. This is hilarious. Edward hung his head.
“Sorry Bella” he mumbled “It‘s just so annoying, It makes me feel uncomfortable, to not know what you think as it is”. So that was his problem.
“Don’t worry so soon, Edward” I comforted him “It‘s going to be a while before I can control my newly found ‘power’ anyway”. It worked, he smiled. This is going to be an interesting family to live with. Edward stood up, and turned his eyes to me.
“Come on, I‘ll drive you home” Wait what? I thought they wanted me here? It’s not like I needed to go home. Edward laughed.
“Of course we still want you here” he said it almost as if my thoughts were utterly insane “I just thought you might want your books, if you are going to school with Nessa tomorrow”. Oh it made sense now. I had completely forgotten about school. I should probably get my clothes too. I wasn’t quite ready to move out of my house yet, but I was willing to spend some time away, besides it is what I was looking for. That’s when it all came back. I had been so caught up in everything going on I completely forgot the thing in my home. The note. I quickly became terrified. Jasper was by my side in an instant trying to calm me down.
“Edward what was she thinking about?” Jasper asked.
“There was something in…..her house” he said it almost as if it was too insane to believe, but his voice kicked up a notch. Bella jumped up.
“You mean something not like us?” she asked me. I still have no idea what it could be. I nodded.
“Don’t worry C.J. we will come with you” she said grabbing my hand “Nothing is going to happen. You are part of our family now. We got your back”. I smiled.
“Thanks guys” This might not be as hard as I thought it was. Just then Edward stiffened. He looked quickly to Alice. Alice looked scared stiff. What the hell is going on? What did she see that was so terrifying? Bella yanked on Edward’s arm, and forced him to look at her.
“Edward, what did Alice see?” she asked, like she didn’t even want to know the answer. I don’t think I really wanted to know either.
The whole room, including me went into shock at the sound of one word.
“Wolves” he whispered.